#um yeah. like if you met me 5 years ago it was a lot worse and a lot more obvious.
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omg are you a fellow germany enthusiast - I have no real basis for liking the language/country but she never leaves my mind
hallo,
*stares at dutch flag* actually im shocked that you picked up on the germany thing, because she is very much buried underneath the netherlands thing these days. but she is real, she is there, and i haven't forgotten her.
i can pinpoint the basis of the germany obsession to me visiting germany (WHO KNEW) in 2017, and all throughout my final years of high school, i kid you not people knew me as the germany girl. like apparently even the younger years. like my mum has ran into my old classmates who were like "oh she loved germany right?" which cemented this. i had a singular german flag on my wall. i briefly considered doing germanic studies at uni before getting a grip. all my self interest projects were about germany. for example, my year 12 drama individual project was a script set in 1930s munich, my modern history historical investigation was on ludwig of barvaria and my big history extension major was about memory practises in east germany. my english teacher told me to stop writing my module c creative writing pieces set in germany (nein) (she also didn't like me tbh). i basically picked and chose the german examples to memorise for my final exams, like now when i write essays i go for dutch examples. i tried to translate the german sources in my modern history exam lol. my (ex, i hate these girls now) friends gave me goethe's faust as a birthday gift. like, i was in deep. but at least i had reason.
anyways i am so impressed you picked up on this so um hi. sorry this took so long.
#actually i dont talk about it anymore all that often so im impressed you noticed#um yeah. like if you met me 5 years ago it was a lot worse and a lot more obvious.#*sigh* the heart wants what it wants#i guess??#nowadays i think the netherlands is more my thing.#and i do think its more intense than the germany thing only because germany never quite got its own 'goud'#i wrote a very major work set in germany and i did that because i loved germany but its not evident like it is in goud.#so yeah. live laugh love.#danke fĂźr die frage#thanks for asking
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pairings: lando norris x reader, exbf! mason mount x reader summary: part two of got love struck notes: kinda dragged making this but finals are finally over so send me some requests plsđ¤¸ââď¸ this ones kinda angsty and there's lots of miscommunication sorry hehe part three, masterlist
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The night was full of partying, drinking and dancing as you celebrated your best friend's 23rd birthday. The night quickly turned into a mess when you went to the bar to get everyone more drinks. When you came back your friends were nowhere to be seen, you assumed they were in the dance floor but when you went to check, they weren't there either. To make matters worse, you had put your phone in your friend's purse for safe keeping so you had no way to contact them. The panic quickly sobered you up as you looked everywhere for them but instead you found different a familiar face.
"Mason?"
"Y/n! Hey, I didn't realize you were here."
Your ex-boyfriend went for a hug as he greeted you. You and Mason ended your relationship over a year ago, and though you felt no animosity towards the football player, the breakup had been hard as everybody on the internet seemed to have an opinion on it. It was mutual breakup, you both were in different stages in your life and it just seemed like it wasn't your time.
"Yeah, I was celebrating y/bff/n's birthday with a few other girls, but I have no idea where they are and they have my cell." You were starting to get frustrated as you felt like they left without you.
"Oh no, I would help you look but I'm about to head out. Let me give you a ride home, I would hate for you to be here by yourself."
You knew if somebody saw you and Mason alone it would cause chaos all over again, but you had no other choice at the moment and you just wanted to go to bed. You agreed and as you left you both were oblivious to the cameras taking pictures of you leaving through the back door together.
As you pulled up to your hotel you smiled at Mason and thanked him.
"You're a lifesaver Mase seriously, I don't know what I would've done if I never found them or you."
"You don't have to thank me y/n. I will always look out for you even if we're broken up. I still care for you."
"You're a great friend, I'll always look out for you too."
"And um I have to ask,"
You could tell he was nervous as he scratched the back of his neck and his cheeks flushed slightly.
"What is it Mase?"
"Do you love him?"
You were surprised by the question, not expecting him to bring up Lando.
"Um yeah-yes. I love him so much, I can't even find the words to describe it to be honest. I don't think any song I write can even measure to how strong my love is for him."
"That's good, yeah, that's great. I just, I'm happy you found your person y/n. You know, I thought that person would be me, but if you're happy, than I am too. I guess we just weren't meant to be."
"Mase, you're one of the most amazing people I've met, seriously. I don't think it was ever in the cards for us, but you've taught me so much and you'll always have a special place in my heart. You will find your person one day, I promise."
You smiled at Mason as you spoke, not realizing you had given him the closure he had been needing for a year.
Lando was freaking out.
He had been sent the article of you and Mason over 5 times already and you hadn't answered your phone in over 2 hours. His mind was reeling as he was thinking about what you could possibly be doing right now. Even though he trusted you more than anything, he couldn't help but let it get to him. Why aren't you answering?
He knew your phone was charged and turned on considering he can still see your location. As he checked it again, he realized you were no longer at the club. You were at someone's apartment. Why weren't you at your hotel? Who's apartment was this?
Before he let himself jump to conclusions, he called y/bff/n knowing you two went out together.
"LANDOOOO! HI."
"Y/bff/n, hey is y/n with you?"
"Y/n? Oh nooooo. Aw I miss her Lan, is she with you?"
"What? No, how could she be with me? I'm in Monaco right now."
"Oh. Then I'm not so sure."
Lando could feel himself getting frustrated as he spoke with the clearly intoxicated girl.
"Okay, did she go home with you? With anyone else?"
"I don't know, you should probably call her or something."
"I did, over 10 times in the past hour."
"Oh maybe she's busy! Let me know how it goes, bye!"
"Wait-"
She hung up. Lando was going to throw up. He was never considered himself as an insecure guy, but he couldn't help but feel there was something going on. He's seen those tweets and comments saying how much everyone loved you and Mason together. What if those comments made you realize they were right? What if you were with Mason right now? Lando wanted to cry, scream and throw up all at once.
Three loud knocks woke you up from your beauty sleep. You were still in last night's clothes as you were too tired to even change after the nights disaster. You opened the door and your best friend ran in and hugged you.
"Y/N! I'm so so sorry for leaving you all by yourself. I was completely blacked out and I guess I was acting sloppy because y/f/n said we got kicked out of the club! I was acting too drunk and they got mad im so so sorry, this is all my fault and we tried to tell security to get you but they were so mean and-"
"Y/bff/n stop. It's fine, it was your birthday, you deserved to act a little crazy."
"Still babe, I'm sorry. Now that article is being spread like crazy and it's all because of me."
"What are you talking about? What article?"
"Shit. I forgot, here's your phone. But I have to warn you, people saw you leaving the club with Mason last night and the rumors have already begun. Im sorry hun."
Oh god.
Lando𧥠15 missed calls 5 unread messages
YourPublicist 2 missed calls 1 unread message
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Y/f/n 8 unread messages
The notifications were endless as you scrolled through your phone but there was only one that you really cared about. You immediately called Lando, afraid he was angry at you for this mess.
"Lan, baby, I'm so sorry for worrying you. I just opened your messages, y/bff/n had my phone all night." You immediately gave him a run down of the night as you knew what it was like to be in his position. The media has circulated so many rumors about your relationship overnight and you knew how hard that was. You had dealt with it all throughout your career and you were heartbroken it was happening to Lando because of you.
"That's weird because I actually called y/bff/n last night and she did not mention she had your phone."
"She was so out of it last night, she probably forgot she even had it. Oh god, she was downing shots I'm honestly not even surprised she got kicked out, she was so crazy-"
"Y/n, you don't understand, I have not slept all night. I was worried and everyone is talking about this. I look like an idiot in this situation."
You knew Lando was going to be upset but after your explanation, you didn't expect for him to still be angry at you.
"I know, the night was a mess, but nothing happened with Mason. He just dropped me off and I'm grateful it was him and not some random taxi."
"You're grateful it was him? You're grateful these pictures are all over the internet?"
"That's not what I meant! I meant he was the safest option at that moment, I had nobody else."
"Yeah. Half of the internet is happy it was him. People are actually celebrating thinking you guys are back together."
"Don't listen to them Lan, me and Mase are never getting back together. People will accept it over time and this will blow over."
"Why are you being so casual about this? Do you even know how I felt last night when you weren't answering. I was going to be sick thinking what you could possibly be doing with him."
"Lan, I told you nothing happened. Why aren't you believing me?"
"This is just all too much." Lando knew he was overreacting a bit. Your story made sense and it all lined up, but he had spent the entire night overthinking and reading the rumors about you two that he couldn't get them out of his mind. He loved you so much and last night made him realize how easily he can lose you and that thought terrified him. You were everything to him, but did you really feel the same way?
"Are you breaking up with me? Seriously? Over a stupid tabloid, I can't believe this." You felt betrayed. Did he not trust you?
"I dont know, it's just hard for me wrap my head around this right now."
"Lan, my flight to Monaco leaves in a few hours, how about we just talk about this in person when our heads are clear?"
Lando was getting angrier as the call went on. He knew his insecurities were getting the best of him right now but he felt like you weren't listening to him. You were trying to brush this off when the whole world was going against you two right now.
"Wow Y/n. My heads pretty fucking clear right now. You know what? Maybe it's best if you don't come, yeah?"
"Yeah, okay."
one week later
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dailymail Singer Y/n Y/l/n spotted once again with Manchester United star, Mason Mount, leaving a restaurant with a few other football players. Are the two officially back together? Rumors of her breakup with Formula One driver, Lando Norris have been circulating for over a week now after Y/l/n and Mount were seen leaving a club together. Read more on this new love triangle in our article linked in our bio.
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user1 im so excited for this album HAHAHA
user2 team mason idc
user3 funny how the last song she dropped was titled slut, if the shoe fits :)
user4 slut shaming in 2023? disgusting.
user5 i refuse to believe her and lando broke up sorry
user6 delulu is the solulu atpđ
notes: another cliffhanger!!!đ¤¸ââď¸also this isn't proofread at all my bad heh
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The King will fall pt2 (King Steve Harrington x Fem! Henderson reader)
Warnings- Bullying, angsttttt, one sided love, mutual pinning,eventual smut (soft love), crying, bad home life(steve), best friends-enemies-friends-lovers <3.Â
Summary: you remember the day you met him, the day you fell in love with him, and the day you fell out of love with him. Then the day that everything changed what happens when two strayed souls are pulled back together and forced to question what happened that day. The day Steve Harrington broke your heart, and will he be the one to fix it?
Chapter 2: snowball
Pt 1:
WC: 1,536
Memories they are. Wonderful, terrible, horrible thing. Some are good, great even but some are not. Some keep replying in your head over and over again and all you do is wish you could forget.
Age 12 I was in 7th grade and Steve was in 8th. It was winter, 1978. The Hawkins middle school snowball dance was slowly approaching. Steve told you it was a stupid dance when you had told him you wanted to go. 4 weeks ago âCome on Steve, it will be fun,â I said . He looked at me with an annoyed look but slightly smiled. âOkay fine care bear weâll goâ âYay okay be at my house at 7? My mom can take usâ. âYeah, yeah okay let's get going nowâ.
You and Steve had been friends since that day in 3rd grade. 5 years and you had so many adventures. So it was weird when this last year Steve has gotten distant. You could feel it you thought maybe his dad had been hard on him again or something. You and him bonded over things even if they weren't great. When your father left he was there for you and made you feel a sense of normality. When his parents left him to go on business trips or forgot his birthday, or yelled at him you and your family were there for him. So now when he kept making up excuses and reasons of why he couldn't talk or come hang out you thought the worse.
He obviously had other friends as did you. You had a really good friend named Robin. You guys were in band together. But Steve started making a lot of new friends who were mean. You had seen them around school; they just weren't good kids. All the girls have crushes on him now and to be honest it kinda hurt. Everyone has grade school crushes but you've seen him the real him and it just feels like everyone is faking.Â
You were standing at your locker grabbing your stuff when Robin walked up to you. âYou're coming tonight rightâ - âYeah Iâm excitedâ I say looking at her. âYeah because you're going with Steve Harringtonâ she says laughing. I could feel my cheeks start to warm up and my heart beat quicken. âOmg Robin shhh, and stop, you know we're just friendsâ. She looks at me and rolls her eyes âmhhh yeah okay iâll see you tonightâ. I separated as i waved bye to her
 I walked outside to my moms minivan. I see Steve by the sidewalk talking to his friend Tommy as I walk over to them. âHey Steve, my moms here you readyâ. Their conversation halts and he turns around âoh um actually Tommy is gonna take me home today cause we're gonna go play video gamesâ. I look over at Tommy as he waits for Steve, then I look back at Steve. I stare down at my feet âOh.. okay um see you tonight rig-â. I look up and Steve is already walking away with Tommy as he shouts over his shoulder. âuh yeahâ. I stare at them walking away wondering if I did something to make him upset at me. I just don't understand why he's being so short and nonchalant as if he hasn't been basically ignoring me the past month. I try not to let it get to my head as I climb into my mom's minivan. I say hi to my little brother Dustin in the back. "No Steve" my mom questions "no he got a ride from his friend Tommy" I say and we leave it at that.
It was 6:30 my mom let me go buy a new dress. It was blue and sparkly. I felt so pretty in it. I secretly hoped Steve would think I Looked pretty in it. I couldn't help but find myself having a crush on him. All year long I had hoped just maybe he would ask me but even getting to go as his friend was okay. He was my knight in shining armor. He's  always there. He was kind and caring and sweet I don't know what happened the last couple of weeks but i wasn't worried he would always be my best friend.Â
I sat waiting on my couch as 7:00 p.m rolled around. Then 7:15. Then 7:30. I called his house with no answer. I waited 10 more minutes. I started to worry maybe something happened or- "Honey You should get going, where's Steve?" my mom walked into the living room. "I'm sure he just got a ride from somebody else or something we can get going". I arrived at the school and it was decked out with lights and streamers. I saw Robin over at the bleachers sitting. "Hey Robin" "Hey"she says back. We talk for a minute when she sees me looking around the gym. "He's here already, they all got here like a half an hour ago" she says. I looked over at her, slightly embarrassed had I really been that obvious. I say thank you as I look away from her sheepishly. I spot him at the drink table with a couple other boys. I get up and start walking over to him. I feel frustrated. I want to ask why he didn't call and why he didn't show up but I think at least he's here. I think maybe I'll get my chance to have a dance with Steve Harrington. I'm almost to the table when I hear one of the boys Tommy start to say something. "Dude why are you even still friends with that weirdo, you have a crush on her or something?". I stop in my tracks when I hear Steve laugh. "Ew man, as if i'd ever like that nerd I've been trying to get rid of for a while. I met her in grade school. She's just stuck to me. I can't get awayâ they all start laughing. I feel My eyes start to well with tears then I feel like I can't breathe. It's like the world goes quiet like I'm dreaming like the boy that I've known for 5 years is a stranger. I come back down to earth when I hear Tommy say "Uh-oh". Then he points over Steve's shoulder as he turns around and sees me. He looks shocked as he opens his mouth and closes it again. I turn around on my heals and take off running . It feels like my world is falling. The Steve I've pictured in my head, the one that asks me to dance and holds my hand is no more. He's just like the rest of them cruel. I hear him shout my name as I leave the gym. I I went out the front doors and breathed in the air. It was cold and my head felt fuzzy. I could still feel the hot tears running down my cheeks. I didn't know what to do. I hear the door open and I don't even need to look back to know it's him. my back to him "please go back inside I don't want to see you you made it very loud and clear how you felt I never want to talk to you again" "y/n....please". i chocked back a sob "no Steve I really don't want to hear anything, someone who could say something like that something so awful is no friend of mine and clearly you don't want to be my friend anymore and you could have just said it to my face instead of going behind my back and talking to all your asshole friends about it". i feel my voice breaking as it slightly wavers "I don't know what happened to you Steve, when did you become so fake". I look over my shoulder to see a distraught Steve. I stand up and shove past him as I feel him grab my wrist. I pull it away and out of his grasp and walk back inside. I walked to the payphone to call my mom. "uh Hey Mom will you come pick me up please" - "yeah alright honey is everything okay". I feel my Tears start again. "no mama it just really need you to come get me". "Okay sweetie I'll be right there". I stand in the empty hallway As my back slowly slides down against the locker, put my head in between my knees and I let myself cry. I let myself have a moment to grieve the friendship I just lost. I guess it's true your first heartbreak hurts the worst.Â
I try not to remember him this way. I really try not to relive this day. Honestly the whole year leading up to it. I like to think about my friend my friend who came over and played the prince and princess with me who like to play ninjas or help me up off the ground when I scraped my knee or who sat and listened while I cried when my parents were splitting up not the kid who crushed my heart, not the kid that completely betrayed me and forgot me in the past.
ahhh idk its 3 am im tired and this is probably horrible anyway not proof read. enjoy and lmk if i should continue this thx.
#stranger things#80s#steve harrington#steve stranger things#1980#fem reader#light angst#steve harrington angst
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5 11 20 28 64!!!! i asked you the romance ones i hope this sufficed !! <3333
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05: What is your relationship status? single đ
11: Do you like someone? about two weeks ago i stopped liking someone so no not rn
20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? oh uh. i was about to say i've never snogged someone but then remembered sndbjsjs. it was my bed (<- that sounds a lot worse than it was btw we didn't have sex or anything dw)
28: Have you ever been cheated on? ooooh i am DYING to bitch about this one. basically in year 7 i fell madly in love with this guy and after a whole year of desperately pining after him (and him dating my best 'friend' and shit) three weeks before we left for the summer he asked me out and i was ECSTATIC and we were 'together' for the whole summer but we never met up or anything and he texted me about once in a blue moon. and then on the first day of year 8 he broke up with me. yeah. and then later my best 'friend' told me that while they were on this music camp together (they were both insanely good violinists) he told a bunch of his friends, who were all girls, that he wasn't dating anyone, and when my friend confronted him he said he forgot. LMAO so the answer is he tried to cheat but couldn't get any bitches. sad. (<- endless contempt for this guy btw it took me 3 years to get over him how)
64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? YES. one of my ex-close friends (we're still friends but i kinda hate her. um irls if you see this no you didn't)
#to clarify with the snogging one#that was. year 6 and i was with my best friend and we were 'practicing'#cough cough#yeah
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this is my first time doing a Mexican Reader so bare with me here yâall
KARASUNO AND AOBA JOHSAI WITH A MEXICAN MANAGER
Pronouns: She/Her but for the most part You.
Mexican! Reader
KARASUNO
The Karasuno team was not used to having 3 managers. Let alone a foreign one. Since you arrived from Mexico, you had introduced yourself to Tsukishima and Yamaguchi who had thankfully taken a liking to you. After a few months of getting used to the culture you saw that they were both apart of the Volleyball club. At that point you knew you just had to come and and check it out!
The first time you came wasnât really much of a greeting. Yamaguchi had lended you his notes since you had been absent and you wanted to return them before the next day so you went to the gym and saw....well....boys. Lots of them. In a millisecond- all of their eyes were on you.
âUm...hi? I have this for Yamaguchi- where is he exactly?â You asked. You had seen some of these people around like the orange haired boy, and the black haired one as they were constantly together.
âOh yeah heâs probably in the club room, Iâll go get him for you!â The grey haired boy said as he gave a concerning grin and ran off, leaving you with the collection of eyes watching your every move.
âSo! You guys like volleyball...I do too! Thatâs coolâ You beamed, trying to create conversation. The orange haired boy bounced over.
âYOU DO?! DO YOU PLAY?!â He asked excitedly, which made you feel a little relieved.
âNo I donât, but I used to watch all the time, I love the game.â You responded with a smile as he nodded his head in understanding.
âIâm Hinata Shoyo! Iâm a middle blocker!â He grinned as he waited for the natural response to his position, but it never came. You just smiled and gave him a calm response. âCool!â
Hinata felt himself feeling a little more shy. Maybe it was because you werenât in disbelief or because he suddenly realized that you were a lot closer than he thought, but he shook it off and backed up as Yamaguchi came out of the club room.
âHey y/n! Guys this is y/n! She transferred here a few months ago.â He explained as you gave them all a wave like you just came. Despite being there for 5 minutes. âYo!â
Once you left Tanaka and Nishinoya felt their souls return to their body as they ran to Tadashi.
âYAMAGUCHI! YOU KNOW HER?! HOW?! IS SHE SINGLE?!â
âDID YOU SEE HER SMILE?! SHEâS SO BEAUTIFULâ They ranted, stars in their eyes as the green-haired boy chuckled just a little.
âSheâs in me and Tsukishimaâs class, pretty smart if you ask me.â He responded.
How you got in as a manager was a pretty simple task. Yachi was supposed to take over for Kiyoko but she found herself struggling with the technical parts of being a manager rather than interactions and moral. And that- is when you stepped in eager to help in any way possible. So you did.
The boys already liked you when you came into the gym the first time, I mean after getting Tsukishima to tolerate you it was simply a downhill battle and itâs not like anybody was against another manager as long as they got to play.
These guys were extremely protective of you. You were this foreign first year who oh so easily volunteered to take on the job of helping handeling these kids, how could they not love you?
And that protection lasted EVERYWHERE. Somebody flirts with you? Daichi already there. Somebody insults you or your food? Nishinoya already got their number and will be telling them itâs on sight.
The girls love you! The girls nights are weekly because where could you find people to complain about and laugh at the boys to in secret? You shared with them recipies for your Chicken with Mole, and they helped make you some one time. You made the rice while they tried a hand at making the Mole and while they...struggled...it came out good and it was the effort that they valued the most!
Now since youâre Mexican you ate what you were familiar with for the most part. It wasnât that you didnât like Japanese food, of course not! But while you lived in Japan you didnât have your family with you and food was the only way you could stay connected. So in your way of melting together the two cultures you sometimes made things for the team, including the coaches!
The team won a game successfully? No injuries or mishaps? Horchatas for everybody at your house no hesitation. Hinata actually got double digits on his test? Give that boy some of Enchiladas of his choice asap! The team loved your cooking! And you enjoyed giving them a taste of your home, it was a special thing between you all!
Sometimes on your bad days you would struggle with being the person you usually were. You seemed quieter and more timid when giving advice in tips. You were quite frankly, hiding in a shell the whole time. So when that happened the first time, the team decided to do some team building! They took you to an arcade [despite you refusing multiple times] and you played games all day. Watching Tanaka try and convince you that he is an amazing dancer definitly brightened your day. And even if he made a fool out of himself he didnât mind. His lovely manager was smiling, what more could he ask for?
Overall- they all like to have you around and donât know what they would do without you. probably die.
AOBA JOHSAI
Now with this team? Itâs spoiling galore.
The first time they met you was when you were a second year transferring from Mexico and that already made you stand out from everybody else but that and the fact that you were somehow friends with Iwaizumi? Ohhh that set it off.
First off- you were a second year. Second off- not even Oikawa knew about you. What is happening?!
It turns out, you had met Iwaizumi because you lived near his family and on numerous occasions had asked him where everything was around here are as you walked to school together. You went to a separate place in the school when he went to go meet the team so you never met him until the night when Tooru slept over Hajimeâs house and saw you knock on his door the next morning ready to walk.
Tooru opened the door cautiously wondering why you were outside his best-friends house in the uniform for their school. Wait- were you confessing? Did you find out his adresss and go to confess? He had to let you down easy- simple.
âHi! Iâm looking for Iwaizumi?â You said. You knew who this was you werenât oblivious, but you had never met before so you had to introduce yourself.
âLook, I donât know what youâre here for but Iwaizumi is not looking for a relationship right now because he is way to busy trying to pull up his trash gra- AH!â He squealed as Iwaizumi choked him by the back of his shirt.
âShut up. Is it time already?â He asked you with a completely different tone than the one he had used with Tooru. Were you perhaps-dating?! After you nodded, Iwaizumi invited you inside while he got changed. Tooru started at you with wide eyes before walking over to you.
âSo....are you and lwa-Chan secretly dating?!â He said as he got closer, with a wide grin on his face. You had known he was a character but he was really something right now.
âNo?! Not at all actually I- Iâm new? To Japan, Iâve been here for a few months and heâs been helping me figure out where everything is in this neighborhood.â You quickly explained hoping he would back up at least a little bit. It was as if he heard you and backed up.
âOh- so whatâs your name then pretty lady?â He said grinning. You were a little flustered and brushed it off to tell him. âThatâs a beautiful name. Where you from then? If youâre new?â He asked and you explained you were from Mexico.
âWow! I know a few words in Spanish!â He said as he recited the most basic words you had ever heard and somehow still goofed up the pronunciation. But he seemed so proud you almost couldnât tell him he was wrong. But you did.
You became the manager because you seemed to be one of the only people Oikawa would listen to, because Iwaizumi listened to you. It was a cycle.
Once the team met you it was like love- at first sight~ You- this girl who has somehow made it so that people magically do what theyâre supposed to do? Pls come immediately and shower these boys in affection.
Theyâre aggressively affectionate. Iwaizumi gives you headpats all the time for n o reason. None. We can all tell he favors you because even when you joke with Matsukawa about him and basically makes fun of you heâll take it because your so nice.
You want a drink? Iwai will give you 10. Feeling a bit lonely? Matsukawa will give up his playful nature and give you a hug for as long as youâd like. Oikawaâs fangirls getting under your skin? Kunimiâs clearing that place out asap goodbye.
One time when the team was bumed out because they lost a match against Shiratorizawa, you made them all Horchatas and they were immediately like â...what is this maâamâ and you had to laugh, and they were all sitting so confused but smiling because your laugh was quite cute to them [loud or not] and you had to explain that it contained rice actually, as well as some nut milk and cinnamon [however you like them, theyâd probably inhale it no matter what] and they enjoyed those things so much you brought them for every single last game until their last one.
One time, Kyotani actually asked if you could make him one for his birthday! He was so timid about it because he didnât want to admit how much he liked it- but he was desperate. There was nothing worse than talking to people but you always seemed so nice to him, no matter how he reacted. So he asked. And you actually made him some as well as some Tacos de Papa that you had made the night before from Lunch. He graciously excepted and even listened as you explained how much you enjoyed making them because of the process and how you were happy he liked them. He even laughed and you two talked for a while that day.
Another time, you had been feeling homesick and you couldnât take time off from the boys so you went to the practice anyways and everybody could visually tell you were out of it. You werenât scolding them for misbehaving, and even let Kunimi leave early [he was going to leave either way] and in the end everybody was just worried. Who hurt you? Why were you so quiet? And WHERE were the drinks you had promised? A lot of questions were left unanswered because they immediately wanted to make you happier.
They decided they were just gonna talk to you. And they did. All of them- even Kyotani- sat and listened as you explained how you were feeling and it settled in for them that this is not your original home, and your family isnât even here for you. Itâs only natural you would get sad sometimes. So they forcefully sent Tooru off to get you a drink and all proceeded to abuse you with affection. It was hugs all over, people laying on your back, your legs, your side, everywhere. But you felt a bit better.
A new family is still a family. And these guys, were just that.
FIN
ok so im black im not Mexican so I was trying to look up foods and stuffs so tell me if I was like too much or gave off too little pls đ it feels so cringe to me idk, anyways thank you to @mrs-oikawa it wonât let me @ you but she submitted a request for this so I hope you enjoy! Send me any misspellings yâall!!! Thank you also for almost/basically 50 followers whattttt? <3333
#haikyuu x reader#aoba josai x reader#haikyuu x manager#haikyuu x manager reader#tooru oikawa x reader#iwaizumi x reader#hinata shoyo x reader#tsukishima kei x reader#haikyuu x poc reader#mexican#haikyuu x you#matsukawa x y/n#kyotani kentaro x reader#haikyuu kunimi#haikyuu!!
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invincible bullshit that i came up with 10 days ago i just forgot about it
ngaoevnbiaebiw its here @anxiousnerdwritings i hope you like it i got inspired by you to write this
words: 2196
warnings: past arguing, MAJOR SPOILERS FOR ENTIRE SEASON 1, shooting, arguing, past manipulation
âReports of who killed the Guardians of the globe are starting to surface, with our agents finding out about the supposed killer: we know they spared Omni-Man, killed the rest of the members, and then fled. We also know they are not from earth. Lots of people have speculated that Omni-Man is the one behind these killings, however, the government has ruled out that being a possibility, since there was no evidence of Omni-Man doing these actions. More at 7 tonight on-â
The program stopped playing as you saw a contact appear on the top of the screen, and reading it, you immediately perked up.
Swiping on the green button, you happily said, âHey, Dad! Whatâcha need?â
You heard a chuckle from the other end, before he said, âHey kiddo, how you holding up?â
âNothing much going on here, you good over there?â
âYup, mostly everything is fine. You know my work, they always have something for me to do.â
âHopefully that clears up soon.â
âYeah, hey, listen, where are you right now?â
Ugh, not this again. Your mood slightly dropped as you remembered a few years ago, when you first met Cecil. He wasnât as good as he is now, and he would always be asking where you would be. Even in school. However, that was all in the past, since you were older, he now knew that you were responsible enough to do things on your own. At least, thatâs what he wanted you to believe.
âUh, well, I was just gonna go hang out with some friends and then go back home. Why?â
âOk, listen to me very carefully: one of my guys is gonna pick you up near Bridgetown, ok? Youâre gonna get a bracelet from them and then Iâll explain the rest here.â
What the fuck? âOh, um, ok, when will they be there?â
âAbout 5 minutes. Be there soon, love you, bye.â
He hung up the phone quickly, which was extremely rare, even for him, since he would never show his love to you out publicly and you would feel weird if he even did. However, on the phone or in private he was a completely different person, having a great personality and he was an even better dad.
Well, he did say to hurry up, and 5 minutes. You checked the time and when you saw it was near 1. You strided your way towards the street he told you to meet on, and cheerfully thought of the ways to hang out with your friends after whatever he wanted to do. Maybe you could go to the mall? Maybe the food court? Youâve been meaning to try those damn milkshakes at that new bar everyone is talking about, but it was always so crowded. You never liked crowded places in the first place.
Suddenly, your phone rang again. This time, when you checked, it was your dad again. Strange. It was weird for him to call you twice in a row. He usually got to the point within a few sentences.
Picking up the phone, you said, âHey dad-â
â________, listen to me. Get to someplace safe now. Get out of the road. Get out of the public. I don't care if you have to go inside someone elseâs house, just get out of sight.â
Stopping in the middle of the road you let out some surprised stutters. âWh- Dad, what are you talking about?â
â_______, please, just listen to me when I say this, you are in danger and you need to get out of there.â
âWhy? Whatâs happening?â
You were shuffling around trying to find a good place to âhideâ while your dad went into complete panic mode in his voice. â_______, find a place to hide, and whatever you do, get out of open space.â
You heard him speak to someone off the phone, before he cursed out loud. âI have to call you back, but someone will be there, wherever you are, ok? I⌠I love you.â
Before you could answer him, he hung up the phone. Anxiety was the only thing you could feel, as you looked around the desolate neighborhood. There was a reason why you chose this area over others: it was quiet and small. Not only that, but the only people who walked this way were people who were not fond of bigger crowds. In fact, you havenât seen anyone go this way for a long time. You always wondered why, since it was the perfect way to get robbed. Of course, that would never happen, especially with all those lessons from your dad about self defense.
The street you were on had walls surrounding the sidewalk to prevent people from going into people's backyards, probably. They were too high up to climb, and they were concrete, so it wouldnât be easy to just hop over and call it a day.
However, you were almost at the end of the street, and you knew there was a little patch of bushes and leaves that would provide the perfect cover. They were almost as tall as your dad, which always made you wonder who was watering them to be that big.
Pacing quickly towards the end of the street, and seeing no one in sight made you let out a sigh of relief. Either dad was overeating or something bad was happening, and you donât know which would be worse. When Cec- dad overrated, it always got messy, no matter what it was about.
âWhy were you out so long? I was about to send a team after you-â
âCecil, itâs fine, I just had to talk to my-â
âDonât call me Cecil, and donât try to make excuses, tell me who you were with right now or I swear to god-â
You forgot the memory almost as soon as it came up, instead choosing to focus on getting to the brush where you could hide until C- Dad came to pick you up. Wherever he was. Actually, did he give you a time that he would be there?
You got a weird feeling that made you sprint towards the bushes and dive in, like there was someone behind you. You ignored it and forced your way on all fours, ignoring the cuts and scratches you were getting on your arms and legs.
There was almost a whooshing sound above you, and you wondered if your dad sent a fucking jet to get you. But that thought left your mind when you heard it right next to you, along with the sound of someone making a harsh landing onto the street. You were able to hear the little bits and pieces of concrete fly off the ground to hit the ground again.
You stayed completely still, leaning on your arms while your body was facing the street. You heard something shuffle, like moving fabric around, before a familiar voice hit your ears.
âWhoâs there?â they- he said, and you were about to cry out of relief when you heard it. âOmni-Man?â
~~~~~
âCecil, why do you think Nolan would go after ________?â
âWhy wouldnât he?â Cecil didnât look at Debbie, instead focusing on the map in front of him, wondering where Mark couldâve been.
âWhat reason would he have to go after them? I just- he wouldnât just attack a child, would he?â
Cecil felt his head start to hurt. Goddamnit, why did Nolan want to go after you? You had nothing to do with anything, besides being Cecilâs daughter. ⌠is that why he was after you? Just because you were related to Cecil?
No, Nolan wasnât stupid. He knew you werenât his biological daughter, Nolan knew Cecil took you from somewhere.
He probably thought you were just someone that he got for fun, which was the furthest from the truth. Cecil didnât-
âSir, weâve found Mark Grayson, along with your daughter, not at the same locations, but-â
âWhere is she?â Cecil didnât try to hide his worry in his voice. It didnât exactly help when the agent said, in a monotone voice, âShe's with Omni-Man, sir.â
~~~~~
â________? What are you doing here?â
Peeking out from the bush, you saw Omni-Man walk up towards you and hold out his hand. You graciously took it, and helped yourself up. Even when you were standing at your full height, Omni-Man was way taller than you. Like, way taller. He could beat your dad within an inch of his life even with all of that combat stuff he learned over the years.
Of course he could, heâs Omni-Man dumbass. Ignoring the thought, you answered, âIâm, uh, busy.â
You saw him give a small smile. âYouâre busy hiding in the bushes?â
âYes.â you cursed internally for answering that so quickly like an idiot. You werenât expecting him to let out a laugh. He continued while you stood there, confused as all hell.
Finally, he said, âYou know, youâre a terrible liar.â You laughed along with him for a moment, before saying, âYeah, I know.â
His face suddenly darkened, before he said, âSo, why are you out here?â
The laughter in the air was gone now, only replaced by crushing silence as he waited for your answer. You felt yourself shrink under his scrutinizing gaze. He looked like he was judging you for just standing there. Well, he couldâve also been judging you because you were in a bush just 10 seconds earlier. After a few more seconds, you broke.
âC- Dad said to hide somewhere.â
âArenât you too old to be playing those games?â
âYeah, I am, but apparently someone was gonna come and get me. He just said to get out of open space.â
You heard him mutter something under his breath, before he scratched the back of his head.
âWell, I can see why he would want that.â
âReally? Why?â
âA mob boss named Machine Head.â When you gave him a confused look, he elaborated, âMachine head was a guy who took down the new Guardians of the Globe along with⌠Mark. They thought they got him, but unfortunately they werenât able to kill him.â
âHow does that have anything with me?â
â... Youâre Cecilâs daughter. Cecil was the one who found out about Machine Head. And took him down. Machine Head wants revenge against Cecil for ruining his plans, so heâs probably going to take it out on you.â When you still gave a surprised stare, he asked, âDo you really not have this happen often?â
âNo, Dad keeps me inside alotâŚâ your voice trailed off when you heard your phone ring, and picking it up, you saw it was your dad.
âHello?â
â_________, I told you to get to somewhere safe!â
âI-I am! Iâm with Nolan!â
âHey, Cecil, donât worry, Iâm right here.â Nolanâs voice was filled with sarcasm, probably an old joke between the two. After all, they were both good friends to each other.
âNo, you donât understand, ______, listen to me-â
Suddenly you were grabbed by your arm, and dragged down. You were caught by Omni-Man before you hit the ground, though. Looking behind him, you saw two trucks coming towards you, along with multiple people in them, with weapons of all sorts.
You didnât have time to ask who they were or what they wanted, as Omni-Man grabbed you and pulled out off the ground, and into the air. It took you a few moments, but you realized you were in the air. Flying.
Reaching for your phone in your pocket to call your dad back, you realized you mustâve dropped it. However, you werenât about to waste your energy trying to get it back. Especially not when you were high above the ground. So you simply hung on for dear life as Omni-Man flew away from the shouting people in the cars.
~~~~~
âWhere is she?â
âShe went with Omni-Man, sir.â
Cecil stood there for a moment, wondering what the fuck happened. It was obvious now that Nolan had no intentions to harm you, but why would he take you and not tell you anything? Cecil wondered before something was handed to him. âWe found this near where they took off, sir.â
It was your phone. Completely crushed to bits. âOmni-Man took it from her and crushed it without her knowledge, sir.â
âYou started to shoot at her?! What the hell were you thinking!?â
The men stood there, completely still realizing their mistake. âWeâre not kids playing at some game, this is real life. And now- I-â he really wanted to kill Nolan now. Debbie was going to become a widow, and he really didnât care.
Walking up to the truck that was nearest to him, he opened the back and shuffled around, trying to find something, anything that would be of use.
Then he found his favorite gun. The only one he could actually hold himself without another person that stopped Omni-man.
Loading the ammunition, he walked over to Donald, who had a tablet in his hand. âSir, weâve found where theyâre going.â
Looking at the area on the map, Cecil tapped his wrist watch, and said, âGood. Get the backup ready, and get Mark Grayson. Get Invincible.â
#yandere invincible#yandere nolan grayson#yandere cecil stedman#originally i was gonna put the invincible logo at the end but i didn't want to do that much work cuz im tired rn
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â¤ď¸ULR Speed Date Event Results - Part 5/5!đ
And, very unsurprisingly, Ace is in first place for the amount of submissions he received, that being 82! Due to the fact that there was so many submissions, he has a lot more I debated between (and even though one of these was a joke response... it was still pretty story worthy):
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Sans still didn't want to be a part of this. He didn't want to be doing this at all. But, unfortunately, his brother wouldn't take "hell no" for an answer. So now he was stuck on a date. With a human, no less. Oh joy. Despite the fact that living on the Surface was so saught after, he really wasn't finding it to be appealing.
At least, for the start of this, he was by himself. Maybe a long time ago, he would have been bothered by someone being late to an event like this, but for now, he was indulging in the silence.
She, Sans's date, decided that she wanted to meet at this park outside of the city, late at night, for a chance to watch the stars. Frankly, he didn't really care one way or another. But, he did eventually find himself standing at the ledge of a bridge, watching the stars twinkling in their reflection on a river. That and the dead silence, only bug noises chirping here and there; was shockingly more relaxing than Sans had anticipated it would be.
"There you are! Sorry I'm late!!"
And the relaxation was cut short. Oh well. Not that he didn't expect that.
Sans turned his attention towards the direction of the voice, spotting the human running up to him as fast as she could. Panting as she caught up to him on the bridge, she exclaimed, "I'm so, so sorry, things were backed up getting out of the city and --"
"i don't really care," Sans cut in. He turned his attention back to the river.
The human, a little taken aback, tried to brush over the harsh comment. She took a step towards the edge of bridge, holding on to the railing with a tight grip. The silence echoed in the park once more, but for the human, this was more awkward than anything else. She didn't really know what to say... is there a topic she knew offhand he'd be willing to discuss? Um... no, not really.Â
"hey."
Oh! He said something first! "Yeah?" the human responded.
"do you think a fall from this height into the river would kill me?"
A brief moment of silence. It held both shock and interest from each halves of the conversation.
"What -- I don't know?! I don't really want to know!! That sounds painful regardless and I really don't want to find out!!"
But Sans just laughed at her sudden panic. "relax. i was joking."
"Th... that's a bit of a dark joke, don't you think?"
He shrugged. "It happens." He didn't elaborate, leaving the silence to once again consume the conversation into nothing. The human shifted uncomfortably where she stood.
She debated back and forth on another topic to talk about. Anything to ease the tension -- especially since it got worse with his topic of choice.
"Um... so, on that form thing, you asked me about stuff I like to do... but what about stuff you like to do?" she prompted, hoping it wouldn't be another dark joke response.
"hm." Sans pondered the question for a while, not really knowing what to say. When's the last time he did something he liked doing? Probably when he was working with the other Royal Scientists. Which was over ten years ago. "i dunno," he answered instead. "haven't done anything just 'cause in a long time."
"Oh." The human frowned. "Well, maybe we could do something together sometime then, and you can find a new hobby? Only if you'd like, of course."
Sans raised a brow as he flicked his gaze to her. "like what?"
"Oh, um... well, I like to bake, draw, and read... but those are all pretty boring so maybe not those..." she responded sheepishly.
Sans didn't react negatively, but he wasn't exactly enthusiastic either. He's practically read every book from the Underground cover-to-cover with how much time he's had on his hands, and his drawing skills were... not to be admired. And Papyrus has always been on his case to eat more. So... "i dunno, baking?" he blurted.
The human blinked. "As in, you'd want to do some baking together?"
"yeah, sure, whatever."
"You really don't sound all that interested."
"i'm not interested in most things, what's your point?"
The human shuffled back into silence for a brief while as she herself started to stare at the river, her eyes trailing down the reflection until they met the sky, full of crystal-clear stars. "You don't have to if you don't want to," she added. "I know you're already... not super excited about this current date, so please don't feel like you have to force yourself further."
Ah. There it was. The same kind of consideration that made him pick this person over everyone else in the first place. Some people had acknowledged him not wanting to deal with this, but their responses were things like, "Then why be here?" which only irked him enough to toss them aside. Some disacknowledged it, which he prefered, but something about when she said... "You seem like you don't want to do this anyways, which is all good," really hit him in a way he didn't expect.
Sans, however, did not even consider responding out loud, and instead just pulled his scarf up tighter on his face. Sans? Being honest and clear with his emotions? Haha. How funny. Easier to just push them aside. A void of feeling is much easier to deal with.
Well, he did give a sort of grunt of acknowledgment to her comment. But... it was really far after she'd said anything. So she thought he was prompting something new.
"What's that?" she asked.
"nothing."
"Then...?" But the human just shook her head. Maybe talk about something else. "You know..." She'd started a sentence, but didn't actually have anything to say. In a frantic moment to try and finish what she'd started, she said, "Time is a precious thing, isn't it?"
There was a pause.
"what'd'ya mean?" Sans asked.
"We only get so much of it. It's so limited and can be taken from us in a second."
"... yeah, and?"
"I just... I like spending time with people," she finalized. "There's only so much time I have available, and I want to be able to spend as much of it as I can with people I care about and doing things I've wanted to do. Thinking about it all is a bit scary sometimes..."
Sans debated the crass comment of "so what you're saying is i should leave and do something i'd rather be doing," but he figured now was not the time for something like that. He waited a moment to see if the human had more to say about the topic, but when she didn't, he decided to jump in with his own response. "worrying about what you might lose out on is kinda pointless," he said bluntly. "sometimes shit ain't gonna work out, and you'll miss out on something you'd have rather wanted. sometimes people are taken away from you when you least expect it and you're left wondering if you did enough for them or with them. but it's not the end of the world. you've gotta just work with what you're dealt with."
The human didn't expect such a long, nor deep, reply from him, and was a little taken aback by it. While these may have been things said before, or maybe she'd even considered them, it was different to hear them coming from someone who two seconds ago wanted to jump off the bridge. Frankly... does that mean she should take his words with a grain of salt, or...?
"sorry," Sans blurted. "said more than i shoulda."
"Wh -- n-no, don't worry about that!! I just... didn't expect you to have a lot to say on the topic. Or, I guess, to really reply lengthy at all. But it's okay! I'm glad you let me hear your thoughts."
He pulled his scarf tighter as he grunted a response, staring still at the reflection in the river.
#undertale#undertale au#underlust au#underlust reimagine#underlust reimagine sans#underlust reimagine event#zircon arts#zircon writes
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Into The Night (2)
Pairing: Kai x ReaderÂ
Warnings: Unprotected Smut, Angst,Â
Word Count: 6.9kÂ
A/N: I'm sorry!!
As the rain pours down, it soaks you but you have a hard time finding the urge to care. You watch the staircase from in front of your car, waiting for the man you love, the man you hoped loved you enough to come chase after you. You desperately wanted him to tell you that you were enough for him and that he had enough of the business that was taking so much from him.Â
But he never came.Â
A part of you must have known he wouldn't give it up, not for you. It wasn't as though you were anything special anyway. You were you, and he was a god, someone who deserved more than just you.Â
You closed your eyes and for a moment imagined what it would have been like had he chased you. Kai running down the stairs, into the rain to take you in his arms and tell you how much he loved you and needed you, that you were first, that you were enough.Â
But instead, you got into your car soaked and cried hard while driving to your apartment. Maybe he didn't love you as much as you thought he did. Maybe you truly weren't enough for him.Â
Day by day, you stared at your phone, reading the last text he had sent you before you left. It was the last time he had typed out the words you wished you could hear from his lips right now, even if you don't deserve them.
"I love you."Â
You can still hear the faint whispers of him saying the words in your head, but as time goes on the whispers get quieter and quieter, slowly fading away.Â
**
Every week something changed, for the better, and you noticed yourself becoming yourself again. You stopped agonizing over the fact that he hadn't texted you, then you stopped caring that he hadn't called you. If he had been the man you thought he was, he would have reached out, maybe tried to explain himself. But he didn't, so maybe he wasn't the man for you.Â
A month had gone by and you started going to coffee shops with your friends, finally getting out of the house.Â
Six months had gone by and you were washing your hair and doing your makeup, feeling like yourself again.Â
A year later, you were thriving. You had a great group of friends, you were putting yourself out there with guys and you had just been promoted at work, which tonight, this wonderful Friday, you were celebrating with your group of friends at a new club in the city.Â
"I will be there soon." You laugh into the speaker, looking out the window of the cab to see where you were. "Promise, like two minutes away." You tell Moonbyul, pressing the end call button.Â
The cab driver pulls up to the club and you see Moonbyul, Wheein and Solar waiting outside for you.Â
"Fucking finally." Moonbyul groans, pulling you in for a hug. The others join in, congratulating you on your promotion.Â
"Come." Wheein squeals. "I got us the best table." She finishes, pulling you inside the club.Â
You walk in and it's jam-packed with people. You squeeze her arm as you navigate through the massive amounts of bodies, finally settling at a table with your three best friends.Â
"First." Solar pauses. "Shots." She smiles as four shots are delivered to your table.Â
"That was cool." You laugh.Â
The four of you down your shots.Â
"Next," Wheein says. "More shots." Another round is placed on your table, one in front of each of you.Â
The four of you take your shots again.Â
Half an hour later, you had already done four shots and had two drinks, and to say you were feeling it would be an understatement.Â
"I'm going.." hiccup. "To the bathroom." You giggle, ungracefully sliding from your chair and stumbling your way to the bathroom. You close your eyes for a split second as you walk past the bar, trying to ease the spinning when you bump into a hard chest.Â
You open your eyes and look up, immediately thinking your eyes are playing tricks on you. You blink a few times before stumbling back, shaking your head slightly and looking back up at the man.. the man you once loved.Â
"Kai?" You whispered.Â
"Ayn.." he says. "It's good to see you."Â
"Yeah.. um, you too." You say, unsure of really what to say. There were a few things you had planned to say to him had you ever actually run into him but you truly never thought that situation would arise.Â
"How have you been?" You ask.Â
Not what you wanted to say.Â
"Good, good." He smiles that radiant smile that just melts your heart. "I quit the business." He says.Â
Your heart drops.Â
"When?" You ask, a little confused.Â
"About nine months ago." He answers.Â
You scoff.Â
"So three months after you let me run out because you were never going to give it up?" You ask. You can feel the anger rising inside of you.Â
"I.. well, Hwasa helped me realize." He says. Seconds later a gorgeous woman slides her manicured hand over his shoulder as he wraps his arm around her waist.Â
You look at Kai confused, and heartbroken all over again.Â
"Hi, I'm Hwasa, Kai's fiancee." She purrs, holding out her hand with a big diamond ring on the right finger.Â
"Fiancee?" You breathe. "I tried.. for you.. and I wasn't good enough.. but you knew her for three months and she got you to quit and propose? What the fuck was I? Did you even love me?" You yell.Â
"Ayn.. let's not do this here.." Kai says, looking uncomfortable.Â
"No, I'm not doing anything... Iâm...I can't breathe." You cry, turning around to stumble from the crowded building. You burst through the door, the cool outside air hitting you hard as you gasp for breath.Â
Kai, the man you loved was now with someone else, someone who seemed worthy of him, not to mention he left.. he left the business behind. The one that you weren't good enough for him to leave. You weren't good enough to fight for apparently.Â
With your feet dragging, you walk the long-distance home, ignoring the buzzing of your cellphone as you try to keep the tears from falling. You lost.Â
**
The next morning you woke up, feeling as though a train had smashed into your life - oh wait, it did. You recall the events of last night and how your heart was shattered for a second time by the same man, in less than a year. You grab your phone, looking at the time, 11:34 am. Before you set your phone down, it buzzes an incoming message. You open your messages and your heart drops as you immediately recognize the phone number.Â
Kai.Â
[11:35 am] 17362592474: I'm sorry about that. Can we talk?Â
It took all you had in you to not call him and scream at him. He's sorry about that, he's sorry? For what exactly? The fact that he didn't come after you, or the fact that he got engaged so quickly after leaving you shattered and a shell of the person you were before.Â
You threw your phone to the corner of your room. You couldn't deal with this today. So instead of answering him back, you went about your Saturday. You went for a jog but you never did stop thinking about the woman, Hwasa who was so perfect and seemed so perfect for him. They were a gorgeous couple, one of those couples who should be featured in all the magazines. You didn't compare to her, clearly.Â
That night you stayed in, ignoring the ringing of your phone that still sat in the corner of your room and instead binge-watched the saddest kdramas you could find and cried, while also stuffing your face.Â
You woke up Sunday feeling terribly bloated, with an even worse headache but none of that compared to how your heart felt. As much as you didn't want to admit it, as much as this would absolutely fuck with all the progress you made in the last you, you still loved him. Seeing him Friday night confirmed that, you would still forgive him if you had the chance.Â
Now you spent the rest of your Sunday agonizing over a decision you needed to make.Â
Text him back, or ignore it?Â
**
Monday morning you sat at your desk, chewing on your fingernail as you stared at the message on your phone that you had read almost a thousand times over.Â
Can we talk?Â
Sure, you wanted to talk, you had a lot of things you wanted to say to him. You grabbed your phone, typing the message before throwing it on your desk and trying to focus on some work.Â
[10:12 am] You: Sure. Let's talk. 6 pm, my place. I'd rather this not be public. *Address*Â Â
[10:14 am] 17362592474: See you then, Ayn.Â
You roll your eyes at his reply. Boy, was he going to get an ear full.Â
You paced in front of your door, checking your phone every 3 seconds. Time was moving so slowly as you waited for Kai to show up. You ran lines through your head, planning out exactly what you were going to say to him. You were ready and prepared to go off.Â
You checked your phone again.Â
5:59 pmÂ
KnockÂ
Knock.Â
You stood in front of your door and took a deep breath before opening it. You almost gasped at the sight of him. He looked so good, but seriously, he had the audacity to look that good and show up here? What the fuck.Â
"Hi, Ayn." He smiles. "Are you going to let me in?" He asks.Â
"Oh." You say, coming out of your trance. You open the door wider, allowing him to come in before closing the door behind you.Â
 "Nice place." He says, looking around. You lean against the door, your arms crossed as you try to remember the first thing you wanted to say.Â
"Thanks." You whisper.Â
That wasn't it.Â
"Hwasa and I are on a break." He begins. "Look, I'm really sor.." he started to say before you cut him off.Â
"Don't." You yell, raising your hands to your ears. "I don't want to hear that you're sorry." You spit. "Sorry doesn't make up the fact that you didnât chase me. Sorry doesn't make up for the fact that you met someone 3 months after you let me walk out of your life like I was nothing, and then you got engaged! You really are.." you say before now he cut you off, this time with his lips.Â
You hadn't even noticed him walking towards you until his lips were pressed against yours. Your eyes are still wide open as you realize what's happening. You place your hands on his shoulders, pushing him away. You're shocked as you gently touch your lips before raising your hand and slapping him.Â
You look at him, up and down before grabbing his collar and pulling him back to you, latching your lips onto his. He wraps his arms around you pulling you in close. He backs up, pushing you against your door as he hikes up your skirt, his knee pressed in between your legs. You break the kiss and his lips travel to your neck, your hands now in between the two of you, unbuckling his belt. He shimmies his pants down, along with his boxers, his cock springing free.Â
Kai places his hands behind your legs, picking you up and pressing you against the door once again. He lines up his cock before pushing himself into you with a gasp as his head rests in the crook of your neck. Your hands-on his shoulders as he thrusts himself into you, making you moan loudly.Â
"Fuck." He grunts, his fingertips digging into the back of your legs as he fucks you. Your hand moves to his hair, running your fingers through his locks as he hits all the right spots, your clit being rubbed perfectly.Â
You can feel his hot breath on your neck, his lips pressing a kiss as you cry out, loudly.Â
"Just like that." You moan as your orgasm builds. "Don't stop." You cry, your fingers gripping tightly onto his hair.Â
"Cum for me, please." He begs, you wrap your arms around his neck as your orgasm flows through your body, making you scream.Â
Kai thrusts faster as he chases his high, spilling himself into you. "Oh god." He moans as he thrusts lightly, coming down from his high.Â
You're both still for a moment, Kai still inside you as you both breathe heavily. "Shit." He whispers, pulling out. "That was a mistake." He says, pulling up his pants and buckling his belt back up.Â
"What?" You ask, tears now brimming in your eyes.Â
"No, that's not what I meant." He tries to assure you. "I meant the timing was a mistake, not you, never you." He says.Â
"No, I get it. I wasn't good enough for you then, why would I be good enough for you now." You spit. "Get out."Â
"Ayn.. please. It's not what I meant. I miss you!" He pleads.Â
"Get out now!" You cry. The tears roll down your cheeks as he looks at you with such despair, to just listen to him. You don't care. You were a mistake.Â
You storm towards your window, pushing it open as you struggle to catch your breath. How could you be so stupid as to let him fuck you, let him back into your life like that?Â
This was a mistakeÂ
I miss you.
Did he though? Did he miss you?Â
You let out a loud and frustrated grunt as you swiftly moved around your apartment, rage cleaning. How could you let him come up here and taint your fresh, drama and Kai free space? Bad Ayn.Â
Heading for your cabinets, you reach for your favourite cleaner, the one that smells like happiness to you and you begin your work. You scrub your door, cleaning away the sweat, the reminder that you let him fuck you against your door. You wash your floors, making sure to clean where he stood extra hard.Â
When you were finally satisfied with your house and the cleanliness and freshness of your place, you went to take care of yourself, spending an absurd amount of time in the shower. You used different soaps especially on your neck, you washed your hair a few times and your fingers, trying desperately to get the smell of him off of you, trying to get the feeling of being called a mistake off of you.Â
After your shower, you sat in your robe, in a chair in the living room, your finger hovering over the cold button on your cell phone. You needed to call Jisoo and tell her about this but you were slightly nervous about her reaction. You closed your eyes and pressed the call button and took a few deep breaths as you listened to the sound of the phone ringing.Â
"Heeelloooooo." She answers in a singing voice.Â
"I did a thing." You whisper into the phone.Â
"A thing? Ooh, what kind of thing?" She asks.Â
"A bad thing." You reply.Â
"Do tell." She says excitedly.Â
"I accidentally..slept with Kai." You whisper.Â
She says nothing.Â
"I'm sorry. WHAT?" She gasps. "Kai? As in, you just got over Kai? That Kai?"Â
"That Kai, yes." You whisper.Â
"Giiiiiirl." She screams. "So you're back together? I always loved the two of you together."Â
"He has a fiancee." You whisper.Â
"I'm sorry again, WHAT?" She says. "And you still fucked him?"Â
"Well, he said they're on a break." You nervously laugh.Â
"Shit girl. How do you feel?" She asks.Â
"He said it was a mistake. The timing was a mistake but all I heard was I'm a mistake." You answer.Â
"What'd you do?"Â
"Kicked him out." You laugh.Â
"Yas best friend, you go best friend." She laughs. "But in all seriousness, are you okay?"Â
"I don't know." You respond. "I still love him, and I know I could forgive him but I don't know if I should. He broke me, and it took a long time to fix that and then he's got this new girl, and shit.. what do I do, Ji?" You sigh.Â
"This is something you have to figure out for yourself. I canât be the one to tell you what to do, as much as I would like to, this is you." She responds.Â
"Thanks, Ji." You say before hanging up the phone. She was right, you had a lot of thinking to do but also, you really need to talk to Kai.Â
**Â
Kai sat on his couch with his head thrown back as he replayed this evening's events through his head, over and over again. He will admit, he shouldn't have kissed you but it couldn't help it. He really had missed you. He stared at your lips as you yelled at him and he thought about kissing you, then bam, he was doing it and he didn't want it to stop, but then you slapped him and kissed him back and everything escalated from there.Â
He lets out a loud groan as he thinks about his life and where he was now, he felt like he was going insane. Everything was so fucked up, and in all honesty, it was his fault. Had he just gone after you, none of this would have happened. You would be here, laying in his arms, and you both would be happy but instead, you're broken and it's his fault and he's still in love with you.Â
Kai thinks back to that day, the one when he let you get away and fuck does he ever wish he could have a redo of that day. The amount of shame he felt for what he did was indescribable.Â
"Either you want it, or you don't. So let me know." You finished before walking away, and Kai stood there. He couldn't move as you closed the door behind you. He was hurt, angry and ashamed. You were so much more important than his business and he wanted to tell you that, but his pride wouldn't let him. He wanted you to be more understanding of his job and realize that it was just that, a job. So he waited.Â
He waited for you to return, he waited for a text, a phone call, something - anything but it never came. He thought maybe you needed time but as the weeks went by he slowly began to realize that you had left him and it hurt. It had been too long now, he couldn't crawl back so maybe you would. If he was lucky, you would be the one to reach out to him.Â
One night he had gone to a restaurant - alone. He ordered a glass of wine, and his meal and sat in silence as he watched the happy couples smile and laugh. He wanted that, with you. As he was lost in thought someone tripped beside him, dropping a purse. He knelt down to help and when he looked at the woman, he was shocked, she was breathtaking but nothing compared to you.Â
Maybe that's what he needed, a distraction, someone to help him get over you. She smiled at him and he smiled back. "Thank you for your help." She says.Â
"No problem. Are you okay?" He asks, seeing the tears in her eyes.
"Terrible date." She sniffles.Â
"Would you like to join meâŚ" he pauses.Â
"Hwasa." She smiles.Â
"Would you like to join me Hwasa?" He asks. Â
"I would love to.." she pauses.Â
"Kai."Â
"Yes, Kai, I would love to "Â
A few months later he was looking at the engagement ring he had bought, that was supposed to be for you and Hwasa had caught him, immediately screaming yes and crying. She was so happy. So he slid the ring on her finger and decided to keep it to himself. A few weeks later, he handed the business over to Baekhyun, not because Hwasa had convinced him like she thought but because he worried she would try to take it over.Â
Kai was a little in over his head with her, especially when he couldn't stop thinking about you but he just couldn't bring himself to end it with Hwasa. He felt guilty, it had been too long now, maybe he was stuck. Maybe this is what he deserved, his karma for not chasing you.Â
**Â
A few days later, you glanced at the clock as you finished your paperwork, it was 9 pm. You let out a big yawn, stretching out your arms. There was a faint knock at your door, so you finished your stretch as you walked over to see who was here so late. You looked through the peephole and saw Kai standing there swaying. Your heart was in your stomach, you most definitely weren't prepared for this.Â
With a shaky hand, you turned the doorknob and opened the door slightly. "What are you doing here?" You ask, looking both ways down the hallway.Â
"I fucking miss you," Kai yells. "Please let me in." He begs.Â
You can hear your neighbours beginning to get annoyed, so you opened the door fully and grabbed Kai by his shirt to drag him in.
"You can't just show up here like this." You say, crossing your arms. "You're engaged." You finish, those last few words felt so bitter coming out of your mouth.Â
"I'm not⌠I'm not engaged." Kai says, walking closer to you. He pulls you in, just holding you but your arms are still crossed. "Please.. hold me back." He whispers.Â
As a tear rolls down your cheek, you uncross your arms holding onto him tightly. The two of you stand there for a moment, you take in his smell, remembering what he used to smell like. It's the same, but whiskey added tonight.Â
"Come." You whisper, letting go of him, and pulling him towards your shower. You run the hot water as he stands there. "There are towels in here." You say pointing to the cabinet. "I'll have some clothes for you when you're done." You finish, leaving the bathroom to let him do his thing.Â
He's not in there for very long. A few minutes later you look up to see him standing there with his towel wrapped around his waist with water dripping from his hair. You bite your lip at the sight of him, taking a deep breath and remembering you can't. You can't do that.Â
"Here." You whisper, handing him some old clothes of his that you never got rid of. You felt a little ashamed to have kept them this long but it was something you could get over. You turn around as he drops his towel, you can hear him sigh as he slides on his clothes Â
"Done." He says, his voice low and shaky.Â
"You need to sleep this off." You say, opening your bed covers. Kai crawls in, scooting over for you.Â
"Please?" He asks, patting the open space beside him.Â
"I can't." You whisper. "I'll be on the couch." You finish, walking away and turning out the lights as you make your way to the couch.Â
**Â
Kai wakes up startled. He sits up in bed, confused about where he is, he looks over at the clock, it reads 4:49 am and then he remembers. He came to your house, you hugged him back, put him in the shower and tucked him in. You were so good.Â
Kai crawls out of bed, feeling his way out of your room and making his way to the living room.Â
He walks in and sees you curled up on the couch, a small piece of your hair covering your face. He smiles at how peaceful and happy you look in your sleep. He misses watching you sleep at night, just looking at you and feeling so unbelievably grateful that you were his. Kai bends down, scooping you up in his arms and bringing you to your bed. He places you down, covering your shivering body as he crawls in beside you, making sure to leave space between you two. He wished he could wrap his arm around you and fall asleep with his face buried in the crook of your neck, but instead he fell back asleep with his face buried in your pillow and tears rolling down his cheeks.Â
That morning you wake up, feeling extra warm. You stretch out your back, pushing out your ass and you're met with something hard pushed up against you. Your eyes shoot open as you feel a hand sliding over your stomach, pulling you in closer. You shouldn't be doing this but fuck, you missed him, you missed this and everything that came with it.Â
A few minutes couldn't hurt. So you snuggled back into him, relishing in the feeling of being held by him again, his strong arms wrapped around you, making you feel like the safest person in the world. Your personality made a bit of a flip and you began scooting your ass back a little more, lightly grinding yourself on his cock.Â
"Mhmm." He groans, pushing himself against your ass harder. "Goodmorning." He says, his voice husky and quiet.Â
"Goodmorning." You whisper.Â
"Can I.. just." He pauses, pushing himself into you further. You weren't sure what came over you, maybe it was the trance that you always seem to be in around him but you opened your legs, giving Kai the invitation to enter.Â
He lets out a loud groan as he moves to pull his sweats and boxers down, his cock ready as it drips precum. You open your legs a little more, letting him move your panties to the side before he slides himself inside you, stretching out your pussy.
"Fuck." You whimper as he slides in and out of you slowly, making you crave more. He pulls up your shirt, exposing your bare breasts before cupping one, twiddling your nipple between his fingers.Â
You reach your hand down between your legs, pressing down on your throbbing clit before gently rubbing as Kai continues to thrust inside of you. His face is pressed into your neck, nipping gently as his hot breath flows over you.Â
"I've missed you." He breathes. "Your scent, your face, your body, your pussy, everything about you." He groans. Kai continues to fuck you, his hand leaving your breast to move up, wrapping around your neck. He lightly squeezes, making you moan loudly as your orgasm builds.Â
"I missed you." You cry out, rubbing yourself faster, needing your release.Â
Kai's hand around your neck tightens as you both cum, your body squirming as he fills you up. You both lay there, breathing, taking a moment. He releases your neck but instead of moving away from you, holds you closely for a few minutes.Â
Kai springs out of bed a few minutes later, pulling on a shirt before finding his shoes. "Shit." He panics.Â
"What are you doing?" You ask, very confused.Â
"I have to go to work. I'm already late." He chuckles. "I will text you." He says, kissing you gently on the cheek before running out the door, leaving you standing there with his cum dripping down your leg.Â
"Rude." You scoff, making your way to shower. Before you get in you text Jisoo, asking her to lunch because now, you have more news.Â
She texts back immediately confirming and telling you she can't wait.Â
**
"Again!?" Jisoo yells, throwing her hands up in the air while you hide behind your hands. "You slept with him, again." She sighs.Â
"It was a.." you begin.Â
"I will cut you if you say it was a mistake." Jisoo threatens. "Look, you guys need to chat about what the fuck is happening because you have me confused."Â
"You're confused? I'm also confused." You sigh, taking a sip of your drink.Â
"Excuse me." You hear from beside you. You look up and see a very handsome man standing in front of your table. "I'm sorry to bother you, but I just thought you were stunning and wanted to give you my number. If you are interested in a date, call me, if not at least I know I gave it a shot." He smiles, placing a napkin in front of you before walking away.Â
You and Jisoo laugh as you slip the note into your purse. Considering how things were going with Kai, you didn't think you would need it. You finished your lunch with Jisoo and said goodbye before you went on a stroll and headed back to your apartment. You thought about your morning with Kai and smiled like an idiot as you skipped down the sidewalk, feeling like you were on top of the world.Â
As you neared your apartment, you decided to stop and grab an iced coffee, maybe even a cookie from your favourite shop until suddenly you weren't very thirsty anymore, but instead, your heart sunk as your throat dried up. You looked in the window of the coffee shop and saw Kai sitting there with Hwasa, his hand in hers as they laughed.Â
You pulled out your phone and dialled his number. You watched as he checked to see who was calling and then put his phone down, ignoring the call.Â
With your heart hurting, you continued to walk to your apartment. You decided you were done being played by him and reached in your purse, digging for the napkin the stranger had given you earlier. If Kai wanted to play games with you, fuck with your feelings for him, well then you could do the same, and make him hurt more.Â
The minute you got home you sat at your kitchen table, dialling the number the man had given you.Â
"Hello?" He answers.Â
"Hi." You say. "I realized that I never got your name." You smile.Â
"I'm sorry." He laughs. "I don't usually do that so I was a little nervous. My name is Taemin." He tells you. For some reason his name made you smile widely.Â
"Nice to meet you, Taemin. My name is Ayn." You say.Â
"Well Ayn, would you like to have dinner with me tomorrow night?" He asks.Â
"I would love to." You answer, without a second thought. Kai was pushed so far to the back of your mind, you didn't even feel guilty about saying yes to Taemin, Kai could have Hwasa.Â
"7 pm, Jungsik Seoul. Is it okay if we meet there?" He asks.Â
"Yes, that sounds perfect. See you tomorrow." You say, hanging up after he says goodbye.Â
You were truly excited, maybe this means you and Kai weren't meant for each other. Setting your phone on the table, you walk away, trying to decide what you wanted to have for dinner tonight when your phone rang again. You made the mistake of answering it without even looking at who was calling, you were just trying to be happy.Â
"Hello?" You answer, a little tune in your voice.Â
"Hi, beautiful." You hear on the other end.Â
"Kai?" You ask.
"Yes, baby, you and me, tomorrow night. Can we talk please?" He asks.Â
"No." You spit. "I saw you with Hwasa at the coffee shop this afternoon. You were smiling while holding her hand. So much for a break. I really continue to surprise myself at how many times I'll let you fuck with my heart."Â
"Ayn." He says but you don't stop.Â
"I have a date tomorrow night." You say. "He's taking me to Jungsik Seoul. So I'm busy, bye." You finish, hanging up the phone. You toss your phone onto your couch, heading to the bathroom and slamming the door behind you, your mood now completely ruined.Â
**
You stood outside the restaurant in your red flowy dress and heels as you waited for Taemin to show up. You checked your phone again and it was only 6:57pm, so it's not like he was late, you were just a naturally early person.Â
"Hey." You hear from behind you. You turn around and see Taemin walking up to you, in his suit that fit him perfectly, his hair laid out in a perfect way to shape his face, his plump lips spread into a smile.Â
"Hi." You smile.Â
"Have you been waiting long?" He asks, pulling the door open for you.Â
"Just a few minutes." You say, walking into the restaurant. "Not long at all."Â
"Reservation for Lee Taemin." He tells the man at the front who then takes you to your seats.Â
As the two of you look over the menu, the conversation is flowing and you can't control your laughter. You were having an amazing time with Taemin, but your heart wasn't fully in it. You took a sip of your wine as Taemin looked past you, slightly confused.Â
"Hey man." He says, standing up.Â
"What the hell are you doing?" You hear from behind you. It's Kai.Â
"I'm on a date man," Taemin says, pointing to you.Â
"With Ayn." Kai snaps.Â
"Like.. the Ayn?" Taemin asks, looking between you both.Â
"Yeah." Kai answers.
"Bro, I'm sorry, I didn't know," Taemin says, putting his hands up to surrender.Â
"You don't get to do this." You spit, standing up from the table. "You don't get to waltz in here and pull this shit."Â
"He's a friend, Ayn. He knows about everything and how bad I've wanted you back." Kai tries to explain.Â
"Oh, I'm sure you wanted me back so bad." You scoff. "That's why you were getting all cozy with Hwasa yesterday right? That was wanting me back, right?" You yell, crying again. "I'm tired of you lying to me about her. Either you're done with her or you're not." You finish in a whisper.Â
"I am done. Look, Ayn, it's not what you think at all. Please, please let me explain." He begs.Â
You look around the restaurant at all the people watching you and your drama. "Fine." You whisper, sitting down slowly into your seat.Â
"Do you mind?" Kai asks Taemin, pointing to his seat.Â
"Get your girl, man." Taemin smiles, walking out of the restaurant, leaving you both to talk.Â
"I'm just going to go to the bathroom." You sniffle, earning a smile from Kai.Â
You walk to the bathroom, with the plans of fixing up your makeup, trying to make yourself look somewhat presentable again. But you never had expected to see Hwasa standing in the bathroom, leaning against the wall as if she was waiting for you.
"Awh." She fake pouts. "Poor little Ayn. Are you upset that you're trying to ruin someone else's relationship?" She asks.Â
You ignore her.Â
Hwasa laughs. "Do you think you've won because he's sitting out there wanting to talk to you? Sweetie, he walked out on you once, what makes you think he won't do it again?" She smiles. "If I were you, I'd be so insecure because I'm not giving up my man." She spits, walking out of the bathroom.Â
Fuck your makeup, you storm right out of the bathroom and head for the table you share with Kai. "Are you done with her?" You ask, slamming your hands on the table.Â
"W-what?" He asks. "Yes, I don't want her."Â
"Then you should probably let her know because she just told me in the bathroom that she's not giving you up." You tell him.Â
Kai stands up, looking around the restaurant. "Hwasa." He calls out.Â
She smiles widely as she walks towards the table. "Hi, baby." She purrs, sliding her arm onto his shoulder.Â
Kai pushes her off. "Look, I told you yesterday over coffee, I'm done. I don't want you." Kai growls.Â
"Are you forgetting our little arrangement?" Hwasa scoffs. "I can pull out my money and you'll be ruined." She threatens.Â
"You'll have your money back tomorrow, first thing. You're not hanging this over my head anymore, Hwasa." Kai spits, pointing to her face. "Get it through your thick skull, it's always been her." He finishes, walking towards you, taking your hand and pulling you from the restaurant, leaving Hwasa standing there, looking like a fool.Â
**Â
It had now been a year of you and Kai being back together and they have been the best year of your life. After that night at the restaurant, you and Kai sat down and had a very long talk about everything, clearing the air, no more secrets. Slowly as the days went on, you began to trust him more and more, which led to you slowly dating again.Â
After a few months you didn't want to do the slow thing anymore. You wanted him fully. You had no doubts about your relationship, and you didn't want to wait to give yourself fully to him. Kai had your heart in his hands, and you knew he would never do anything to break it again.Â
**Â
"You're lying." Kai whispers, staring at Hwasa with wide eyes. "You can't.. it's not mine." Kai says.Â
"The Night of the hotel with the papers. That wasn't Ayn you were with. It was me." She tells you.Â
Kai closes his eyes, flashing back to that night four months ago.Â
"I miss you." You pout into the phone, making Kai chuckle on the other end.Â
"I miss you too, baby." He groans. "I'm going to kill Baekhyun for this."Â
"You can't kill him. He needs his best friend. Make sure you're safe tonight. I have something exciting to tell you when you get home in the morning." You smile, looking over at the positive pregnancy test sitting on the kitchen table.Â
"Okay baby, they're calling me, so I will see you in the morning. I love you." He sighs.Â
"I love you more." You whisper before hanging up the phone.Â
**
"Sorry about that." Kai says, putting his phone in his pocket.Â
"No worries." Hwasa answers, sliding papers towards him. "These are the transfer of ownership papers." She says, pouring a glass on whiskey for Kai.Â
"This is all you called me here for? To give me papers?" He asks.Â
"Yes." Hwasa answers. "Actually, I do have a question." She says.
Kai takes the glass drinking the shot before Hwasa fills it up again.Â
"Why Ayn?" She asks. "What is so special about her?"Â
Kai chuckles as he drinks another shot, and another one. "She was the first one to think of me as more than just a dick." Kai answers. "She saw i was worth more than being just a good fuck."Â
Hwasa nods her head as she pours Kai another shot, his body beginning to feel warm.Â
"I think you're more than just your dick." Hwasa whispers, pushing the shit towards him, leaning in closely to Kai.Â
He takes a breath, smelling the air. It smells like you, he can smell your perfume. "Ayn." He smiles. His world spins slightly as he takes the shot. He looks up and he swears he sees you sitting across from him.Â
"Lets go to bed." He hears. A woman helps him up, taking him up to a hotel room and laying him in the bed.Â
"Ayn, my sweet baby. I like your dress." He smiles as he squints his eyes, watching the dress fall to the floor.Â
"I want you." He hears a whisper, making him groan.Â
"Oh baby, I want you too." Kai groans, unblocking his belt.Â
He watches as his cock is pulled out. He closes his eyes as a mouth wraps around his tip, teasing him with a tongue before sucking hard, bobbing up and down as his cock gets sucked.Â
"Fuck." He huffs, his hands reaching up and grabbing a chunk of hair, holding the head steady as he thrusts himself up, his cock sliding down the throat.Â
"Ride my cock." He whimpers.Â
His eyes are still closed as he feels a body climb up the bed, hovering over him before sitting on his cock. "Oh god." He hears moaned from above. He places his hands on hips, helping rock back and forth.Â
"You always feel so good around my cock." He whines, his fingertips digging into the thighs on top of him.Â
"Cum." He demands, his teeth clenched together. He listens to the sweet sound of moans from above him, as fingertips dig into his chest.Â
It doesn't take long for Kai to cum, filling up the warm pussy that surrounds his cock.Â
"Fuck, I love you." He sighs before falling asleep.Â
In the morning Kai wakes up startled and confused. He remembers drinking with Hwasa, but he must have drank too much. He looks over and sees Hwasa sleeping in the other bed in the room, both of them still fully clothed. He went home that morning and told you about the wild sex dream he had about you, and you told him you were pregnant.Â
**Â
Kai walks in the door of your shared apartment and sees you standing there, with two tiny baby onesies, one with blue writing and one with pink.Â
"It's twins babe." You cry. "A boy and a girl!"Â
Kai walks towards you, dropping to his knees, sobbing with his head down.
"I'm so sorry Ayn, I fucked up." He whispers. "Hwasa's pregnant and it's mine."Â
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It be June 3rd now, and would you look at that, the second of my prompts is already up! Whoâd a thunk it? Anyway, as successfully guessed by the lovely @torahime here is 5 + 1! And as by the nature of this trope in general, this one ended up long. Like crazy loooooooong. (Also Iâm a moron who didnât understand what the prompt meant for like a week. I kept trying to figure out what the hell the number six had to do with anything, and when I finally googled it out of desperation, all I saw were the words âfive timesâ in the first link and I immediately felt ashamed of myself. I should have known. Why didnât I know?)
Anyways, you can read the long-ass fic in question at ao3 over here: Do You Ever Wonder What Could Have Been? You can also read this one under the cut, but considering the length I wouldnât recommend it asdhaskdjh The next one should be much shorter due to the fact that like the first one, I blanked for ideas completely lol.
Do You Ever Wonder What Could Have Been?
Trope: 5 + 1 Fandom: Until Dawn Characters: Ashley Brown, Chris Hartley, Josh Washington (all the other kids also make an appearance but due to them only having like one scene and a single line each Iâm not tagging them) Words: 12733 Rating: Teen (though I think Iâm being pretty damn generous with that rating tbh) Authors Notes: Yes youâre reading that word count right. Almost thirteen thousand words. Donât ask how I managed to write this in 5 days, I have no fucking idea. Just take this fic about two nerds being morons in love and mutually pining over each other for six. fucking. years.
Chris is fourteen and so goddamn tired of this stupid crush on his best friend. It's been a whole year now since he met her, and he hates that this stupid, silly, little, crush of his hasn't abated at all. He doesn't even know why he likes her in the first place! It's just Ashley after all, there is absolutely no reason to feel this tongue-tied around his best friend. It's Ash: with her braces, arms always full books (when her head wasn't buried in one that is), stringy red hair, wide green eyes, who sometimes snorts when he tells a joke, freckles that dot her nose and shoulders andâ
Okay, he was maybe getting a little side-tracked here. The point was, there was 100% absolutely no reason to feel this way about her. In fact, he bets this was all Josh's fault in the first place! Yeah! That was it! None of this would be happening if Josh hadn't basically kidnapped Ashley from her true home in the library and forced him to meet her!Â
...But then he wouldn't have met her. And stupid crush aside, she is pretty much the only girl he knows who laughs at all his jokes and helps him with his English homework sometimes. He likes knowing her and likes being her friend even more, he just doesn't like liking her. And maybe that was it? Maybe he just likes Ashley cause she's the only girl who willingly hangs out with him and Josh, and isn't Josh's sisters.Â
And that's what he's going to prove today once and for all. He heard from Josh that Hannah was absolutely adamant that everyone was going to play spin-the-bottle at her and Beth's birthday party in a couple of days. And that everyone meant not only the people that the twins invited for said party, but also the people that Josh invited over (ie: Chris and Ash) so he would have some company during the twins big b-day bash. Chris was going to find Ashley and explain that losing their first kiss over a game like spin-the-bottle was just so not cool, and that maybe kissing each other first would just be a way better and smarter idea of doing things. And once he kissed her he would finally realize that yup, Ash was just one of the guys and that was so fucking gross and they were totally never ever going to do that again.
Perfect idea. Fool proof even. No way that this was totally going to backfire into his face. Absolutely none at all!
So when he finds Ashley sitting and reading under her usual tree just outside of the school, he is so sure of the success of his ingenious plan that he brings it up right away.Â
"I think we should kiss before Hannah and Beth's party."
See! Right away! Straight to the point. He has got this shit in the bag baby!
Ashley looks up at him, clearly a little startled from reading her book and squints at him. "Huh? Chris? Is that you?" For a second he's a little confused about how Ash doesn't even recognize him, but then he quickly realizes that he's probably got the sun directly at his back so she can't see him clearly and he awkwardly shuffles to the left a little so she can see him better. "Oh! Hey Chris, what was that you said earlier? I got so absorbed that I didn't really hear a thing you said, sorry." While she doesn't close her book, she does give an embarrassed little laugh that makes his stomach flip-flop just a little and starts to weaken at the cracks of his once fool-proof plan.
He finds himself messing with the strap on his bookbag as he tries to ignore the butterflies fluttering around in his stomach. 'Um, I asked if you were going to the twins' birthday party this weekend." Okay, falling a little behind schedule now, but it's fine. No problem.
"I mean, I wasn't exactly invited, but yeah. A whole night of graphic horror movies to drown out the sounds of screaming pre-teens. I honestly can't think of a better way to spend a Saturday night." The absolute dryness of her tone has Chris smiling.
"Oh come on Ash, it's not gonna be that bad."
"Our choices are either to hang out with a bunch of kids who have basically never talked to us ever, or watch Josh's disgusting horror movies Chris."
"Well, I mean, when you put it that way...actually, no. The screaming pre-teens sound like a safer bet honestly." The little snort of laughter she lets out only has Chris pushing the butterflies down harder. God, he is going to be so glad when those stupid things finally leave him alone. "And well, from what Josh said, it sounds like horror isn't the only thing planned for that evening."
"It isn't? You mean he's actually opening up to other movie genre options? Shocking. I truly never thought I would see the day."
"Ha, I wish. Nah, I was, um, talking about what the girlsâwell, what Hannah wanted to play. Actually." Great. And now he's starting to blush. Really keeping with the rails of his plan there!
"What Hannah...? Oh! You're, uh, talking about the spin-the-bottle game." Ashley brings her lower lip into her mouth and pushes some hair behind her ear. "Yeah, Josh mentioned something about that."
Perfect, one less thing he had to explain. That would speed things up immensely. "Honestly, between you and me? I think it's a stupid idea."
Ashley nods her head vigorously in agreement. "I know right! I mean, who wants to kiss some stranger over a bottle of all things? Can you imagine losing your first kiss to some person who probably doesn't have a single idea who you are in the first place? God that would be awful." Oh man, things are lining up right for him! Ashley's even on the same page and this next part is going to be so easyâ "That's why I asked Josh if I could kiss him first instead when he told me a couple of days ago."
Wait. Waitwaitwait wait . She already asked Josh?! "Oh, wow. You were, uh, really thinking ahead there huh?" God, he could feel every ounce of determination he had slowly deflating out of his body. There was no way he could ask her now, absolutely no way! Ashley was gonna think that Chris wanted to kiss herâor worse, liked her! And okay he kind of did, but this was supposed to prove the exact opposite. That this was just stupid hormones and puberty really messing with his life and not something else.
"Of course, there was absolutely no way I was gonna have my first kiss with some popular buttface who was just gonna make fun of me behind my back afterwards. Better to have it with Josh, who would also make fun of me, but at least it would be to my face." Ashley starts to return to her book, flipping a page but stops halfway through. "Wait. Were you going to ask me the same thing?" She sounds a little unsure and a little of something else he can't place right now because he's too busy trying not to panic.Â
"What? No! God no! Of-of course not!" Oh god, was his voice seriously choosing to crack now? He really, really hoped that the shade being cast from the tree was enough to hide how red his face was. He needed to get out of here and quick .
"I-I-I mean, it's not like it was good or anythingâ"
"Think I should probably go now anyway."
"It was, like, really wet and-and-and like so bad. Super awkward honestly."
"Lots of things to do. Lots and lots of things to do in fact!"
"I mean, we could still, uh, k-k-kiss? If you want to...?"
"Nope!" Chris was honestly looking everywhere except at Ashley right now, which was fine because she was currently in the middle of trying to hide behind her book. "There's absolutely no reason to do that. Because, because... I already kissed Josh too!"
"...you did?"
"Yup! Totally did. Just came over to see what you had planned to do about it actually. And because you're so much smarter than me, you had totally already done the same thing. So no reason for me to still bother you after all! None whatsoever! So I'll just let you get back to your book. And the battle between the uh, vampire and the, um, cowboy? Riveting stuff I bet."
"Um, yeah. Butâ"
"I'll just, uh, see you tomorrow then, I guess. Bye!"
Chris thinks he catches a wave of disappointment flash across her face when she returns his farewell, but he's already basically fled half away across the yard to find Josh so he doesn't think about it too much. And it turns out that Ashley is right, kissing Josh is wet and pretty fucking awful in the end. Which should only prove his idea that kissing her would have been just as bad and awkward.
So why does he feel like it would have actually been the complete opposite?
"I'm going to fail."
Ashley rolled her eyes as she struggled not to laugh. "Oh my god, you're not gonna fail Chris."
Chris didn't even deign to raise his head from where he had face-planted it into the open book only moments before, letting his words come out muffled and flat. "I am Ash. I am going to bomb this exam so hard that they're gonna make me repeat ninth grade."
Ashley groaned, but it was more of an attempt to hide her amusement than out of any exasperation, as she tried to lift Chris back into a sitting position and wasn't laid out prostrated over the table. "Okay first of all, get your dumb face out of that book. Ms. Norman is not gonna be happy with either of us if she discovers your drool all over the pages of the only half-decent copy of Lord of the Flies that the school library has." Once she finally has finally managed to prop Chris into a halfway decent sitting position, she moves the book closer to her in case he decides to try smashing his face into it again. "Second of all, I'm pretty sure that the school's not going to make you repeat the grade just because you failed English, your grades in everything else are high enough that they'll definitely pass you. That, and there is no way that the teachers would let Josh move on to high school of all things without supervision."
"...That is a scarily good point."
"And thirdly, there is absolutely no way I would be able to get through the next four years of school with you in my grade," she teases him with a poke in the arm. "I mean can you imagine? Having to go to class everyday knowing you're going to be there with me? I can't think of anything more terrifying honestly."
Chris gives a startled laugh. "Gee, thanks Ash. Really appreciate that vote of confidence. Making my self-esteem soar over here. And also, I for one can think of something way more terrifying."
"Really?" Ashley says as she crosses her arms across her chest and levels him with a disbelieving look. "Well go on then, try me. Cause I can promise you that there is absolutely nothing more terrifyingâ"
"Me and Josh in the same grade as you."
Ashley just blanches. "Oh god. You're right. That is so much worse and the idea of this even happening is now going to give me nightmares for the rest of my life."
"Oh please, it wouldn't be that bad."
"It would. It so would. And to prevent this we need to double down on you studying for your English final so that this cataclysmic event never occurs."
It's Chris's turn to roll his eyes as he slumps down even further into his seat. "That's what I was doing earlier until you stopped me."
"What? Planting your face into the middle of the book?"
"Exactly. Decided to try out a new method cause the other one wasn't certainly working. Learning by osmosis."
Ashley shoves her face into the palms of her hands to try and stop her giggles. It didn't work, not by a long shot, but it at least smothered them a bit. "You can't just read a book by trying to absorb it into your skin, that's not how things work at all!"
"And how would you know that Ash? Have you ever even tried?" Chris scoffs.
"Of course I haven't you dork! I haven't tried because that's not even possible!"
 "Um, sounds to me like someone just isn't open to new ideas."
"Oh my god. Can we please get back to studying and making sure you don't fail. I for one would really like to get back to that." Ashley starts to put the copy of the book back between the middle of them where they can both read it easily. "Okay, so chapter eight is where the divide between the boys finally reaches a boiling point after seeing the 'monster' on the mountain in the last chapter. They argue over whether Ralph should still be left in charge and Jack leaves in a huff."
Chris groaned as he tossed his glasses onto the table so he could throw his arm over his eyes. "Starting to think that Jack has the right idea here." he grumbled.
Ashley ignored him. "Some of the other boys follow after him and form their own tribe with Jack as its chief further down the beach. As a group, the hunters then fall into a savage frenzy when they go hunting and kill a sow, with Roger dealing the killing blow."
"By driving his spear into the thingâs ass," Chris helpfully supplied.
Ashley sighed. "Yes, by doing that. Good to know you're at least remembering some things, but do you remember what happened next?"
Though she couldn't see with Chris's arm in the way, she knew that he was narrowing his eyes in concentration. "Ummm, they... eat the pig?"
Ashley groaned and fought very hard against the impulse to smack her forehead into the center of the table. " Chris . "
"What? Do they not eat the thing? I mean, why even hunt it if they're not gonna eat it?"
"Chris, what they do next is the lead up for what is often considered the most important scene in the entire book! How can you not remember?!"
"I don't know Ash! Kind of think I was distracted by the whole 'shoving a spear into a sow's anus' part!"
"They leave its head on a stake in the jungle as an offering to the beast! This is what creates the Lord of the Flies that Simon sees later that night!"
"Oh right, that. Yeah that sounds a little familiar now that you mention it."
"A littleâ" Ashley stops fighting against the earlier urge and places her heavy head into her hands in despair. "You literally had to read this book last month! How could you have forgotten so much already?"
Chris groans and drapes himself over the back of his chair. "This is hopeless Ash. I appreciate the help I really do, but I think it's time we face the inevitable and just take a page out of this book."
"What, I stick your head on a pike and be done with you?"
The snort that Chris makes in surprise is enough to bring a tired smile to Ashley's face. "Leaving you to deal with Josh alone? Ha, you wouldn't. Nah, I was talking about just making an offering to the exam gods out there. Think they'll be the best bet I have to pass this shitty ass final."
Ashley removes her head from her hands to give him a withering look. "If we're going that route, you want a kiss for good luck too? Probably work just as well as those gods of yours."
There's an awkward pause, and at first Ashley can't figure out why but then the words finally hit her. She feels her face start to burn and she places her head back into her hands so she doesn't have to look at Chris anymore. Oh god, she can't believe she just said that. Why would she even say that in the first place?! It's a damn good thing that Chris isn't wearing his glasses right now, the heat from her face alone is making her feel like she's about to combust as it is, and him seeing that would probably push her over that physical boundary.
"I-I mean, if you think it will help..." Chris sounds almost bashful when he says it and Ashley snaps her head to him in shock.
"Iâ" Ashley isn't quite sure what she's trying to say, and is interrupted when her phone buzzes with an incoming text message. She immediately jumps up from her chair and starts grabbing at her things. "Oh man, that's probably my mom here to pick me up. I should really get going."
"Uh, yeah. Yeah! No reason for me to stay if you aren't so I guess I should head out too." Chris starts picking up his stuff too, putting his glasses back onto his face as he shoves his books into his bag.
By nature of having brought less than Chris to help him study, Ashley finishes cleaning first but doesn't leave right away. Chris had said it was fine after all. And sure, maybe he was just desperate for anything that will help him pass his final, but he said it would be fine. So steeling herself, Ashley leans down and leaves a quick but chaste kiss on Chris's cheek.
"For luck!" She manages to squeak out as she all but runs out the doors of the library to the school's entrance where her mom will be waiting for her, too scared to even look back.Â
Chris should have known that something was up the moment Josh brought it up: 'Hey, how about you and Ash hang out at my house this weekend instead?' Innocent sounding sure, but he really, really should have known better. Josh never pushed for hang outs at his place, it had always been an agreed upon rule that Hannah and Beth got their place, while Josh preferred to host their get togethers and his and Ash's own houses. It was just the thing that was done and everyone had been more than happy with how it was. Had it been any other time, Chris would like to think that he would have totally seen right through Josh's plan and offered up his place instead.
But Josh's parents were almost never around either, and that meant staying up late and talking and goofing around without parents warning them to go to sleep. Which most importantly meant staying up late and talking to Ashley, because that hadn't been a thing that the three of them had been able to do a whole lot recently. It was still so weird not seeing Ash around in the school halls, not being able to hang out at lunch, and not meeting up after school all the time. It felt like there was something huge missing and it bothered him (just as much as it bothered Josh, not that he would ever say anything about it). The two of them wandering the hallowed halls of high school while she was still stuck back in their middle school just felt so wrong .
So when Josh had brought up a weekend hang out, Chris (and Ashley) had accepted right away. Which, judging from the fact that Josh had somehow managed to weasel the two of them into playing a game of Truth or Dare with him, had been a huge mistake.
"Well, well, well. It seems the time has come. So let's get on with it shall we?" Josh rubbed his hands gleefully together in the dim light of the bedroom (for atmosphere he had claimed) as the three of them sat in a circle. A seemingly innocuous plate of cookies sitting in the middle of them, and knowing better then to trust Josh, both Chris and Ash had been eyeing the cookies warily for the past few minutes. Not that Josh seemed to notice or care of course. "Seeing as I'm the one who set up elegant little ritualâ"
"You forced us into playing a stupid game dude, there's nothing elegant or ritualistic about it."
Josh ignored him, unsurprisingly. "I'll go first of course. So Ash, truth or dare?"
"What are the cookies for Josh?" Ashley asked nervously as she continued to eye the plate instead of answering him.
"That's not important. And anyways, it's my turn Ash. So I'll ask again: truth or dare Ashley?"
Ashley raised her eyes from the plate to transfer her nervous and mistrustful stare to him. "...truth," she answered slowly.
"Oh ho ho! So truth it is! Well then Ash, tell me: have you got any secrets you've been dying to share with us?"
Chris could immediately tell that the question had hit a sore spot on some sort, shoulders locked and her body stiff. "You know I'm not gonna answer that one. Pass."
Josh shook his head, a devious smile on his lips. "Nope. Nuh uh Miss Brown. That's not how this game works. If you're gonna pass then I'm gonna have to ask that you take a cookie in return."
"...I'm sorry, what? "
He waved a hand down towards the plate of cookies. "These, my dearest chums, are the fabled Truth or Dare cookies. Anytime one of us refuses to act out what is asked of us, we must then take a cookie in penance."
At first, Ashley doesn't move. She continues to dart her eyes suspiciously between Josh and the plate of cookies, but eventually slowly does reach out and hesitantly grab a chocolate cookie from the plate. She holds it up closer to her face to investigate it further, and Chris watches as all the tension she had stored up just evaporates from her as she physically deflates. "Oh my god, are you actually being serious right now Josh? âDareâ brand cookies? Really? Why in the world are you trying to be so ominous when you went with a pun as lame as using Dare cookies in a game of truth or dare?"
"Wait, really?" Chris reaches out to grab one for himself but Josh smacks his hand away with a grin.Â
"So sorry Cochise, but these are only for if you refuse. And trust me, you don't want to refuse." Josh turns back to Ashley. "Oh, and don't eat that just yet."Â
In response, she just shrugs and leans back, but keeps the chocolate crème filled cookie in her hand as she looks between Chris and Josh. "It's my turn now, right? Okay, soâ"
Josh cuts her off. "Nope, still mine. Now, Chrisâ"
"What? That's not how this stupid game works Josh!"
Josh waves her off. "You didn't answer my question Ash, or eat the cookie, so it's still my turn."
"But you just told me not to eat the stupid thing!"
Josh ignores her as he keeps his attention squarely on Chris. Who, to his own shame, has begun squirming in his seat in dread of what's going to come. "Well, Chris: truth or dare?"
Chris tosses the options over in his head. Both are terrible obviously, but playing this game with Josh of all people never ends well, so he decides to go with his gut instead. "Dare."
"Ooooh, feeling a little gutsy are we? That's fine, I can work with that. I dare you to... return the favour and do one thing you've been thinking about alllllllll summer."
Personally, Chris is finding it a miracle that he hasn't reached over and tried to strangle Josh yet, but he has a feeling that has more to do with the fact that he's trying not to shrivel up on the floor and die than out of any mercy. Even though Josh for some reason worded it in a really convoluted way, he just literally dared him to kiss Ash. It was so obvious that he was frankly amazed that Ashley hadn't figured it out yet.
Because of course he still thought about that kiss for good luck that Ash had given him in the library. He thought about it nearly all the damn time! Hell, Chris was pretty sure that the reason he had even passed his final even a little bit was because of the kiss. Not because it was good luck or anything, but because whenever a question appeared on the exam that asked about the themes or some shit about Lord of the Flies, he kept getting sent back into that library where Ashley had been drilling the same stuff into him just before she had kissed his cheek.
And there is absolutely no way that he's gonna kiss Ash in Josh's bedroom. No way in hell. Especially not when it's gonna reveal that he had been thinking about what was more than likely a super innocent and helpful gesture on her part.
So glaring at Josh, Chris reaches forward and without a word grabs a vanilla cookie. And for some strange reason, this only causes Josh's smile to widen. "I see, so that's what you both went with huh? Anyways, I think it's about time you take your 'reward' and chow down!"
Exchanging a confused look with Ashley, Chris nonetheless shrugs and pops the entire thing into his mouth and bites down.
And realizes in a horrifying instant that this is not a vanilla cookie.
There's a flash of light that blinds him for a second, and when the spots clear he sees Josh holding a camera and laughing his ass off.
"What theâ? Is this fucking mayo dude?!" And it must be, because this is not what a vanilla cookie should ever taste like. While the cookie portion itself is okay if not a little soft, the crème is way too oily and eggy to be anything but mayo. Josh doesn't answer his question right away, but that's from a combo of laughing way too hard and being distracted by Ash trying not to retch in the middle of the bedroom floor.
"Oh my god! You put soy sauce in a cookie?! What is wrong with you Josh?!" She's up in a second and rushing to the garbage can near Josh's desk, and Chris is quick to join her in trying to spit everything out. "I'm never going to get this salt out of my mouth! Why would you even do that?!"
"Cause it's fucking hilarious that's why!" Josh is still laughing as he takes a look at the picture he took on the camera, and starts laughing harder. "Oh fucking hell, this was glorious. Oh wasting those two questions just for this picture was so worth it. Best decision I could have made!
"Now you two get your asses back over here! I spent hours on these cookies after all, and I am not letting them go to waste. We've got hours my friends, and so many questions and dares to get through."
Chris shares a look with Ashley over the garbage bin, both of them now obviously wondering if keeping their own secret had been worth having to eat those cookies, and if they still would have passed their turn knowing what exactly laid in store for them. While he certainly couldn't say a thing about her, Chris wasn't so sure if not kissing Ash and enduring all the fallout that would have resulted in was worth the terrible combination of vanilla and mayo in his mouth. He supposed he would never know, it was too late to simply retract his pass after all.
And well, he really didn't want to kiss Ash when she had just been tricked into eating a bunch of soy sauce.
You know, Ashley kind of figured that once she entered high school all of these stupid games would be done with. Surely high schoolers were too mature and too old to be playing childish games like spin-the-bottle or seven minutes in heaven? And yeah, obviously Chris and Josh weren't, but that was them and they were in a class all their own. But Hannah? And Sam and Beth? She would have thought that they were way too cool to be playing spin-the-bottle of all things, especially Beth.
And yet, here Ashley was: squeezed in between Matt and Sam as Matt spun the bottle around on the now extremely sticky hardwood floor. She wasn't stupid, she knew the entire reason the game was even being played in the first place; Hannah had been making eyes at Mike all through the evening and well into the game after all. She just didn't think that anyone else would have been stupid enough to go along with the game when Hannah suggested it.Â
(Ashley knew very well why she had reluctantly agreed to play, she just didn't know why anyone else did.)
Though to be fair, it didn't seem like the game was gonna last much longer anyway. Emily and Jess had started scrolling through their phones ages ago, showing each other whatever was on the other's screen every few minutes and the two of them laughing. Mike had been tapping a really off-rhythm beat on his jeans with the straw from his can of soda and staring into space, while Hannah stared lovesick at him . Beth was starting to doze on Sam's shoulder, not that either seemed too concerned about it, and Sam was nervously eyeing all the spilt pop and chips around them that they were gonna have to clean up before they went to bed. Unsurprisingly, Chris was also scrolling through his phone, snickering every now and then as Ashley felt her phone buzz in the pocket of her hoodie whenever he sent whatever it was that he found funny to her and Josh. Josh meanwhile, had joined Matt in building a rather shakyâif not impressiveâtower out of discarded plastic cups, straws, and paper plates.
Ashley yawned behind her hand as the bottle slowed it's spin. She had been ready to drop out of the game a round or two back, but hadn't yet because she didn't want to deal with the others teasing her on being a sore loser who backs down the moment the bottle didn't land on the person she wanted it to. Which would lead to Chris asking who it was even though everyone else already knew who because it was glaringly obvious to everyone except him. The sound of the bottle stopping its spin managed to get everyone's attention as they looked at the neck of the bottle pointed squarely at Mike.Â
Everyone made the expected ' oooooooh ' and wolf whistles that everyone always did in this game, though quieter than they might have usually. Bob and Melinda were sleeping upstairs after all, and the last thing any of them wanted to do was wake them up and have them discover that despite it being nearly three in the morning, that the ten of them were still awake as the snow storm raged outside the lodge. Nonetheless, Matt and Mike both rolled their eyes and leaned over Josh who sat in the middle of them with a groan. Mike also didn't hesitate to take Matt's face into his hands and just plant one firmly on his mouth with no fanfare, other than the continued wolf whistles of course, and the two of them settled back down to their previous antics.Â
With that done, Ashley stared down nervously at the bottle. Once again, she felt the words stick in her throat. It would just be so easy to say "Oh man you guys, it's really late, I should really just go to bed" but let them die without a fight as she swallowed nervously and gave the bottle a hard flick. She knew exactly why she let the words die, and it wasn't solely because of what the others would say, though that was certainly a large part of it. No, it was because of the same glimmer of hope that sparked in her everytime it was her turn at this stupid game. That maybe this would be the time that the bottle would land on Chris, that she would finally get that kiss she's wanted for three years now.
She watches the bottle spin around the group, slowing its motion every full spin, and she notices that Chris has turned his attention away from his phone to watch it almost as nervously as she is. Which should probably make her question just why Chris is as just as invested on who it's gonna land on as she is, but she's kind of distracted right now by the fact that her heart is rapidly picking up pace in direct contrast to how much slower the bottle is getting. And feels it stop almost entirely when the bottle begins its last revolution and she knows. She knows . It's finally gonna land on Chris. All these years of playing this stupid, stupid game and it's finally happening. Â
Ashley's eyes shoot up to meet Chris's over the bottle, but that's also when the lodge suddenly plunges into darkness just before the bottle stops on him.
Immediately, the others are screaming next to her and the tower of cups and plates fall with a soft clatter.
"Oh my god! What the fuck was that?!"
"Holy fuck! Can you guys see anything?"
"Of course we can't see anything Michael!"
"It's probably just the storm you guys. Settle down."
"Can you guys please quiet down? My parents are sleeping and they're gonna kill us if they find out we're still awake."
Ashley isn't yelling though, because she's too busy screaming internally. There is no way that this is actually happening right now. There is no goddamn way. The bottle finally lands on Chris and the power goes out? Because of some stupid storm? She wanted to scream. She has half a mind to reach out and hold the bottle in place so there's proof of this when the power comes on, or to just jump over the distance and kiss Chris anyway. She knows exactly where he is after all, and he must have seen it land on him. He must have, right? It's that little second of uncertainty that decides for her, there's a sound as someone gets up and the flat 'thunk' as they accidentally kick the bottle across the room.
"Shit. My bad. You guys stay here, I'll go and check out the back-up generator in the basement. You coming, Cochise?"
Ashley can hear Chris awkwardly and quickly getting to his feet. "Um, y-yeah. Right behind you, bro."
The two of them walk away leaving Ashley to sit on the floor about to scream from the frustration of it all. And she does scream that it is, though not from almost having the perfect excuse to kiss Chris, but from someone touching her shoulder.
"Sorry, sorry!" Sam apologizes. "You were so quiet Ashley that I got nervous. I know that you're scared of the dark and I just wanted to make sure you were okay."
Oh, yeah. That's right. She was so preoccupied with the dark ruining what was almost going to be the highlight of her entire year , that she kind of forgot that it was, well, dark now. And once that realization hits her, so too does the fear that she's sitting in absolute darkness and can't see a single thing other than the lights being cast from everyoneâs phones. That she has no idea what elseâor who elseâis out there. She frantically reaches out and wraps up Sam's arm in her own for a physical reminder that there is someone else she trusts in the darkness with her.
"Wait, you're scared of the dark Ash? Shit. Here, just give me a second." From next to her, Matt rustles in his jacket pocket and brings out his phone, turning it on and casting light around the room, and reflecting off the plastic bottle that Josh had accidentally kicked to the other side of the room. "Hope this helps a bit."
Ashley lets out a breath and a small smile. "Yeah, it does. Thanks Matt."
"No problem. Hey, I think I may have a funny video saved on here somewhere. Pretty sure I downloaded it so just give me a moment." He finds the video quickly enough, and while Ashley doesn't find it particularly as funny as he clearly did, she does appreciate the effort anyway.
Thankfully for everyone, the lights come back on soon enough. Though whether from the power coming back or the back-up generator activating, she isn't sure. It is enough to convince everyone that maybe it's time for bed though, and no one asks about her spin and who it landed on, which Ashley is both insulted for and thankful of in equal measure. Sam unfortunately reminds everyone of the mess they've all made of the great room though, and that they should all clean it up before Bob and Melinda wake up and find it, which Hannah and Beth eagerly echo, and so does Josh when he makes his way back up from the basement with scowling Chris in tow.
Thankfully, between the ten of them, the clean up takes very little time and they're all on their way back to their own rooms in record time, even if Ashley was too embarrassed to even look at Chris now. God, she couldn't believe that she had seriously considered jumping him! And for what? Just because some bottle told her to? Oh man, she never would have been able to live that down. She still spends more time then needed to get ready in the bathroom, and then laying in bed with her lamp on in the hopes that maybe Chris will knock on her door to confront her about the spin and ask for that kiss.
While the fact that he doesn't make an appearance doesn't surprise her, it's still a little depressing.Â
Chris is going to kill Josh. He is going to kill him . And he means it this time. Years spent watching Josh's horror shit and listening to Ash go on and on about her mystery novels should have given him a real edge actually. He can murder Josh violently in the way that the weirdo would probably like to go and then Ash can help him get rid of the body so that no one will ever know it was him. Easy.
You know, assuming Ashley is still gonna want to even associate with him after this.
"You feeling okay, Chris? You're starting to look a little red... and surly."
"Yup, I'm fine. Just peachy in fact." Chris takes another swig of the punch that has somehow not been spiked yet, and tries to plaster a smile on his face for her only to once again start looking over her shoulder. Not that there's anything interesting over her shoulder of course, unless one finds a group of football seniors trying to play a game of chicken in the middle of the dance hall interesting, but it's easier than looking straight at her. Not because she looks terrible of courseâgood god is that not the reasonâbut because she is way too fucking gorgeous for him to handle right now.
When Chris had decided to invite her to his and Josh's grad thing, it had just been a way for all three of them to hang out and enjoy their last year of high school together. School rules dictated after all that for some stupid reason, graduates weren't allowed to invite anyone who wasn't in school anymore so Ash wasn't going to be able to ask them to hers next year. Which was complete and utter bullshit of course, but that was beside the point. It was supposed to be a fun night... and then Chris's parents found out. And being the complete pain in the asses they are, they insisted that if Ash was going to this party with them, and it was a formal party, then they needed to make this proper. So against his wishes and leaving Chris wanting to die, they went and found out what colour of dress Ash was going to be wearing and got him not only a matching tie but a fucking corsage to go with it! The only thing that had made all of that even a little better, was that they had forced Josh to go along with it so at least he wouldn't be alone.Â
But then Josh had showed up not wearing his stupid tie and without the fucking flowers. And despite Chris's repeated protests that he didn't want to do the whole matching thing, especially if Josh wasn't doing it, his parents still made him do it anyway, saying all the while that 'it would make Ashley happy, you do want to make Ashley happy don't you?' And now here he was, sitting with Ashley at their table while she wore his stupid flowers on her wrist and his tie matched her green dress.
He hated how fucking obvious his crush was s0 much.
"...It's because of what everyone's been saying isn't it?"
At the dejected tone of her voice, Chris immediately snaps his full attention to her, leaving his glass of punch forgotten as he flaps his hands around in an effort to not reach out and grab at her hand. "What? No! God no! That isn't it I swear!"
Ashley sighs sadly as she looks glumly down at her lap. "It's fine Chris. I can understand if it's making you uncomfortable."
Chris takes one of his ineffectually flapping hands and makes to run it through his hair, before remembering the amount of gel he had put in it before coming and rubs at his eyes beneath his glasses. "I'm serious Ash, that's not it. I was honestly just thinking about the different ways I'm going to murder Josh when he gets back."
She laughs a little at that, and turns to look out into the direction of the buffet table, as though she'll be able to see Josh coming back with their food through the literal sea of people. "He has been gone a while hasn't he? He left like twenty minutes ago and he still isn't back. Do you think he even went to the buffet table in the first place?"
"He better have. Him coming back with food is probably about the only thing that's going to stop me from murdering him honestly."
Ashley laughs a little louder, and when she pushes a stray strand of hair that had come undone from her simply styled updo, Chris catches the while flowers on her wrist and feels his stomach flip pleasantly. "Any particular reason you want to kill Josh this time?"
"I mean, I have plenty but let's just be honest with ourselves here: do either of us ever need a reason to wanna kill Josh, Ash?"
And there it is, the surprised snort he was waiting for and that just made this entire evening a little more bearable. "God, you're not wrong." She follows his eye line to the corsage on her wrist and just like that all levity to the situation is gone as she hides her hands back in her lap under the table. "...you're sure that you're okay with what everyone is saying though?" she asks a little nervously.
Honestly? No, he isn't. Ever since the three of them walked into the party, everyone they had talked to right away had noticed the matching colours and the corsage and all comments had been the same. 'Fucking knew that there was something going on between you two' and 'Hey, it's about fucking time' or 'Always knew that you two would be good together'. It had been bad enough realizing that apparently almost everyone he had ever spoken to even a little bit had known of his super obvious feelings for his best friend, but the absolute worst thing had been the pained but polite smile that Ash had forced onto her face every single time.
"Honestly, I'm never going to see most of these people ever again once I graduate." He's avoiding the question, and he knows that she knows that he's avoiding the question. "But you're probably gonna have to deal with people brining this stupid thing up for the entire next year. Are you going to be okay?"
"Yeah, I'll be fine. It's not like this is something I don't deal with already." She says it with a little shrug and smile, but Chris can feel his heart sink anyway. How long has she had to deal with the bullshit that his stupid crush has caused her, and why had she never told him? It's way too late to try and fix things, but he can at least hopefully try and stop any further comments from coming, so he lets his fingers fly to his tie and starts to frantically undo it. "...What are you doing Chris?"
"Wondering why on earth I let my parents talk me into this. This is obviously making you uncomfortable and I should have taken this stupid thing off ages ago." His fingers keep catching on the knot and he lets out a fairly explicit curse under his breath.
Ashley's eyes go wide with realization. "Oh!" She instantly flips over her wrist and starts fumbling at the clasp of the corsage with her other hand and Chris finds that his heart has somehow managed to travel all the way from the bottom of his stomach straight into his throat. Abandoning his only partially undone tie, he lays his hand on hers to stop her.
"You don't have to do that." She's staring at their hands in wide-eyed shock, and his breath catches. "Not if you don't want to, that is. It-it looks good on you."
"Okay," she whispers softly, eyes still wide as her fingers leave her wrist, "I can leave it on."
"Only if you want to though." When the hell did his mouth get so dry?! Â
"I do," she looks up to him when she says it, and the earnestness of her smile bowls him over. "I really, really do." In an effort to try and distract himself from her smile, he starts fumbling at his tie once again and he catches her eyes flickering to it. Ashley's smile somehow only brightens as she laughs at him. "Here. Let me give you a hand with that."
She scoots her chair closer to him and he removes his hands from his tie so she can take over. The two of them say nothing as she places all of her attention on continuing to loosen the knot, while Chris tries his absolute hardest not to swallow...or breathe...or do anything at all really, as he just stares down at her in awe.
Once the knot is finally undone, Ashley slowly pulls the entire length of fabric from his neck and places it on the table, before putting her hands back where they were so she can carefully smooth out his shirt collar. And when she looks back up at him with a smile, he can feel the entire world stop as they just stare at each other and Chris slowly starts to close the infinitesimally small distance between them. And he's probably just imagining things, but he thinks that she's doing the same thing as well.
"Jesus Christ, sorry it took so long you guys. Line for the fucking food was longer then you would believe!"
The two of them fly apart so fiercely, that Chris's entire chair manages to tip over backwards and send him to the ground with a loud clatter. He can feel everyone's eyes on them and the murmurs that follow, and he hopes that they're mistaking the redness of his face for the embarrassment of falling out of his chair. Yeah, that's a story that's going to make the rounds before he graduates for sure.
"Shit, you okay bro?" From his spot on the floor, Chris watches Josh place a couple of plates absolutely piled high in food on the table and reach down to help him up with a laugh. "Oh hey, I see you finally decided to take off that stupid tie too. Surprised it took you this long honestly."
Chris accepts Josh's hand up. "Yup, me too." He hopes and prays that Josh just thinks that the absolutely breathless and stunted quality to his words is that he's just a little winded from the fall. Once he gets his chair back up and sits back down, he grabs at the tie to shove it in his pocket. He notices that Ashley is refusing to look at him as she digs out a couple of sandwiches from the miscellaneous pile of food, even as she fiddles with the strap of flowers on her wrist for the rest of the meal.
He's exceptionally thrilled to note that she does keep the corsage on the rest of the night though.
Five times. That's how many times her phone has gone off in her pocket. Five. Times. And every single time Ashley lets out a sigh of relief when the buzzing finally stops, it goes off again only seconds later. And checking the caller id the first couple of times only showed that it was Josh calling her. Normally Ashley liked to think that she would have answered her phone if it was literally anyone else, but this was Josh. He called for every little thing after all; from letting her know that he saw a super big dog on the way home from classes to informing her that he was out of chips and if Ash could pick some up on her way to meet them from her job then that would really just be swell. And considering that he and Chris were supposed to meet her and grab a bite to eat together while she was on her lunch break, he was probably just calling to let her know that they had just left, and to make a milestone out of every block closer the two of them got so she could greet them with all the pomp and circumstance he likely thought he deserved.Â
Though to be fair she probably would have answered her phone after the third ring, if only to tell him off, but Jared had been giving her a stink eye from his office pretty much since she had arrived so she hadn't.
So she let it buzz...and buzz...and buzz. Until finally, her phone stopped yet again and she tensed her shoulders ready for the next round of vibrations to start. But there was nothing. Nothing but blissful silence coming from her pocket and she let out a huge sigh of relief as Ashley got back to work shelving some of the new stock, letting Kyrstin and Curtis deal with the short line of customers that had begun to form as they bought their books and whatever little trinkets littered the entire front of the store.
She hoped Chris and Josh got here soon, she was overdue for her lunch break and the smells coming out of the nearby food court were calling her name. Particularly the chinese place, she had been craving them for the last week at least . Plus, Jared had been raking her over coals about how her availability was going to drop dramatically once she started college in the next couple of weeks, and one of the creepy regulars had followed her around the store for-freaking- ever (she's pretty sure he had been staring at her ass the whole time too honestly) until Curtis had basically shoved her into the back room to let her escape while he covered for her. And surprise surprise, Jared hadn't been too thrilled about her 'abandoning her post' and yelled at her about that too.Â
Whoever said that working in a bookstore was a lazy job where she got to read books in her free time was a dirty, rotten liar. It was hell on earth and she was going to slowly tear the fingernails off whoever it was that said it (even though she had a sinking feeling it had probably be Ashley herself that said it back when she romanticized working in bookstores when she was, like, ten ). God, she really really needed that Chinese if she had any plans of surviving the last four hours of her shift.
The phone at the front desk behind her begins to ring, but a quick backwards glance has her realizing that with poor Curtis trying to deal with an older woman who is adamant that the book he's trying to sell her is the wrong one because she is 'positive that the book had a light purple cover and this one is lavender, that is two different colours and I want the right book now ' and Kyrstin being forced to deal with the rest of the line herself, that Ashley's the one who's going to have to answer the phone. With a groan of resignation (she hated answering the phone at work but Jared was in a horrendous enough mood as it was), she stood up and made her way over, repeating the greeting she was going to have to say over and over in her head so she (hopefully) wouldn't mess it up. And taking a deep breath, and repeating the greeting once more in her head, she forced a smile to her face as she picked up the handset.
"Hi! Thanks for callingâ"
"Fucking finally Ash."
In an instant, Ashley could feel every ounce of nervous energy violently expel from her body as she nearly doubled over with another groan, this one entirely of exhaustion. She took quick glance over her shoulder, but Jared seemed to busy with another phone call in his office thankfully. "What are you doing Josh?!" she whispered angrily, "I'm at work right now you moron!"
"Uh yeah, I know. Why do you think I called you using this number?"
Ashley gave Kyrstin an apologetic and pained smile when she looked at her curiously, who responded with a good-natured shake of her head and a laugh under her breath as she turned to help the next customer. "Well, you didn't have to call here."
"Kinda did, Ash. You kept ignoring me."
"I was ignoring your calls you butt, you could have just texted me instead you know."
"Hmmm, no. Anyways I tried calling to tell you that Chris and I might not be able to meet up with you for lunch."
Ashley felt disappointment flood her entire being. "Oh. I see. But you really could have justâ"
"We're at the hospital while Chris gets some x-rays done."
Immediately any disappointment fled her body as Ashley all but collapsed on the counter for support as her legs gave out on her. "Is he okay?! Oh god, is he okay Josh?!"
There's a pause on the phone and all Ashley can hear is her own blood pounding in her ears. He has to be okay. He has to be, he just has to be!
"I dunno, it was a pretty gnarly fall. Don't know if he'll ever truly recover, there was a lot of screaming after all."
Ashley doesn't even respond as she slams down the phone and turns to Kyrstin and Curtis who are looking at her in shock as her entire world falls to pieces around her. "I-I have to go. Chris is... Chris is..." she can't get anymore out with how it feels like someone is ripping her heart out of her chest. "Josh said he's in the hospital and...and..."
Curtis nods quickly as he runs to the staff room, and Kyrstin just starts shoving her towards the door as they all ignore the customers who are standing around awkwardly. "Go. We got this."
Ashley turns her head towards Jared's office. "But I gottaâand, and I need to grab my stuffâ
"Nope. You go. Curtis and I will figure something out, and Becks arrives for her shift in another half hour. We can manage just fine until then. You just get out of here right now."
Ashley doesn't try to fight anymore than that, not with how hard she's fighting to hold back breaking down in the middle of the store after all. Curtis meets her at the entrance with her bag and shoves it into her arms. "Do you need me to call you a taxi, or give you a ride, or anything? Kyrstin can drag Jared out of his cave if she's gotta." Next to him, Kyrstin nods furiously in agreement.
Ashley has never loved anyone as much as she loves her coworkers in this instant. "No, my-my mom gave me the car for today."
With that little bit of approval, and a random customer shouting âI hope he's okay hun!â at her, the two of them shove Ashley into the mall itself and the very instant she crosses that threshold she takes off running, shoving her way through people and nearly falling down the stairs in her effort to get to the parking lot as quickly as she can. She is so, so glad that her mom basically forced the car on her today instead of letting her take the bus as originally planned, she doesn't know how she would have lasted if she'd had to wait for a taxi to arrive and pick her up.
As it is, once she's finally (and somehow safely) managed to arrive at the hospital and found a spot to park, she's nonplussed about the fact that she didn't leave any imprints in the steering wheel from how hard she had been gripping it the whole drive over. She fumbles with the clasp on her seatbelt with shaking hands, almost bursting into tears about that fact alone, but she eventually manages to free herself and basically throws herself out of the car, only remembering to lock the door behind her when she's about halfway to the hospital doors.
The moment she bursts into the waiting room, Josh is sitting there waiting for her. He looks up at her in surprise as she hurries towards him, then down at his phone and back up at her again as he gives a low whistle. "Shit Ash, how many laws did you break to get here that fast?"
She ignores him. "What happened?! How is he?! Just tell me he's okay! Please, please tell me he's okay!"
"I mean, I suppose he's as fine as he could be considering the circumstances." He seems to sense that she's about ready to scream at him so he quickly follows up with "He's on the second floor, in room 272 if you want to see him."
Ashley doesn't even bother to thank him as she bolts to the nearby elevator, frantically pushing the 'Call Elevator' button nonstop until the door opens and then doing the same thing to the second floor button as it carries her up. Her eyes are burning in an effort to hold back her tears but she can tell that the dam is about to burst any second, especially with how long this elevator is taking to move. She doesn't even wait for the doors to open fully, squeezing through them the moment they're wide enough and accosting some poor nurse until he points her down the correct hall. She hurries the rest of the way, staring at every number on the wall until she finds room 272. And then she stops, her hand on the door knob as she braces herself for whatever she's going to find. Chris lying in bed, covered in blood and bandages with a heart monitor beeping next to him, just broken and shattered beyond all repair. With a choked back sob she opens the doorâ
and finds Chris sitting on the bed looking up at the ceiling bored to tears with a splint wrapped around his pinky and ring finger on his right hand.
"Finally! I thought you would never get here, so if we could just get this over withâ" he looks over at her standing in the doorway shell shocked and still in her work uniform and jumps to his feet. "A-Ash?! What the hell are you doing hereâ Wait, did you just come here straight from work?! "
"You're okay?" Ashley hates how small her voice comes out, "You're really okay?"
"What? Yeah, why wouldn't I be? Who told youâ"
Spell broken, Ashleyâs bag falls from her shoulder to the ground with a small clatter and she dives towards Chris, wrapping him in a tight hug. "Oh thank god. Oh thank god. " Chris starts to return the hug, likely more than a little confused about what's going on, but she's already moved so her hands are on either side of his face as she tugs him down to her level so she can get a better look at him. Twisting and turning his head this way and that as she looks for any bruises or cuts. "Josh told me that there had been an accident andâ"
"Ash!" Chris interrupts her by taking her wrists in his handsâthough he winces at the pain that likely forms as a result of doing soâand speaks as calmly and reassuringly to her as he can. "Ash, it's okay. I'm fine . I promise. I just tripped earlier that's all."
Ashley takes in the sight of the scuffed up palms of his hands, and the holes in the knees of his jeans that certainly hadn't been there before, and knows that Chris is telling the truth. Though it doesn't explain the splint on his hand.
"Okay, and I might have broken my finger doing so."
Ashley just stands there so dumbfounded and relieved in equal measure, that she blurts out "Josh said that there had been screaming."
To her surprise, Chris only gives an embarrassed groan as he stares at an area just over her shoulder "God, Josh is never gonna let me live that down is he? Okay, so my finger may not have been the only thing that broke..." Confused, mainly because except for the bandaged finger and ripped jeans he seems perfectly okay, Ashley looks over her shoulder and follows his eyes to his phone laying on the counter just behind her. The screen completely shattered to hell and back with no promise of life anywhere on it. Just the dead, black screen reflecting the ceiling above on its cracked surfaceÂ
"Wait," Ashley starts to feel the relieved giggles try to break free as her nerves finally settle, "are you telling me that you broke your finger but you were more worried about your phone? "
Chris sputters as he starts to wave his splinted finger infront of her face. "I mean obviously! This doesn't cost me any money to fix Ash; that's what health care's for! But my phone? Do you know how expensive that thing's going to be to replace? How many paychecks I'm going to have to put towards it? All the money I saved up this summer for school: gone! All because of a stupid little sidewalk curb!"
Ashley can't help it, she starts laughing uncontrollably as she collapses into a nearby chair with her head in her hands. "Oh, I am going to kill Josh when I see him, kill him! And then Jared's gonna kill me for bailing at work and not telling him! God, and I just left in the middle of a rush too! Remind me to buy Kyrstin and Curtis a cake or flowers or something as an apology. Oh my god ."
"You just ditched work? Ash!" Chris falls back onto the bed as he laughs with her. "Why would you even do that in the first place?!"
"Josh told me that you were in the hospital getting x-rays! What was I supposed to think?"
Chris rubs at his eyes beneath his glasses. "I asked him to let you know that we were probably gonna be a little late for lunch while I waited to get my cast! Fucking hell, I'm so sorry."
"Am I interrupting anything or..."
The two of them turn to see a doctor looking up at them with an upturned brow, and holding what Ashley assumes (and hopes) to be the materials needed for Chris's cast. "This is Chris Hartley's room correct?"
"Oh, uh, yeah. That's me."
The doctor nods, and walks towards Chris, but stops in front of the chair Ashley is sitting in. "I'm sorry, but I will be needing that chair sweetheart." With a squeak of apology, Ashley jumps out the chair and moves back by the door so fast that she's almost certain that she had managed to teleport over there, almost tripping over her forgotten bag in the process. Red-faced, she picks it back up and goes to leave (and possibly strangle Josh violently) but is stopped by the same doctor as she sits down in the chair with a chuckle, shaking her head. "You don't have to leave if you don't want to. It'll only take a couple of minutes to get this cast on and then he'll be free to leave with you."Â
Now even more red-faced (if that was even possible), Ashley just slowly shuffles over to the table where Chris's (broken) phone and wallet is, nervously fidgeting with the strap of her bag as she waits for Chris to get the cast on. Taking Chris's hand in her own, the doctorâDr. Klorens her name tag readsâscowls at the now slightly bent fingers in the splint, which Chris only gives a sheepish shrug and smile to, and sighs as she unwraps his fingers so she can reset the splint. And Ashley blanches at the deep, dark bruises that spread all the way from the middle of his pinky to nearly halfway down his palm that she had completely failed to notice earlier before those are once again lost.Â
And as promised, once the Dr. Klorens has put the cotton sleeve over his hand and trimmed it to the desired length, it only takes her another couple of minutes to wrap starting from the center of his forearm and all the way up to the center of his palm and then finally finishing with his splinted fingers. As the three of them wait for the fibreglass material to dry, Dr. Klorens goes over the do's and don'ts of cast care, which Ashley takes serious note of because she knows that Chris won't. Especially the 'do NOT get the cast wet' part, he's gonna forget about that one the moment Josh tries to bait him into another water gun fight.
"Alright, I think that's about it. Just come back in three weeks so we can do another x-ray to check and make sure that the bone's all healed up before we remove it. Just let someone know that you're done with the room when you leave, and remember to check out at the front desk." She gathers up her supplies and makes to leave, but stops to look over her shoulder at them with an amused smile on her face. "Oh, and if you two take the stairs, just make sure that you're careful. I know that we're in a hospital already, but I don't think any of us want to deal with any more tripping instances. Especially if they result in another broken bone." After waiting for Chris and Ashley to meekly agree to be careful, she finally leaves the two of them alone once again.
"Welp, that's it for my summer. 'Fraid I'm nothing but a cripple now."
Sighing, Ashley turns to Chris with a tired smile. "You are not a cripple, oh my god. You have a broken finger, you didn't lose the entire arm you dork."
Incensed, Chris waves his cast at her. "Um, do you not see this thing Ash? I may as well have. I've lost the use of two of my fingers now! Two! And on my right hand to boot. I can't hold a controller to play games with, I can't type, I can't text. What am I supposed to do Ash if I can't hold a single thing in my dominant hand anymore?"
"I'm sure you'll manage," she dryly responds. "Now come on, let's get out of here. I have to figure out how in the world I'm going to explain this to Jared so he doesn't fire me."
"Pretty sure that you should just let him if you ask me."
Ashley groans in agreement, but says "It's only another couple of weeks until college starts. Just hoping I can hold out until then, I need the money after all."
Chris lets out a resigned breath but then starts eyeing her work apron. "You got a sharpie in there?"
"Um, I think so. Why?"
"Uh, so you can sign my cast, duh. You missed out when I broke my arm when I was like nine, so you can be the first to get your name on this one."
"Trying to weasel my autograph out of me huh?" Ashley asks even as she digs through one of her pockets to pull out the sharpie in question, and joins Chris to sit next to him on the bed.
Chris laughs. "Damn, you figured out my devious plan. Thingâs gonna be worth a fortune when you make it onto the bestsellers list one day. Gonna be fighting off all sorts of crazed and fanatic fans."
Ashley shakes her head as she chuckles and writes her name on his arm, but pauses when she caps the pen. Seeing her name on his cast suddenly pulls everything back into vivid clarity, and she remembers the panic she had felt when she had thoughtâwhen she had believed âthat she had nearly lost him. That this was it, that he was here one day and gone the next, and she hadn't even told him how much he meant to her. How important he was to her. She watches as a drop of water splashes down onto the cast and she finds herself wondering if there's a leak in a room upstairs.
"What theâAsh? Are you crying?"
"Huh?" She wipes her eyes, and a surprised but weak laugh escapes when her hand comes away wet. "Oh, I guess I am. Sorry about that, you're supposed to keep the cast dry and here I am cryingâ"
Chris places his left hand on her cheek to help wipe away some of her tears. "Oh fuck, I really freaked you out didn't I? Fucking hell. I'mâ"
"Do you promise not to hate me?"
The look Chris gives her is nothing short of bamboozled. "Hate you? Ash, what's going on with you?"
"Do you promise not to hate me? Please Chris, I really, really need you to promise me this. Please . Do you promise not to hate me?" Sheâs fully aware that sheâs practically begging right now, silent tears flowing down her cheeks, but if it gets Chris to promise then sheâll gladly throw away her pride for this one thing.
"Yeah, I-I promise. Will you justâ"
Ashley doesn't give him anytime to finish his sentence before she's squeezing her eyes shut and she surges up to kiss him. She doesn't want to see his expression, not when all she wants is just to remember everything else that is happening. Remember the feel of his lips before he pulls away, and the warmth of his hand on her cheek. In fact, she spends so much time trying to memorize what she is sure is only going to be a single shared kiss, that it takes her a few seconds longer than she would like to admit to realize that Chris's hand isn't on her cheek anymore, it's moved to the back of her neck so he can kiss her back . The shock of which is enough for her to break the kiss and stare at him with wide eyes.
"Whâ" that's all she can get out before Chris is pulling her back in for a second kiss, and this time she lets her eyelids flutter close as she completely melts into, throwing her arms around his neck to hold him closer.
Ashley's not sure how long they stay like thatâcould have been an eternity, could have only been a couple of secondsâbefore they're both pulling back with their faces flushed and giggling like morons.
"Wow," Chris says after a moment, "I don't know what made you think I could hate you after that , but wow . If I had known that this would be the reaction I get, I would have broken my finger years ago."
There's something about the way he says it that has Ashley's heart beating even faster. "How long?" she demands breathlessly, "Tell how long ago?"
Somehow, Chris manages to flush even deeper. "I dunno, like... six? I guess?"
Six years. He'd had a crush on her for six years and she'd had no idea. The moment the realization hits her she starts laughing. "I knew you were trying to ask me for a kiss back in seventh grade! I should have just chased you down and given you one anyway!"
This time, it's Chris who starts laughing at the realization. "Wait, you liked me too?! Then that kiss, back in the library...?"
"You still remember that?!"
"Remember it? Ash, that stupid little cheek kiss is the only reason I passed that final I'm sure! Hell, why else do you think Josh dared me to kiss you in truth and dare?"
"What? No he didn't!"
Chris shakes his head as he moves his hand from her neck to around her waist. "He did! He told me to 'return the favour' and all I had been thinking about that summer was kissing you back. Fucking hell, I almost killed him when he pulled me away to get that generator working that winter in the lodge."
"Oh my god, I almost jumped across the floor to you that night when the power went out after the bottle landed on you."
"You didn't!"
Chris sounded so scandalized at the idea that Ashley presses her forehead to his as her smile widens, which only causes his own to widen in turn. "I did! But then Josh pulled you away and I just completely lost my nerve." She starts laughing at the next memory. "Oh god, I kept my lamp on in my room after that hoping you would stop by if you thought I was still awake."
The answering gape in shock was all she needed before she broke into more giggles. "I saw that! I don't know how long I hovered outside your door trying to work up the courage to knock before talking myself out of it. I think I just convinced myself that the outage had freaked you out badly enough that you needed the extra light to get to sleep."
Once the giggles started to lessen, the smiles on their faces did so as well, softening to something warmer and infinitely more cozy. "I almost kissed you, you know," Ashley confessed shyly. "Back at your grad party."
"Yeah, I-I almost kissed you too. And, just so you know, I wasn't lying then. The flowers looked really really good on you."Â
"That's good to hear," she admits as she leans in closer, her lips brushing his so lightly it's almost a caress, "I kept them, after all."
Nothing more is said as Chris closes the distance between them again to kiss her, and even though she knows that they really should get back downstairs, she doesn't try to stop it.
They have a long six years to make up for after all.
#my writing#pride month prompt challenge#until dawn#chris hartley#ashley brown#josh washington#chrashley#ignore the weirdly long and frankly unimaginative titles so far#i throw these into an ao3 and tumblr draft at like 2am to post the next morning#so my brain isn't exactly what i would call imaginative lol#or working in general asjkdhasdh#and yes it possible to break your finger in such a way that you need a full on arm cast for it to heal#i would know
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Roofie, Ch 6- The Truth
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<<Ch 1 Â Ch 2 Â Ch 3 Â Ch 4Â Â <Ch 5Â Â Chapter 6Â Â Ch 7>Â (Should I write an epilogue? (unwritten)
So, It has been almost 2 years since I updated this fic. I'm sorry. I've been having a hard time and inspiration, motivation and time to write are 3 things that never seem to hit me even 2 at a time, never mind 3.
Hope you enjoy! I'm unsure whether just to end this here or to add an epilogue to this. Suggestions welcome.
The Truth
She stared. The panic had set in and she had absolutely no idea how to answer him. Should she admit she remembered? Should she claim ignorance? What if she said she remembered but played it off as a drunk kiss that didnât mean anything? That drunk her just latched onto people or-
âUm,â she squeaked, her face burning.
âS-So you do remember then?â he said, his blush-stained face an otherwise completely blank mask which gave nothing away for her to decipher.
She flung her face forward, burying it in her sleeved hands as the rush of blood took over her face. âArgh, Iâm so embarrassed!â she mumbled.
Adrien gave a stilted chuckle. Of course, she was embarrassed, he was positively dying of mortification and he hadnât even said anything cringe worthy. Yet.
âOh, join the club,â he said with a surprising amount of calm. He was still blushing, but somehow seeing Marinetteâs reaction was calming. There was literally no way to make enough of a fool of himself to out-embarrass her right now.
He moved over to the chaise and slumped down in the space next to her as she glanced up through her fingers in shock at his relaxed appearance. âDo you remember everything, orâŚ?â he trailed off - not wanting to give her any ideas, lest she use them as excuses to deny anything.
With a huge exhale, her hands swept up her face and back into her loose hair, gently dragging through and ruffling the damp locks as she tried to get a handle on herself. Sheâd unintentionally disrupted her parting in the process and Adrien restrained himself from reaching over and delicately lifting at the strands to correct it. Instead, he focused on her hands as they returned to her sleeves, disappearing inside the protection of the oversized sweatshirt.
âIâŚremember Phillipe got me a drink.â She bit her lip and refused to look at him. âAfter that it all gets a bit, uh, confusing.â
Frowning âpartly because hearing that name pissed him off to a ridiculous degree, but mostly out of sheer frustration at Marinetteâs evasiveness â he reached out and took one of her hidden hands in his. Tenderly, he slid the soft fabric up her arm slightly to reveal her hand, his own gently clasping her dainty wrist. He felt genuinely torn. He wanted to know what she remembered so he knew the right questions to ask to clarify his own confusion, but he also didnât like the idea of Marinette feeling awkward and uneasy. He sighed.
âI wonât insist on the truth,â he said, putting her feelings before his own, âIâd rather you told me whatever makes you comfortable instead.â
He watched as her eyes bored a hole into the spot their skin met for a moment before shyly drifting up to meet his own gaze. She took a deep breath before she spoke, but she held that contact between them, even when her voice trembled slightly.
âThat puts me in a tight spot. Thereâs nothing I can really say because the truthâŚwell, you know. And lying makes me very uncomfortable.â
âThen please, just tell me what you remember,â he asked her, âHonestly.â
She trembled, but seemed to force herself to hold his gaze. âI know I left the ballroom after that. I spoke to someone, but I canât actually remember who, or what I said. But I know IâŚâ
When she trailed off, he gently ran his thumb across the underside of her wrist as a silent encouragement and she closed her eyes and swallowed audibly before continuing.
âI know I kissed them. Him. Timeâs a little fuzzy so I donât remember getting from that to being in the car. But I know I was in the car with him. He wouldnât let me kiss him, but I was pretty persistent.â She gave a humourless laugh of sorts. âI donât remember getting out of the car or anything after that.â
Adrien was shocked at just how badly his chest hurt at her admissions, his fatherâs earlier revelations about Marinetteâs feelings seeming to fade into the back of his mind as his own pain and anxieties took precedence. She remembered enough about the night to have a general idea of what had happened, but she didnât remember that it had been him with her the whole time. In a way, he felt like it made the whole thing worse. If she hadnât recalled any of last night, then that was easily written off as the drug wiping her mental timeline clear. But for her to remember so much, but have him edited out of those memories? It almost felt likeâŚlike he wasnât important enough?
âSo, you donât know whoâŚâ
âJust because I donât remember doesnât mean itâs not obvious who it was,â she said, her eyes opening once again and piercing him with an intensely vulnerable stare, âMy parents told me you brought me home, Adrien. And Iâm pretty sureâŚno, I know thereâs only one person I would have tried to kiss.â
He was suffocating. He may as well have been at the bottom of the Marina Trench or out in the vast vacuum of space for all the oxygen he seemed to be able to capture once the words left her mouth, and it was painful, yes, but also exhilarating.
She was admitting that she knew she had kissed him, but she was also confessing that what she had said to him last night, and what his father had told him today were true.
She loved him. She loved him. She loved him.
And suddenly the air was rushing back into his lungs in much the same way the adrenaline in his body raced to make him speak, to act, to do...something.
Have you really been in love with me for years?â he breathed, afraid of his own voice in case the sound broke the spell they both seemed to be under as their eyes stayed fixed to one another.
She squeaked, but she didnât pull away or take her eyes from him and he counted that as a victory.
âDid I tell you that?â she asked in the same soft tone, her free hand coming up to her face to cover her mouth.
He nodded, breaking into a smile as the atmosphere shifted into something significantly more comfortable than before. âYeah, but I wasnât sure if you meant it or if it was just what had happened messing you up. My dad was the one who had to convince me, actually.â
This time, Marinette did take back her hand, bringing it up to join its twin in pressing against her face as her eyes bulged in horror. âYour dad!?â she shrieked, âYour dad knows?â
He tried, he really did, but he couldnât hold back the laughter that bubbled from his chest at her reaction and he howled all the louder when she looked adorably offended by it.
âLook,â he said once he had calmed down a little, âas much as my dad used to act like he didnât have a clue that he was upsetting people, it turns out heâs ridiculously good at reading people. He says heâs known you liked me since we were fourteen.â
âOh my God!â Her pitch was getting louder the more she spoke and given the increased range that came with being the Black Cat Miraculous user for so long, he suspected she might start to hurt his delicate ears soon if he didnât distract her somehow.
âHeâŚhe brought some other stuff to my attention as well.â He scratched at the back of his neck nervously, his blush returning stronger than ever. âAnd, well, it totally threw me at first because I didnât really believe him, you know? ButâŚit makes a lot of sense now. And I guess when I think about how Iâve reacted to things in the past-â
âAdrien,â Marinette interrupted his ramblings, âCan I have a map to this conversation, please?â
He mock glared at her. âAs if youâre one to talk. You used to stammer nonsense at me all the time when we were younger.â
âAnd now you understand my reasoning. Whatâs your excuse?â She finished by crossing her arms and facing him and sitting up straighter than before, a smug look on her face. Her gaze faltered as he suddenly seemed extremely interested in her ceiling light. Or her floor. Or really anywhere but her. âAdrien?â she asked hesitantly.
Gulping in more of that sweet air that had evaded him not so long ago and which threatened to do so again, Adrien looked at her once again, reaching out a tentative hand to take her own. He intertwined their fingers as Marinette watched, transfixed and used his other hand to cup her face. The contact made her flinch in surprise for a moment, but she quickly regained her senses and slid her own free hand into his hair as he closed the gap between them.
He was sure her lips had only barely brushed against his before she started to pull back abruptly ânerves and overthinking, he assumedâ and he took the risk to chase after them, promising himself that he would only chase so far so as not to encroach on her own comfort. He was incredibly relieved when she stopped retreating, her whole body relaxing and melting into his touch.
The kiss wasnât like they were often described in fiction, he found. Her lips didnât taste of anything he recognised, and it didnât feel like she was something he was physically missing, and that he needed to complete him. But it was sweet and gentle, and he was sure heâd never been more content than he was right now.
He pulled back enough to press his forehead to hers, his lids blinking open to see her own doing the same, a simple smile resting on her lips now. He found himself smiling in a way that echoed her own.
âI donât know if I love you,â he told her honestly, âBut I do know that I like you. A lot. Like, a whole lot.â He watched as her smile widened to a grin and she glanced down at their joined hands shyly. âBut,â he added, âI love the way I get all warm inside when I think about you telling me how you feel about me. Even if you were out of it.â
Marinette gave a light chuckle, gently squeezing his hand in her much smaller one as she looked up at him again. Her eyes were full of that warmth and adoration heâd been overlooking all this time and his chest swelled with affection for her.
âThen I guess, now that Iâm sober, I better tell you again,â she said with a smirk. She leant up and pressed a quick peck to his lips before she continued.
âI love you Adrien.â
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Hey hey hey welcome to Part 3 of Miraculous Leap (Part 1). Part 2 is 5 Minutes
Ending this year with Lukanette again! Hoping it brings good tidings for 2021 (better than 2020 that's for sure)! Happy New Year!
FYI: Dewey = Dominic :)
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Ladybug brushed away her tears and smiled back up at Viperion. "Okay," she said shakily, nodding to indicate that she understood. "Okay."
They were in the past, or at least they were currently occupying their past selves. Hmm, how long ago was this? Ladybug looked back down at her suit and it was that ridiculous basic-ass red and black polka dot version. She didn't even have her wings. Okay, that narrowed it down to⌠younger than 16?
Ugh, that sucked. No one in their right mind would ever want to repeat their awkward teenage years over again, but⌠as much as she loved Dewey and wanted him with her at least right now she wasn't feeling like she'd swallowed a basketball. And she currently didn't have any back pain, which was a bonus.
Tikki, I need my wings, Ladybug thought at Tikki.
Tikki sounded a little startled to be pinged directly like she just was. Oh⌠um⌠Okay, Marinette!
She suddenly felt herself being wrenched away from Luka by another person before her wings fully manifested. "H-Hey!" She yelled out.
Chat had pulled her behind him and was aiming his baton at Viperion. "Don't touch her, you jerk! What did you do?! Why'd you make her cry?!"
"Chat⌠wh-what?" Ladybug sputtered. She heard Viperion growling under his breath.
"Are you okay, Milady?" Chat called out over his shoulder. Oh God, not this phase. She saw Luka clench his jaw and fold his arms but otherwise he was remaining still. Luka was pissed at the way she was being handled but he knew better than to step in and make things worse⌠Though Marinette knew he had a limit.
Ladybug sighed. "Chat, I'm fine!" Of course Chat wasn't standing down.
"Here's what's going on," Viperion said, sounding clipped. "This akuma controls time. Its power is to swap someone from a different time period in their life to here. Long story short the Ladybug and Viperion here now are from the future. I'm from the future. She's from the future. We're from the same future, since your LB and Viperion got hit with the same blast. We'd both been⌠taking care of someone, and it was terrifying that he wasn't here with us."
Chat was taken aback and reacted like he'd just been slapped. "Who⌠Both of� No, nevermind. You guys⌠don't look like you're from the future," he said suspiciously.
Viperion took a deep inhale and long exhale in annoyance. "It was a mental swap. Sorry. Should have clarified." Thank God her husband had the patience he did. But oh shit--
"V! 7 o'clock!" Ladybug yelled out, pushing Chat out of her way. Ladybug wasn't 100% certain Viperion had access to all of his abilities so she had started to get her yoyo shield ready. Viperion turned in the direction she specified and caught the blast before it landed, reversing time itself and pushing the blast back to its origin. Okay, that question answered. Viperion had what he needed.
"Wow! What was that?!" Chat cried out in astonishment. "Oh holy crud, Ladybug, you--you can fly?!"
"Chat! Focus! We need to take care of this akuma!" Ladybug called out. The sooner they finish, the sooner she and Luka can get back to⌠She snorted to herself. What an awkward time for her past self to end up in.
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(Back in the futureâŚ)
"I can't believe we have 5 kids," Marinette started laughing. It⌠oddly didn't bother her all that much. After all, with a certain someone she had imagined having up to 3. 5⌠was⌠well, definitely way less believable, but it didn't bother her.
Luka looked a little embarrassed and took a drink of his water. He just shrugged and sat down on the floor next to Marinette, pressing his back up against the edge of the bed. "I didn't have a plan for anything," he said sheepishly. "Just me and my guitar for⌠ever, I guess."
Marinette blinked in surprise. "You never planned to ask me out?"
"Didn't seem like you'd be interested," he said, raising an eyebrow at her question. "I don't mean for this to sound bad but⌠I don't know how we gotâŚ" He gestured at the room. "Here."
It's 'cause he thinks you're in love with Adrien, duh, Marinette chided herself. But⌠but was she⌠really?
"Wait⌠where are⌠the kids?" Luka asked.
"With my parents," Marinette answered. "Seems like they all go over pretty regularly," she said, showing Luka her calendar. Every 2 weekends she had an event called "Kids @ T/S," with the alternate weekends being labeled "Kids w/Granarka." Well, that was extremely nice of their parents to take on⌠"We must like these kids if we wanted 5 of them," Marinette mumbled to herself. She opened up her phone's photos and looked through the albums.
She noticed that Luka had leaned in a little to look over her shoulder. "Sorry," he said, pulling back.
"No, they're⌠yours too," she laughed. She angled the phone so the both of them could see.
"Harmony" was the oldest at 9, the most recent video had her playing a yellow electric guitar and singing on stage by herself at what looked like a small cafĂŠ. There were so many pictures and videos of her at these showings, and in a number of them it looked like future Luka was just offstage cheering her on.
"Melody" was second oldest at 6, and it seemed like she was a little copy of Marinette herself. Marinette couldn't help but smile down at the photos of her future second daughter dressing up and posing in various costumes and placing scrap fabric pieces together on the floor in make-believe designs. Apparently Marinette would have a protĂŠgĂŠ to call her own.
"Hugo & Louis" were the twin boys, still toddlers at 3. They always had silly faces on in all the pictures Marinette and Luka scanned. She had a video of future Luka tossing both boys into a ball pit and them giggling like maniacs, enjoying the airtime and landing in an explosion of brightly colored plastic balls.
And finally, "Dominic" was an album full of sonograms. Marinette patted her stomach. "Well, hello Dominic," she said. "I wish we met under better circumstances. I hope you're alright."
There had been another album labeled "Us" that Marinette scrolled through. Stills of future Marinette and future Luka together at award shows or at fashion events. Selfie videos of them sending jokes to one another. Pictures of future Luka working in his studio or playing his guitar or hanging out with friends.
Future Marinette adored him. Every picture had him smiling back or pleasantly surprised.
One selfie from several months ago had him with his arms wrapped around her from behind, leaning down to kiss her shoulder as she held up 3 different positive pregnancy test results in front of the bathroom mirror. Future them looked so happy.
Suddenly an awful, sinking feeling hit Marinette.
"We're not going to remember this," she said to Luka, and it was something like anguish that made her voice sound so raw. "Probably? Sometimes no one remembers what happened when the Miraculous Ladybugs reset everythingâŚ" She saw his eyes widen. "I don't⌠This⌠I-I⌠I want to remember this!"
His eyes widened further in surprise as both eyebrows went up. "You do?"
"Yeah! I mean, look at us! We're so⌠so⌠Wait⌠do you want⌠all this?"
Luka looked somewhat incredulous. "You remember I had zero plans, right? I didn't think about dating or marriage or kids." Marinette felt like a balloon (pregnancy aside) that just got punctured. For some reason her heart ached. "I mean⌠I never figured I'd get anywhere with you past being your friend. I didn't think you liked me that way at all. This? All this," he pointed at the pictures, "wasn't even a possibility." He closed his eyes.
Marinette wasn't sure what to say.
"Wasn't before," he said quietly, after a few moments. He started staring off into the distance. "Now? Do I want this?" He dropped his gaze to his left ring finger, then back up at her. "Yeah. Yes. But I don't want you to start liking me because of this. Futures aren't ever set in stone." He stared back off into space. "Honestly I want us to forget this. It's nice. Really nice. And maybe it won't happen. It'd hurt a lot to know what I missed out on."
Oh. Oh no. She'd been doing the Chat thing where she was barreling toward a specific outcome without thinking about the process or journey. Luka was right. Maybe it wouldn't happen. Not without her taking honest stock of her feelings first.
Did she want⌠him?
"It's supposed to lift you up and make you feel stronger." Chat had done that for her once. Then recently it'd been more like "Don't focus on the bad stuff." That didn't stop the bad stuff from existing.
Adrien had done that for her when he said she was the "Everyday Ladybug." And then it felt that no matter what she did he kept getting further and further away. And Adrien hadn't reached back out for her to help close the distance.
"Sorry," Luka said, breaking her out of her thoughts. "Guess I'm just⌠worried."
Marinette looked at him. "No, you're right. It would be unfair if all I wanted was the result." She paused for a few seconds to think her words through.
"I'm not going to start liking you because we got to experience this future," Marinette began again. "I don't even know when it really started. I just know I already do. You've never made me feel like I was wrong. You've never made me doubt myself. You've never made me think for one second I'd have to watch the things I say and the things I do or pretend to be friends with the people who've hurt me. You've always let me be who I am."
He had turned to look at her, worry and concern etched in the furrows of his brows. But the edges had softened as she talked.
Marinette smiled shyly. "I know it's not going to be easy⌠and it's something we'll have to keep working on⌠but I'd like to find out how far we can go together." She held out her hand to him, palm up. "I want⌠us. An us⌠whatever it looks like in the end."
Luka searched her face for a few heartbeats and took a breath, seemingly content with whatever he found. He gave her a lopsided smile. "I want that too." He reached out and took her hand.
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(The "past")
"Miracu--!" Ladybug was getting ready to launch her Lucky Charm up in the air when Chat stopped her.
"Wait! Wait wait wait. Please. Can⌠can I talk with you⌠in private? For a little bit, Milady?" Chat looked down at her pleading with his most pathetic looking kitten eyes and Ladybug sighed. She glanced back at Viperion, who cocked his head a tiny bit to the side and smiled.
Like Luka was shrugging a What can you do?
Marinette winked back a Won't take long, handed Viperion the Lucky Charm, and turned back to Chat. "Alright. The rules are I'm not going to tell you any details but we can talk."
Chat jumped over to another rooftop and down into the alley below, putting a few buildings between him and Viperion. Ladybug followed behind him, floating down with her wings. Chat leaned his back against the brick wall and folded his arms. "Did⌠I ever have a chance with you?"
Huh. Okay. Chat was more observant than she remembered him being at 15. "Hmm, yes," Ladybug answered. She knew who he was, after all.
"Then⌠I guess I screwed up," Chat said miserably. "I always thought we were made for each other, you know?"
"We might have been once," Ladybug said gently. "But we both grew up, Chat. Neither of us screwed up at all."
Chat furrowed his brows at that. "Is there anything I can do now to change?"
"You wouldn't be you, Chat." She walked over to him and pulled him into a hug, leaving a hand on his shoulder after stepping back. "I know it's not what you thought you wanted, but your future will still be amazing."
"Are⌠you happy?"
Ladybug had a serene smile, glancing back in Viperion's general direction with her hands now over her heart. "I am."
Chat stared at her for a bit. Something about the quiet conviction she had was more⌠meaningful than if she'd been animated about saying it.
There was nothing to prove to anyone. It was just the truth.
Chat sighed audibly. "Okay, Ladybug. Thanks," he gave her a small smile. "Sorry. You need to get back home, right?" Ladybug nodded. "Then let's get going!"
Moments later Ladybug and Chat Noir landed together in front of Viperion, who handed the Lucky Charm back to her. She threw it high into the sky and said "Miraculous Ladybugs!"
Ladybug reached out her hand and Viperion took it in his. They smiled at each other when the waves of ladybugs passed over them.
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Ladybug blinked a few times, her brain a little foggy after being hit with that blast. She'd been trying to save Viperion from the akuma's attack⌠She must have been a little too slow. Wait, where were they? And Viperion was in front of her now, and he looked⌠okay?
He was staring down at something. When she looked in the same direction she saw that they were holding hands. A small part of her panicked and wanted to pull away, but⌠an overwhelmingly larger part of her⌠liked it? Viperion hadn't pulled away either. So she⌠didn't pull away.
"Welcome back, Viperbug," Chat laughed, his baton across his shoulders with his hands on either end.
"What⌠happened?" Ladybug asked, her cheeks slightly pinking as she kept a hold of Viperion. It just felt⌠kinda nice.
"There was something about the future," Viperion said, still staring down at their linked hands. "I feel like there was something important, but⌠I can't seem to remember."
"Yeah, you guys got hit by the akuma but we still managed to take care of it. Paris is safe again," Chat smiled. "I'm heading out. See you guys later!" he yelled out, leaping away after saluting.
Huh. It felt like Chat wanted to leave faster than usual. He didn't even stop for their typical "Bien JouĂŠ!"
"⌠I guess we're done here? Alright, I'll drop you back off at home," Ladybug said to Viperion.
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(One day later)
"Hey Marinette," Luka said from behind her. Marinette yelped and windmilled forward, nearly falling over but quickly got back to her feet and spun on her heels to face him. "⌠Are you looking for Juleka?" He had a smile on his face⌠one part amusement by her antics and another part joy in seeing her.
She'd come onboard the Liberty and stood on the deck⌠there wasn't any real reason why, she just kinda⌠showed up. "Ah haha, um, no, no I a-actually⌠I was just um! Looking around! Yeah! The-The stage!" Oh God why did she say that.
Luka rolled with it, even though Marinette was certain he knew she just made that up. "Sure, feel free. It's good to see you."
"Too! It's you! I mean it's good to you! See you. Too," she laughed nervously. He moved around her and set his backpack down against the atrium couch. She slapped both hands to her face and cringed when she thought he wasn't looking at her. Auuugh.
"I'm gonna get a snack. Do you want anything?"
She jumped again, hiding her hands behind her back. "Oh! S-sure, thanks, that's great."
"Cool, do you want to follow me down and let me know what you'd like?" She nodded and went to the main cabin with him. She sat down at the kitchen counter bar and asked for juice, sipping it nervously when he sat in the seat next to her.
"I⌠I actually just wanted to talk with you," she said. "You⌠said I can just be myself around you." It had been hard to look at him so she just stared at her glass, feeling self conscious.
"Yeah, always," he said easily. He'd gotten some yogurt for himself, but he hadn't opened it up yet. "What do you want to talk about?"
"I⌠There was⌠You knowâŚ" she started, sighing when she couldn't get the words she wanted out. "I'm not sure how to say it but⌠have you ever gotten the sense that you⌠missed something really important? Like you got caught up in something⌠silly and there was this really cool person you passed by 'cause you were distracted." She finally looked up at him.
"If they're still around you still have a chance to say hi," he smiled at her. "People are pretty chill, and I'm sure they'd love to talk with you." He opened up his yogurt and took a spoonful.
Marinette was pretty sure she was blushing. "Y-Yeah, he's pretty chill. Soooo. Hah, um. Hi."
With the spoon in his mouth he got out a "Hmm?"
"Wanna⌠see a movie?" She should clarify. "J-Just us! No group!" She should further clarify. "A date! It's a date! I'm asking!"
He swallowed too fast and started coughing. At least he hadn't swallowed the spoon. "Ah," he laughed after recovering. "That sounds great, butâŚ" Marinette's heart jumped into her throat. "I wanna make sure you're⌠sure," he said awkwardly. "Sure you're not⌠missing out on what you really want," he added, blushing a bit himself.
"Th-That's why⌠I'm asking," she said shyly. "I-I think⌠What I really want is⌠something new. Someone that helps make me better, you know? Makes me happy too. And⌠I've been thinking about you."
"Me," he said, sounding a little surprised.
Marinette nodded. "Are⌠are you⌠interested?"
He took her hand in his. "Yeah. Definitely."
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Dear Diary
song 1: dear diary | Â good & bad masterlist | prev | next
Pairing: sakusa x reader
Summary/warnings: life has been kicking your ass yet you donât want to tell sakusa/profanity
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âHowâve you been,â you paused debating on answering honestly or not. Switching your phone to speaker, you fiddled with the covers resting beneath your fingers before sighing out. âI miss you Yoomi.â A silence comes settled through the phone line. âHow are you doing?â The insistence of your well being causes another sigh to escape your lips. Of course he could tell that something was off even through the phone and a part of you curses his observational skills. âIm just--really fucking stressed,â you mutter out reluctantly.Â
âHave you been taking care of yourself? Eating real meals and getting proper sleep?â The questions being rattled off on the other side of the phone causes you to crack a small smile at his concern. You could only imagine the furrow in his brows at the thought of a lack of concern for your own health. You almost miss the ending of the questions as he tells you not to lie to him. Your silence causes Sakusa to sigh on the line.Â
âSometimes I hate how much you really know me.â You voice the thoughts that had previously been in your head. Sakusa could hear the slightest of background noise as you maneuver yourself under the warm comforter and shifted to get comfortable. âDo you need me to come home.â The words arenât phrased as a question, and that causes you to quickly shake your head despite the fact that he couldn't see that.
âNo-no. Yoomi, it's fine. I just- I just need to get my mind right and relax. I just needed to hear your voice tonight, that's all.â You tell him, despite wanting nothing more than for him to be back with you.Heâd been on the road for the last month, a series of away games and such. And right before he left, youâd been out of town on a major business trip. It seemed as if time nor luck were your friend. Itâd been at least a month and a half since the two of you were anywhere near one another. Heâd still be gone another month and all either of you could do was wait it out.Â
The silence that followed your response was telling. You could already imagine the way Sakusa has his eyes narrowed in thought. Thinking about whether he should push for your well being or let it go for now. The quietest sigh escaped his mouth from the other side of the phone. Heâd made his decision. âI miss you too. Iâll be home soon.âÂ
Life after that phone call seemed to grow progressively worse. Not only had you and Sakusa not been able to squeeze in another talk in the following week, but life sucked. Your job has been giving you more and more responsibility, and allowing you more freedom. On one hand that was great, a celebratory text sent to your boyfriend at the talks of you in for a promotion, however it was tiring. You were coming home later and later, exhausted and starting to neglect your own health.
Itâs not you were intentional in the neglect. It just felt too damn hard to come home after a long day and cook a healthy and fulfilling meal. When you were home you were suddenly reminded of just how empty the apartment was without Sakusa. Dust that was normally absent due to his cleanliness began to appear. Dishes piled up more than he would have liked. Whenever you did bother to straighten up at least for his sake, it drained you.Â
Adulthood was really kicking your ass and it came to a head one night when you woke up sweating. As if life couldnât drag you down even more, your AC had gone out right during the hottest part of the summer. Come morning you found out that your landlord had gone on vacation and could not and would not be able to fix the unit for at least a week.Â
So youâd done what you usually did. Sucked it up and forced yourself to push through. Not a word of your woes to Sakusa who had more important matters to attend to other than your slump. You went to work, exhausted yourself there and dragged your feet into the dreaded heat of your apartment.Â
Upon entering you were automatically hit with a wave of heat, making your already sluggish steps heavier. Kicking your shoes off you offhandedly waved hello to the person seated on the couch before dragging yourself towards the kitchen like it was completely normal. A moment later you stopped in your tracks. âYoomi?â
The slightest nod from your boyfriend caused you to blink in surprise before launching yourself into his arms. âWhat are you doing here,â you muttered as his hands ran up and down your back. Pulling away slightly you eyed him. He looked tired. Eyes unusually sunken and you noticed the tiniest sheen of sweat across his forehead. You went to pull away knowing the touch paired with the heat would likely make him uncomfortable. To your surprise, the hands wrapped around your middle didnât make any moves to release you. âYou needed me so I came home.â
You felt a squeeze in your heart as your arms tightened wrapped around his shoulders. âBut I didn't say anythingââ
âYour voice. On the other week. And then your texts were different.â Of course he noticed. The conversation had already signaled to him that you werenât the best. Your shaky exhales as you insisted that you were fine and that he didnât need to come home. Then he noticed the jokes within your texts began to slowly subside. Youâd also found yourself saying that you missed him more than usual. âSo you came back?â
âI have a 3 day weekend this week. Then Iâm back to practicing.â You nodded in understanding the two of you releasing one another and you noticed Sakusa frown. âWhyâs it hot?â You explained about the broken AC and about the suffering youâve endured for the past 2 days. âDid you get any more fans?â He looked annoyed once you denied purchasing any additional appliances knowing heâd had to get that done for you. âYou know youâre more susceptible to nosebleeds in the heat right?â
âThank you Dr. Omi,â you teased, laughing at his scowl from the nickname. The two of you settled onto the couch, your head coming to rest on his shoulder. âItâs common knowledge.â His replies allow a lightness to settle in your heart. One you hadnât felt in weeks. The two of you settle into a silence for a little while his hand rubbing soft circles on your knee. âYou need to take better care of yourself. And tell me when you need me.â
âI didn't want to take you away from your busy schedule,â you hum out. You feel the movement against your knee stop, a former grip replacing it. âI don't care how busy I am, Iâm here. Now stop being annoying and tell me things.â You feel yourself jokingly roll your eyes before agreeing. However that wasnât enough as you heard the scoff from next to you.Â
âIâm serious. You remember what you told me back in collegeâ
âPretty sure I told you a lot of things back then,â you tease, taking his closest hand and interlocking your fingers. âYou believed in me,â he started catching your eyes. âTold me you always knew there was no limit to me. That means I can handle it. Donât feel like youâre annoying me.â Your eyes widened at how he remembered that very specific moment.Â
It was around 4 years ago. Heâd just told you that he signed to MSBY, something everyone around him was dying to know. Yet you were the first person he told. He remembered how your eyes beamed as you sat on his lap, your phone camera in his face recording the moment for memories sake. He didnât even bother swatting it away like he usually did. Heâd allowed you to place messy kisses all across his face despite the feel of your tacky chapstick. âWhy do you remember that,â you questioned a soft smile gracing your own features.Â
You notice the shrug of his shoulders as he helped to to sit you sideways into his lap. âDoesnât matter. Now tell me whatâs wrong. And then weâre going to get some fans.â You nodded leaning so that your lips met his for a soft kiss. âI really missed you,â you murmured into the kiss. And while he was only there for the weekend it was enough. He came home for you. The one who has loved and supported him with open arms for the past 5 years. Heâd be damned if he didnât try to make up for it.Â
So you told him everything on your mind. Laughing every time he scolded you for the little things. âDonât let the dust build up by the time I get back next month.â To âYou need to sleep more.â And in return you got the same. You got the story from the exhaustion laced in his eyes. The hours it took to get to you, and the germs he forced himself to sit through to make it happen. And despite the annoying heat in the apartment, neither of you have felt that good in a while.
a/n: wow i FINALLY got at least 2 consective songs in a row done so now my prev/next is relevant for at least 2 parts. This took a different route than I initially planned for, nor is it exact in its storytelling. It was also started 2 months ago and finished now bc it was kinda hard for me. Anyways hi um did you catch the no limit to you ref? bc yeah i love that and to date still my fav piece ive ever written. you dont have to read that to understand this but its 5.4k words if you have some spare time.
anyways: im about to be on an 8hr car ride so feel free to request stuff. rulesÂ
#haikyuu x reader#hq x reader#sakusa x reader#haikyuu imagines#haikyuu imagine#hq imagine#hq imagines#sakusa imagines
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Please For The Love of God Fall Asleep On Top of Me Again I Havenât Slept That Well Since I Was Five
Belphie x Reader *NOT MC. MC is referred to in the story as Emsie. Gender neutral pronouns for both Emsie and reader. Mentions of Beel. Yandere tendencies. This is pretty much just fluff. Word Count: 5.3k
âIf you were to all refer to the diagram on page 66, youâll see that the devil-plant cell has a rather large vacuole that makes up a large portion of the volume within the cell-â The teacher at the front of the classroom droned as you clutched your cheeks into your hand, fingers digging into your skin just to stay awake.
You have always been a light sleeper, and joining the Devildom exchange program hasn't done anything to help that. If anything, you went from an acceptable 6 hours a night to 4 and a half, mostly due to the overwhelming anxiety of being away from home and the fear that you will eventually be eaten alive while you took so much as a blissful nap. You didnât understand how the first humans to go through with the program survived.
At least, you didnât until you actually met them.
Solomon was a rare breed in and of himself, with overwhelming confidence and an air of superiority. Anyone having that many pacts must have an insane amount of charisma and motivation. He was definitely intimidating to a normal human like yourself.
Emsie, however, was a little different. They seemed like an average human, until someone delightfully informed you that they were descended from an angel. More specifically, an angel that was related to the seven demon brothers that they now stayed with, which made you a little wary when you noticed how⌠touchy the brothers were with them.
It wasnât the best situation - Â who in their right mind would want to stay in Hell of all places? Plus you really seemed to be the only human human here. But it wasnât any worse than it would have been up home. Honestly, you were doing this for the free tuition and scholarship, but you would never say that out loud. You really couldnât complain outright, though, since you did live in a beautifully large, ornate house with the demon brothers who were certainly great specimens. Lucifer was Godâs favorite and damn did it show.
âY/N?â You snap to attention as the teacher calls on you. âCan you tell the class how the devil-plant gets CO2 from the environment?â
You stared for a moment, hoping your brain unconsciously latched onto some information while you were spaced out. âThe stomata in the leaves?â You hope?
The teacherâs lips pulled back to reveal his sharp, jagged teeth in what you assumed was supposed to be a smile. âYes, good job!â
You understand that some cruelty is typical in the world, but by God you hated it here. Youâre too nice for this, dammit! You cried watching a video of lost puppies being rehabilitated! How were you expected to think this was normal?
When you have to participate in dance battles so that your opponents donât eat you, you know something isnât right.
When the bell rang, you stood with a rush of vertigo and started gathering your stuff to go to your next class. One more, then lunch, then two more, then home. Well, dorm. Well, house/mansion/hall⌠honestly, you didnât have a clue what to even call it.
You shared a room in the House of Lamentation with Emsie, which was both a blessing and a curse. For one, you didnât show any emotion around them, so the brothers donât necessarily hate you for stealing their dear Emsie away. But, you did still share a room with them, which made the brothers automatically disinterested in you. Especially the youngest brother, Belphegor, who had made many negative comments about your existence. Outloud. While you were there. Yeah.
It couldâve been worse, you guessed. They could have killed you.
Emsie explained to you once that he was still hurt by the loss of his sister, and how he spent years hating humanity as a whole until they moved into the house. Which only made you massively uncomfortable. And it only worsened when they informed you that he once strangled them in another timeline in front of them in this timeline. But that was before he knew they were a descendent of his sister! So it was fine, right?? A total accident really, he was different now!
(You were not convinced.)
You did have a few moments of solace with Belphegor, though, and you found yourself reminiscing with them on occasion. Okay, often. Okay, maybe more than often... But who cares? You were just evaluating your interactions to make sure he didnât have some underlying intention to throw you off the roof in the middle of the night. Yeah, that was it.
As you placed your clothing into your respective dresser (adorned with a glorious added padlock to deter a certain avatar of greed), you glanced into the mirror on the wall and jumped at the figure behind you. You turned to them, and came face to face with a demon. Â A very pissed off and disgruntled demon.
The look on his face only grew in distaste as you held each otherâs gaze. Even your breathing seemed to piss him off. And his words⌠conveyed the same message.
âAre you lost?â He asked, and his tone was just as cold as his eyes.
âUh, excuse me?â
His upper lip twitched in a snarl. âI asked you if you were lost. This is Emsieâs room, not yourâs.â His purple eyes bore tiny holes into your skull as you shifted nervously.
Grabbing the information packet Barbatos had prepared you guys with, you pulled out the room assignment form and held it out for him. From the safe distance of five feet away, of course. âUh, I donât know what you mean, but- here. This is my room assignment packet I had to sign when I got here.â He gave it a glance over and then turned his nose up at it, so you set it back down on the table. âI just got here today so- so I can understand the confusion. Um, especially since I didnât see you at orientation.â God, why did you have to stutter?
You watched as he scrunched his nose into a look of muted disgust at this revelation, but he didnât say anything. You both stood awkwardly in a tense silence long enough for you to know he wasnât planning on leaving any time soon.
You cleared your throat, and flinched when he locked eyes with you again. âUh, if you donât mind me asking, how did you get in here?â You asked, tucking your hair behind your ear in a nervous habit.
âI was asleep on the bed.â
You could only tilt your head in confusion at first. âYou what?â You asked, but when he only offered a raised eyebrow as a response your shoulders tensed and your face went red. âThe whole time?!â You sputtered.
He crossed his arms and leaned against the wall behind him. âYeah? I was taking a nap until you rudely interrupted me,â He cast a look at you with the deepest irritation that you had ever seen on a personâs face. Well- demonâs face. Actually, maybe it wasnât so surprising...
âI didnât know that you were- I mean you were really quiet and- how was I supposed to know-â You cut yourself off and wished to silently stop existing.
The demon ignored you as he moved to Emsieâs bed and began pulling the pillow and blanket off, slowly, while maintaining eye contact with you, and- oh okay yeah thatâs- thatâs terrifying.
He dragged the blanket along behind him as he headed for the door. You really needed to turn this around. âUh, hey wait! My names Y/N.â
He stopped before the door, unlocking it as he evaluated you from head to toe over his shoulder, and then left, jerking the door open and slamming it closed.
You later learned his name was Belphegor.
Unfortunately, your next class happened to be english (Devildom english. Which apparently is Australian.) with Belphegor and his twin, Beelzebub, who was actually quite sweet as long as you continually gave him food. Which you did, out of fear for your own life.
Belphegor called it âmanipulationâ, you called it âinnovationâ. Feed the gluttony demon, donât get eaten.
You politely greeted them as you sat in your seat and handed a grateful Beel a Kitkat bar that you ordered on Akuzon a few days ago when you couldnât sleep. Belphegor shot you a look as you did, so you pulled out another one and held it out to him. Belphagor rolled his eyes and turned his head towards the front of the class. You could see the smallest hint of a smile on his lips out of the corner of your eye.
You handed another candy bar to Beel, who excitedly thanked you again and ate the entire thing whole. Right in front of you. With the wrapper still on it.
You really needed a nap.
Entering the room you shared with Emsie was always a comforting experience. The both of you shared similar interests and decor, so it reminded you a lot of your room back home.
Emsie really was a sweet person, but you did not understand how they could deal with the demon brothers all day by themself. You liked to imagine that the rational part of their brain jumped ship sometime during their stay the year before and aided them in becoming comfortable in Devildom.
You flopped onto your bed face first, groaning as you wiggled your arm out from underneath you to check the time on your phone. Typically, the brothers and Emsie were busy with student counsel business until 5 and it was only 3 now, which gave you time to relax and, hopefully, take a nap, because you hadnât been sleeping well and you were exhausted.
That was the plan, until the door opened and Belphegor entered with his infamous blanket and pillow.
You flop to your side as you look at him incredulously. âCan I help you?â
âSure,â he said, âbe quiet.â He threw his pillow onto Emsieâs bed and unceremoniously kicked his shoes off while climbing under the covers.
You huffed and sat up, scowling at the lump of blankets on the other side of the room. âI was trying to sleep, you know.â
The blanket moved a bit to show his face, âWell, so am I.â
âYou- you canât just sleep in here!â
âEmsie said I could.â
You rubbed your eyes with the balls of your hand as you groaned, âThey said that last year. When they didnât have a roommate.â
The cocoon sat up, Belphegorâs very much pissed off face glaring at you. If you werenât in a spat with him and he werenât a raging, murderous meaniehead, you might consider him to be quite handsome. Alas, everyone has their limits to how awful a person could be to them. And Belphegor had crossed that line for you a while ago.
You pinched the bridge of your nose. âLook, man, I just want one nap.â
âThen sleep. I wonât bother you,â he said, lying his head on his pillow. Then, his eyes sharpened as his brows furrowed and his mouth was pulled into a frown. âOr, do you not trust me?â He questioned, but it was more like a statement.
Did it look like you ever trusted him? Or any of them, for that matter! How were you supposed to relax and get some sleep knowing you were constantly surrounded by demons who could end you in less than a second. Regardless- âThatâs not the point. I just have trouble sleeping in the same room as people.â
âPeople? Or bloodthirsty demons?â He sneered.
You rolled your eyes and scoffed. âYou know what? Fine. Do what you want.â Â You fell back on the bed and pulled the covers up over your head.
The springs of Emsieâs bed shifted as he laid back down. âI will.â
Belphegor fell asleep quickly, but you ended up staying awake until everyone else got back, and when Emsie came in they werenât shocked in the slightest that they had a surprise visitor. You excused yourself at their entrance, saying you needed to use the restroom.
As you passed them, you caught eyes with Belphegor, and noticed a distinctive glint of smugness in their purple hue.
Dick.
The next day, Belphegor joined you again during your prime nap time. And then the next day, too. And the next. After a couple days you figured out that he was doing it to mess with you. And drive you insane. Which was working.
After class, you had been stopped to discuss a project. You werenât sure the suggestions you made were coherent or usable. Eventually, they let you go, and you ambled back to the House of Lamentation. You were really looking forward to getting some sleep, because you hadnât slept more than four hours in the last five days and it was really starting to get to you.
When you walked into your room to find Belphegor splayed on your own bed, however, you knew that probably wasnât going to happen, and you were more than a little disgruntled at his presence.
âExcuse me? Can you kindly remove yourself?â You approached your side of the room and stared down at him, one hip cocked with your hand on it.
He hummed, his eyes closed as he lifted his hand to his chin to ponder your question. âNo,â he said finally.
Tomorrow, you were going to ask Luke how to kill a demon. âReally? You canât?â
Belphegor lazily opened his eyes to survey your demeanor. âYeah, I think Iâve lost the ability to move.â
âDo you need any help with that?â You asked, but upon hearing your own words you blushed red, hoping he didnât take that suggestively the way it sounded.
Belphegor huffed a laugh as he turned over in your bed, pulling your pillow over his head to block out the light and yourself. âNo, I think Iâm good for now.â
Your eye twitched. âAhha-ha. Great.â
You watched as he slowly drifted off to sleep, jealous that he even had the ability to do so after rest had alluded you for almost a week straight. Walking over to the dresser, you snatched a pair of pjs out of the drawer and hastily changed.
Now dressed comfortably, you returned to your spot standing over him, crossing your arms over your chest.
âBelphegor.â
No response.
âBelphegor,â you said a bit louder, with a bit more force. He hummed. âMove over.â
âMnnnnnnn, no.â
Throwing your arms down, you snarled out a particularly vicious âfine,â and climbed onto the bed over top of him, moving towards the wall side, which appeared to have the most room. He removed the pillow from his head to glare at your disturbance. âIf youâre not gonna move then youâre just gonna have to deal with me,â you snapped.
The two of you were sandwiched particularly close as you were only given a twin bed and you unabashedly owned 6 pillows. But it was too late to move now. Surely, he would give up eventually and leave.
Instead, you felt him turn onto his side and prop himself up to look at you. âThis is how you wanna play it?â
Your mother didnât raise a coward. âYeah.â
Belphegor ran his hand through his black and white hair as he let out a breathy laugh. âFine then.â
Before you could protest, he moved above you and wrapped his arms around your waist, sliding them up your back until they were against your shoulder blades. He then pushed his head into your chest and underneath your chin, his body situating itself between your legs. Then promptly falling asleep. On top of you.
Maybe this wasnât an exchange program. Maybe you somehow died and tricked yourself into thinking you were attending school because this was your punishment.
âIâm not your pillow?â
âY/N.â He grumbled against your collarbone, his mouth tickling you as it moved.
You brought one hand up to rest on his back. âUh, yeah?â
âGo to sleep.â
By the time that Emsie came back to the room, you had long since fallen asleep. Which was truly unfortunate, since neither of you could stop them from taking a picture and posting it to the House of Lamentation chat.
The next day, you got to your room before him and curled yourself into your pillows, hugging one to discourage Belphegor from making the same advances that he did yesterday. You hadnât slept last night at all after your nap with him and you were not conscious enough to deal with him before a couple hours of shut eye. You heard the door creak open and burrowed further into your covers.
Only to be pelted in the back of the head by his pillow.
âHey-!â You turned to get up, but you were immediately hindered by his arms wrapping around your waist once more as he haphazardly dragged you back into him. âOh no, you are NOT spooning me.â
Belphegor shoved his face into the back of your head, âToo late, youâre really soft.â
âI did not sign up for this.â Â
âMmhmm.â
âIâll get Lucifer.â
âSure you will.â
You relaxed into the bed even as you continued to protest. âI mean it,â you said, attempting to sound menacing.
âMmmkay,â He pulled his legs forward and tangled them with yours. âGood night.â
âItâs 2:48 in the afternoon.â
But he was already asleep. Your attempted struggles were useless, too, and you eventually joined him in dreamland after scrolling Devilgram for half an hour.
Spookle, How to express to someone the extent that their presence irritates and soothes you? Seriously, asking for a friend.
For the past two weeks you and Belphegor had been, for lack of a better description, napping and cuddling together.
And, while the two of you still bicker, especially when you go to scroll demontok, you had grown to rely on his presence in order to sleep. You went from a crazed, caffeine dependent loon to just caffeine dependent.
âHey, Belphegor, do you remember the name of the article that Azazel wanted us to read?â You sat crisscross on the edge of the bed with your laptop balanced on your legs, while a reluctant Belphegor sat at the head lazily scrolling through his phone.
âWasnât that an optional reading?â He raised an eyebrow at you.
âWell, yeah, but normally when teachers suggest something they do it âcause itâs gonna be on the exam.â You brought your hand up and fiddled with your earlobe, scrolling your school's website for the link. âBesides, I think that the influence of demons on the Australian language is really cool.â
He snorted. âYou would.â
You whipped a pillow at him, your cheeks flushing. âShut up.â
Belphegor caught it with ease and pulled it to his chest. âDo you have to do homework now?â
âWell, no, but I feel like I should. Besides, that means I can sleep more later,â You fumbled for your backpack and went to grab out your calculator.
He was quiet for a bit before he muttered, âLater?â
Looking at him quizzically, you nodded your head, âYeah?â
The two of you stared at each other for a bit and you couldnât help but feel like you had offended him in some way. You two platonically cuddled, right? Thereâs no way that heâd see you sleeping alone to be an act of betrayal, right? Itâs not like he was getting upset over you blowing off naptime.
Right?
He broke eye contact with you as he grabbed his pillow and got off the bed. âWhatever, I just remembered I had to be at that stupid student counsel meeting.â
âBelphegor, werenât you supposed to be at the meetings for the past few weeks?â You shut your laptop as you stood up and got in his face. âLol, itâs a little late now. Luciferâs been actively complaining to you every night during dinner.â
Belphegor went to step around you before you caught his wrist. He spoke in a low tone as he looked at you, his hair falling in his face and you had to stop yourself from adjusting it for him. âWhat is it, Y/N?â He frowned.
Yeah, what was it? Why were you so panicked to see him leave? âI, uh, donât you want to do homework with me? I mean, I can help you out?â
âNo, I think you can do it yourself. Iâll just get Beel to help me.â And with that, he pulled his arm from your grasp, marching towards the door and pausing in the doorway. âBesides,â he started, âI wouldn't want to spook you, with me being a demon and all.â
He noticed?
âDonât look so shocked. You avoid all of us like the plague. The only two places you could ever be found is here and the academy.â He looked over his shoulder at you, and you could feel the burning sensation from his gaze start in your stomach, blood rushing to your head as you felt your eyes begin to water.
Shaking your head, you felt the tears begin to leak down your cheeks, and you watch his expression turn from nonchalance, to shock, to⌠something you couldnât place in your growing rage. âWhat about you, huh? Donât you hate humans? I know what you did to this timelineâs Emsie. Thatâs not exactly saint-like.â
You watched as the color in his eyes began to darken, and for the first time in weeks you began to fear for your well-being. You caught your bottom lip between your teeth as you began to feel the panic welling up inside you, and your eyes must have conveyed it clearly, as Belphegor slammed the door open and left you there, on the verge of sobbing.
Really. What a dick.
God, why canât you sleep?
Youâve tried to, genuinely. You even acquired melatonin, Nyquil, Sleepy Time tea- hell, you went exercising with a somewhat angry Beel the other day! His rage at you over your⌠disagreement with his brother could not be quelled by any amount of chocolate and he certainly worked you well into the throes of death.
The worst part is that you are fairly certain that Belphegor knows. Each time you see him in class, you could swear that he has some smirk on his face, seemingly satisfied with the bags under your eyes and your disheveled appearance. His relaxed posture almost screams at you âhaha, so you do need me to sleep, donât you?â
During lunch you tended to sit with the other exchange student in the cafeteria hall and today was no different as you slammed your coffee onto the table and glared at your fellow humans for the nervous looks they gave you.
âUm, Y/N, weâve been meaning to ask this, but- uh- are you ok?â
âOh, I am just peachy thank you for asking,â You answered, grabbing your travel mug and taking a large gulp. Your hands shook with the sheer amount of caffeine you had consumed in the past twenty-four hours in order for you to keep yourself awake. âWhy are you wondering?â
âWell, itâs just⌠you donât look like youâve slept for a bit.â
You glared at them with dark eyes. âAstute observation.â
The group looked between themselves, sharing concerned expressions. âUh...do you want to talk about it?â
With that, you felt the same numbness as when you tried to fall asleep alone, your heart becoming heavier in your chest as you comprehended the question. Did you want to talk about it? What were you feeling? How could you properly convey your emotions? How you felt about Belphegor?
How did you feel about Belphegor?
You blankly stared at the mug in your hands for a solid minute and youâre sure that your friends probably thought you were crazy. âAre you fucking kidding me?â
They all stared at you, sharing glances with each other at your outburst. âUm-what?â
Before they could question you further, you put a hand up to stop them and shushed them when they tried to speak more. âShhh, no. Shush.â You put your hand down. âI am going to the nurseâs office, where I am kindly going to asphyxiate myself into the sweet release of death.â
âUm, maybe you shouldnât go by yourself, I can go with you-â
âNo,â you cut them off before they could continue, âI need to be alone for a bit.â
You stood up, grabbed your coffee, took one step, and promptly passed out.
On the bright side, you didnât have to walk all the way to the nurseâs office. Heck, if you look at it in a certain light, itâs almost like you fast traveled there.
Just donât think about the fact that someone definitely carried you there. Yup, donât think about it! You slam your pillow on your face in an attempt to smother your shame, but someone quickly pulls it away from you.
âY/N, please, donât do that.â
âOh! Hey, Emsie! How are you doing?â You sat up in the bed and made a poor attempt at fixing your appearance.
âIâm good⌠how are you?â They peer into your eyes, a temporary bond forming between the two of you, conveying concern that you really didnât want to see.
You looked away and chose to focus on the content of your surroundings over the context. âJust wondering which unfortunate soul had to do the honor of carrying my lifeless body here.â
âThat would be Mammon and Levi,â Emsie snickered into their hand. âYou shouldâve seen it, it was quite the spectacle.â
You laughed heartily, âPlease tell me someone got a video.â
They glanced awkwardly to the side. âWell, Asmo tried to, but, ah, was somewhat hindered.â
âOh? Lucifer?â You put a hand over your eyes. âHow embarrassing.â
There was a moment of silence as Emsie shifted on their feet. âY/N, are you and Belphegor-â
You sat up and flung the blanket off of yourself. Nope! Nope, not doing that today. âThanks, Emsie, for watching over me while I was here, it was really sweet of you. But you see I just remembered that I have to complete my essay on Danteâs Inferno for Azazel or he will probably kick me out of class tomorrow ahaha okay nice to see you bye!â
You snatch up your things and turn to them waving nervously as you try to make your escape, only for them to grab your hand and hold it to their chest. âY/N, you know Belphegor no longer hates humans, right?â
You could feel your throat closing as you tried to look anywhere but their eyes. Maybe he didnât hate humans anymore, but he did hate you. You really messed up.
You missed him. Â âOh, Emsie, you really are the descendent of an angel.â
Itâs not that you were afraid of him. You had actually become somewhat reliant on his presence as a whole. But the idea of admitting that you were wrong about him? That you had judged him based off of gossip? Thatâs what stopped you from apologizing.
Pacing outside of the twinsâ room, you considered the possible outcomes.
1. You confess youâre an idiot and he hates you.
2. You confess youâre an idiot and he mocks you.
3. You stand there petrified for a long time and start crying.
4. You leap out the window.
Youâre beginning to think that the last option is the best.
Slapping your cheeks with both of your hands, you force yourself to admit to any sense of defeat and knock before you could rethink it. However, it wasnât Belphegor who answered.
âBeel? Um, would Belphegor happen to be there?â You glanced anxiously at the demonâs face, twiddling with your fingers as you shifted back and forth.
âBelphie isnât here right now,â he responded gruffly.
You took a deep breath. âCould you maybe... tell me where he is?â
For what seemed like an eternity, Beel stared into your face, surveying your demeanor and eventually coming to the conclusion that you were worthy. Or something. It seemed cool regardless. âHeâs up in the attic.â
Your breath caught as you finally realized how close to confessing you were. Butterflies fluttered in your stomach. âHow would I get to the attic?â You have never heard of the attic.
âThe stairway is over there.â He gestured with his chin. âY/N?â
You sucked in a breath. âYeah?â
He had fire in his eyes when you looked at him. âDonât mess this up.â Was all he said. Then he closed the door and left you standing there, wondering just what in the world he meant by that.
Brushing off Beelâs words, you tentatively stepped away from the door and made your way to the stairway that Beel had indicated. Steeling yourself, you made your slow and steady ascent to the attic, eventually pushing open the door and crossing the threshold into the surprisingly small room. It was cozy.
To the right of the room, you could see Belphegor asleep on a pile of pillows. Strange, you thought, that a demon could look so angelic while asleep. You hesitantly sat next to him, but when he failed to respond, threw caution to the wind and pulled the same move on him that he had on you so long ago.
Straddling his thighs, you burrowed yourself into his chest, letting yourself become lax as you held him. You tensed when you felt his arms come around you, and he hummed as he was roused from sleep.
âI was wondering how long it would take for you to cave,â he said, pulling his head up from the pile of pillows and those violet eyes connected with yours for the first time in weeks.
You felt the corners of your lips pull down as tears built up in your eyes and you blinked them back roughly. âIâm sorry for-â
âNot trusting me?â He finished for you, hands beginning to play with the hem of your shirt at the bottom of your back.
You looked away as the first tear fell down your cheek. âYeah.â
âI knew.â Belphegor pulled you closer, moving his mouth to your ear as you comprehended his words.
âIf you knew that I was... uncomfortable with you, why would you-â
He quickly cut you off, âAt first, to tease you. Then,â he smiled, and you thought your heart was going to beat out of your chest as he shyly looked away. âI did like our naps,â he finished. He pulled his head back from yours. âEspecially when it lets me see your sleeping face.â
You could feel that same fear as when you two had first argued welling up within the confines of your stomach, creating a massive ball of tension. âExcuse me?â
âY/N. I really donât like it when you show others yourself when you are defenseless.â His arms moved from their locked position around you so that his hands could hold your face gently. âItâs something that belongs only to me.â
For a second, you didnât live in a world where you attended school with demons. âBelphegor-â
âIâd like it if you called me Belphie.â
You blushed heavily, âUm, Belphie, are you not mad at me?â
He shook his head.
You furrowed your brow as the dark circles beneath your eyes made themselves known.
âThen, why did you ignore me for so long?â
He hummed for a bit. âBecause I wanted you to realize you loved me.â
Heat grew from your stomach into your chest and you felt your breath stop as he brought his lips to yours. It was chaste, quick and barely there but it made your face heat up and your heart constrict painfully in your chest.
The tears in your eyes fell freely.
âI guess I really do love you, you jerk.â
Belphie grinned and kissed your forehead. âI know you do.â
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How are your creative juices going now? Inspired again? I love whenever you post so just mentally preparing myself for withdraw ahah /// No but seriously I do love your fics. I think you should write one where Jo suspects she is pregnant again soon after having their first child and has to tell Alex
Hi! So I really wasnât going to write anything. I was just going to thank you for your kinds words and attempt to write one of my ongoing stories but for some reason this prompt really got me inspired. So... I have have written a little something for you!
Canât Say Iâm Surprised
âWe have a problem!â
âWhat?â Meredith furrowed her brows as a frantic Jo dragged her into a supply closet. âWhat is going on?â
âI messed up, Mer. I messed up big time and I donât even know how Iâm gonna begin to tell Alex,â Jo paced back and forth between the racks full of bedpans, blankets, and betadine.
âJo, I need you to slow down if Iâm going to help you,â Meredith grabbed Jo by the shoulders, forcing her to stop pacing.
Jo let out a belabored sigh and looked down at the floor, âI messed up, Meredith. I knew I shouldnât but I wanted it so bad, I wanted him so bad that I didnât even stop to think of the consequences. The alcohol in my system didnât help either.â
Meredithâs eyes widened, âHold on. Jo, are you saying what I think youâre saying? Did you cheat on Alex?â
âWhat? No!â Jo exclaimed, a mildly offended expression on her face. âI would never cheat on Alex. Why would you even ask me that?â
âIâm sorry, but you have to understand what it sounded like from my end. You pulled me in here and started walking like a chicken with your head cut off talking about how you wanted someone so badly and didnât think of the consequences,â Meredith replied.
âYeah I see where you couldâve gotten the wrong idea from that,â Jo winced. âI didnât have sex with another man. The problem is that I had drunk sex with my husband.â
âIâm not following here. Why is that a problem?â a confused expression crossed Meredithâs face. âHeâs your husband, have all the sex you want.â
âNo, Meredith you donât get it,â Jo shook her head.
âObviously not.â
âI havenât been on any birth control since I had Max. I had an IUD that I got removed when we started trying. I never got it replaced. We started using condoms again, which we stopped using three months into our relationship, so weâre arenât exactly good at using them. And a few weeks ago, I had drunk sex with my husband. I wanted him so badly that I completely forgot,â Jo explained nervously.
Meredith gasped, âOh my God. Are you pregnant?â
âMaybe? I donât know,â Jo leaned against the wall and closed her eyes. âI have all the same symptoms I had with Max. Iâve been nauseous, I have weird food aversions and cravings, and Iâve been getting dizzy.â
âYou havenât take a test yet?â Meredith looked at Jo who shook her head. âWell then, weâll draw your blood right now and have the results within the hour.â
Meredith took Jo by the arm and led her out of the supply closet into and empty exam room, âOkay. I will be right back. Iâm going to get the stuff to draw your blood.â
A couple minutes later everything was done. Jo was putting pressure on the needle stick as she pulled it out and laid a bandaid on it. She let out a breath, âMer, what am I going to do? What if Iâm pregnant again? Itâs too soon. Max is only four months old. How do I tell my husband that weâre having another baby months after I gave birth to the first one? Weâre just starting to get used to a routine.â
âFirst of all, you need to calm down. Letâs not worry about anything until we have answers,â Meredith attempted ease Joâs worries. âAnd secondly, a baby is a good thing. You and Alex both want lots of kids, you know that. Yeah, it might be earlier than you expected, but he wonât be mad. So donât be scared about that. Heâll be ecstatic.â
âYeah. Youâre right. Heâs been trying to knock me up for years. Ever since my fourth year of residency. Heâll be happy,â Jo tried convincing herself that it would all be okay.
âCome on, letâs go. Weâre going to be late for rounds. The results should be in my the time weâre done and Iâll be with you when you find out,â Meredith rubbed a comforting hand on Joâs shoulders as they walked out into the hallway.
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Jo had just finished rounding on her last patient when she quite literally bumped into Alex. Alex held out his hands to steady her, âWoah, careful princess. Be glad you ran into me and not a patient.â
âSorry,â Jo offered. âIâm just... in a rush. You havenât seen Meredith have you?â
âNope,â Alex shook his head. He narrowed his eyes and looked at Jo for a moment. âAre you okay? You seem... distracted. Is everything alright?â
âYeah. Everythingâs fine,â Jo forced a smile on her face. âI do really need to find Meredith, though, so Iâm gonna go...â
âUh huh,â Alex nodded as his wife ran away awkwardly.
Jo ran off to the supply closet where she and Meredith first met that morning in hopes of finding her there. She waited for a couple minutes before Meredith ran through the doors with an envelope, âIâve got the results back from the lab. Do you want to do it or should I?â
âYou do it,â Jo released a nervous breath. âI donât think Iâll be able to open it.â
âOkay,â Meredith gave Jo a short nod and proceeded to open the envelope. She unfolded the paper and ran her eyes over the lab work with a blank expression on her face. Finally, Meredith looked up. âWell, Jo. You are most definitely pregnant.â
âHoly shit,â were the first words to leave Joâs lips. She clasped her hands over her mouth, gasping at what sheâd said. âI mean... actually, yes I mean holy shit. Iâm pregnant?â
âYup,â Meredith smiled sympathetically. âProbably somewhere around the 4-5 weeks range from your levels.â
âFreaking Karev and his weirdly fertile sperm,â Jo grumbled. âThis is the second time heâs knocked me up on the first try. Except this time, we werenât even actually trying.â
âI canât say Iâm surprised,â Meredith laughed. âHeâs been talking about all the kids you guys will have since you got married. Heâs very eager.â
âWell, if he keeps doing what heâs doing, at this rate weâll end up with like six kids,â Jo rubbed a hand on her forehead. âI need to lay down. But I have surgery in 30 minutes.â
âHow about you go take a nap in an on-call room and Iâll take your first surgery. I donât have anything scheduled until 2pm anyway and was going to see if I could scrub in with you,â Meredith suggested.
âThanks,â Jo nodded and made her way to an on-call room. Sheâd been sleeping for what mustâve been an hour when she heard the door creek open.
âOh, sorry. I didnât realize there was anyone in here,â the person apologized. âHold on... Jo is that you?â
Jo turned and came face to face with her husband. In his arms was their four month old son, âWhat the hell? Do you do this? Take him out of daycare during your free time to hang out in the on-call rooms?â
Alex looked like a kid whoâd just been caught with his hand in the cookie jar, âYeah... usually I walk around the peds wing with him strapped to my chest, but thereâs a clown going around and he doesnât deserve to be traumatized from such a young age.â
Jo busted out in laughter, âThat might just be the sweetest thing youâve ever said. You are the best dad.â
âThanks,â Alex said, a shy smile creeping onto his face. He never planned on telling Jo about his routine of taking Max out of daycare, but honestly, it felt good knowing that she thought what he did made him a better dad. âWhat are you doing here? I thought you had a surgery this morning?â
âOh... um, Meredith took it. I was feeling tired so she offered to take my surgery so I could lay down,â Jo explained.
âAre you sick?â Alex sat down next to Jo and placed a hand on her forehead.
âNo. I just... didnât sleep well last night,â Jo admitted.
âYeah I noticed,â Alex nodded. âYou were really restless all night long. You only get like that when youâre stressed. Whatâs bothering you?â
As much as Jo loved how attentive her husband was, this was one of those moments where she wished that heâd just turn a blind eye. Taking in the quiet of the on-call room and the calming sensation of holding her baby in her arms, Jo figured that there were worse places to disclose this information. She took a deep breath, âIâm pregnant.â
Alex raised his eyebrows and grinned, âI was wondering how long it would take you to figure it out.â
âWait... what?â Jo scrunched her face in confusion. âYou knew?â
âOf course I knew,â Alex scoffed. âI figured it out a week ago. I was trying to see how long it would take you to realize.â
Joâs jaw dropped in disbelief, âYou thought something was up and you didnât tell me!â
âI didnât want to freak you out,â Alex confessed. âMax is only four months old and we werenât planning on having another until he was at least two years old. So when you started having symptoms, I kept my mouth shut because I felt bad for knocking you up again so soon.â
âI was scared to tell you because I was afraid youâd freak out that I got pregnant not even six months after having the first one,â Jo laughed. âOh my God. Weâre having another baby.â
âWeâre having another baby,â Alex smiled widely and took Max into his hands. âYou hear that Max? Youâre gonna be a big brother pretty soon.â
âHe has no idea whatâs coming for him,â Jo chuckled. She reached out to stroke Maxâs hair and then leaned her head on Alexâs shoulder. âI love you. I know this wasnât supposed to happen so soon, but Iâm happy about it because I know that we can do this. We can do it together.â
âHell yeah we can,â Alex kissed Joâs forehead lightly. âAnd for the record, I love you more.â
#jolex#jolex fanfic#alex karev#jo karev#jo wilson#greys anatomy#jo x alex#grey's anatomy#greys fanfic#greys au#jolex fluff#jolex babies#jolex forever#meredith grey#Meredith x Jo#merjo friendship#accidental baby acquisition#unplanned pregnancy
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just for a moment - park jisung fanfic (part 1)
âContinuing to run you turn around with a huge smile across your face, locking eyes with the boy whos awestruck expression turns into a comforting smile. Somehow without even knowing each other's names you both felt as if you've managed to escape reality, like the two of you were the only people in the universe, a feeling so rare, a scene only in movies, an occurrence never forgotten and yet was just experienced by these two individuals, even if it was just for a moment.â
Park jisung x readerÂ
Word Count: 8731
Reading time: 1h 7m
Italics = thoughts
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Authors note: Since this a fanfic, therefore fiction, there story is set in your last year in highschool with the rest of the dream members who are all the same age. The school year will also be following the korean academic year system, just for some realism. I also made up a few characters with a korean name generator so please donât overthink! I will also be releasing this story 4 chapters at a time with 3 parts in total, making a total of 12 chapters #quickmaths. Apologies in advance if my uploads are slow or my grammar is awful. Make sure to like and comment any suggestions or thoughts, but try to be kind, itâs my first time writing a fanfic.Â
Enjoy reading~
March: March, although somewhat an afterthought or rather a shadow of winter, left with only itâs remains, it sets the groundwork for the rest of the year. March plants seeds that grow from mere sprouts to full grown plants during the course of the year.Â
Itâs early March, the month when the snow starts to thaw in preparation of the well anticipated season of spring. The feel of the winter air has managed to remain in Seoul, resented by the thousands of students forced to return back to school for the first semester. One of those poor unfortunate souls is you, y/n l/n, an 18 year old girl and youâve come back to start and, hopefully, finish your senior year at Seoul Highschool. Although what does seem to make your experience there a little more bearable are your two friends Seo Kyung-Hu and Hu Mee-yon, while those two have been friends since primary school, you only met them in Middle school when you first transferred and they being the only nice enough kids willing to approach you, the three of you clicked instantly and ever since your trio have stayed a complete set.
Unlike your two friends, you could care less about school purposefully staying up late in hopes of sleeping through your alarm and having a valid excuse to miss the first day of school. And your plan worked⌠to some extent. Your mother on the other hand was keen to send you to the school you paid money for, as you should. You were fast asleep dreaming about exo performing as ot9 was suddenly awoken by the screaming of your mother. âYAH Y/N WAKE UP AND GET TO SCHOOL BEFORE I TAKE ALL YOUR EXO POSTERS AGAIN!â hearing that was enough to make you jump out of bed and start getting ready, not without a few complaints of course. Walking into your washroom you take one good look at your face in the morning, âoh godâ youâre at least grateful your skin decided not to break out on the first day of school however your face was still puffed and quite dull. You continued washing your face, brushing your teeth and putting on that god awful, ugly, disgusting, and horrific uniform, as you described. Objectively your uniform wasnât at all bad however you had the tendency to well⌠overthink. (the uniform looks like the A-teen beige uniform)
It being 8:35 and school starting at 8:45, you speed walked and slightly ran to school attempting to cut the initial 10 min walk in half with at least 5 mins to spare just in case. Fortunately enough you managed to get there on time to check what your classroom was, before the bell. Room 215? Ok⌠WHERE IS THAT AGAIN?! Somehow the break managed to erase most of your memory of the school, although there wasnât much worth remembering about your most hated location on planet earth. You run around frantically desperately trying to find your homeroom before a teacher, or worse a hall monitor. You stop in the middle of an empty hallway to text your friends where the hell room 215 is, until you hear a unfamiliar voice reach out to you, âAre you lost babygirlâ WHAT THEEE it took a second for you to process what the guy had said until out of instinct you start to laugh uncontrollably with your eyes starting to tear up. You turn around, hand holding your stomach, âWhat did you just say?â you ask, unable to take the male standing in front of you seriously. He stares at you, seeming to enjoy that you understood his reference, âWhat so youâre telling me youâre not totally turned on by that comment?â With a slight over exaggerated gasp at the end of his sentence, obviously showing that he was joking. âNo no your question was valid just-â unable to finish your sentence you rerun the moment that had just unfolded through your head, succeeding in making you burst out in laughter again. His voice cuts through your laugh, âNo but seriously you seem lostâ finally regaining your composure, you take a minute to examine his appearance, and his attractiveness, and realizing youâve been staring for a bit too long you panic quickly trying to cover it up, âYEAH UM i'm lost do you know where room 215 is?â âNew student?â âno just dumbâ He laughs at your honesty and points you in the right direction like a true gentleman. âOh my god thanks so much, hope I see you again cute stranger!â you end your sentence with a wink and then run off after getting a glimpse of his dumbfounded expression although close enough to hear him yell out, âThe nameâs YangYang!âÂ
The odds were in your favour managing to slip into class before your teacher arrived and you had a mini-mental celebration before choosing to sit in the empty window seat in the middle row with an empty seat beside you to limit the amount of human interaction you get. Sitting down in your seat and see the teacher walk in and start the generic beginning of the school year talk, you text your friends to pass the time, who were lucky enough to have their class together, while the class goes through the course outline. After waiting a few minutes at the front, you see both of your friends, Kyung-hu and mee-yon or as you called them kyuhu and mimi to simplify their names, walk out and you guys greet each other before the three of you walk in the direction of your neighborhood, talking about what you all did during the break, all the annoying teachers and most recent gossip.Â
Youâd notice that the first week of school would follow this routine, passing by quite quickly and finding it uneventful as your teacher didnât give a lot of homework as it was the first week of school. During the first week you concluded that there was no one in your classroom, or in the school for that matter that piqued your interest except for the fellow that helped you on the first day but has managed to slip your sight every time you scanned your surroundings to find him. Although just as fast as the first week passed by, the weekend went just as fast, and based on how your school operates, itâd be the only free weekend youâd have in a long time. And much to your dissatisfaction, you found herself in the same situation from a week ago, tired, lazy and lacking any motivation to go to school. Despite this you actually made an effort to wake up early, too early, to get ready for school to escape the never ending nagging from your mother over calls from the office over your tardy attendance. After eating a good enough breakfast, you open your door expecting a cold breeze to meet you as it did last week but to your surprise the outside was bright and dry, with no traces of snow, almost as if the weekend magically changed Seoul from winter to spring. However the leaves on the trees would need a lot more time than a weekend to grow back to their former glory. Remember when I mentioned you woke up too early, you were exactly two hours early when you arrived at the school, which suddenly made sense to you when you realized that no one in your house was awake yet and the roads in your neighborhood felt deserted. After walking around the campus you finally settle on a familiar tree on the outskirts of the school grounds, its location the very reason why you and your friends chose it as your casual lunch location for the past two years. You set your bag on your lap hugging it like a pillow laying your head on it for support and almost immediately you start drifting off the sleep.Â
Unbeknownst to you, your perfect sleep would be ruined by one Park Jisung, you see park jisung made the mistake of waking up 20 mins before school started not taking into account it was his very first day at the highschool and he was bound to get lost on the way to school and if he even managed to find the school, heâd have no idea where his classroom as he also missed orientation for all new students. Late and lost, jisung looked around the front of the building in search of someone to help him but since school had already started most staff and students were already inside. Although it wouldâve been easier for jisung to walk inside the building somehow he noticed a figure under a tree not too far from him, jisung assuming it was a student figured itâd be easier to ask a student then suffer a scolding or even awkward small talk with a teacher. He runs up to the sleeping person under the tree and realizes itâs a girl from the long hair and skirt, legs criss crossed under a bag you is hugging and sleeping on. Reluctant to grab your attention, awakening you from your slumber, but he must do so if he ever wishes to get to class. âExcuse me?â Jisung repeats this a few times first with a shy voice growing in volume in desperation to wake you up. In your dream EXO OT9 were just about to sing love shot, one of the comebacks lay missed out on, when you heard a reluctant voice repeatedly saying excuse me disrupting your peace and not to mention exoâs performance. Jisung seeing that his voice was not enough to wake you up he starts to get physical. You try to ignore the voice hoping itâd go away until it actually starts poking your shoulder, now you have no choice but to let go of your perfect dream and wake up to respond to the thing that dares interrupt your nap. Jisung notices the girl moving, satisfied that he finally woke you up, he watches as you yawn and rub your eyes, cute he thinks to himself admiring the girlâs sleepy and adorable state. You open your eyes to see a timid but tall boy crouched beside you, finger still pointed after persistently poking you. âYes?â glaring at the poor boy with the rudest voice you could muster expecting him to get the hint to leave you alone. âU-um can u help me?â Looking at the nervous state of the boy you empathize with his confusion seeing as you were in a similar dilemma a week ago. Softening your expression you say, âyeah what's up?â using a tone completely opposite of the one a second ago, causing Jisung to relax and become more at ease after noticing your change in attitude, âoh can u tell me where this classroom is?â Jisung points at his paper, saying Room 215. He watches your face light up, âOh! That's my classroom you can just follow me!â And you give the boy an eye smile, happy that you can help him and possibly become friends with the boy. Jisungâs ears turn pink admiring how cute your smile is and touched by your hospitality. you stand up dusting off your skirt and checking if you had any dirt on your clothes or legs. Putting your backpack on and adjusting the straps you ask the boy what time it was. âOh it's 9:00 amâ Jisung says to you sheepishly hoping he doesnât shock you by how late they both are, âOH SHOOT'' After hearing the time realizing just how fucked you were, acting quick you grab the new boyâs hand and start running towards the building. Jisung trailing behind the small girl is blushing due to the sudden skin ship and can feel his heart pounding due to the spontaneousness of the girl's actions along with the running not at all helping with his heart rate. Running across the field underneath the sunlight causes an increase in heart rate, a mutual feeling felt by the two, but you both recognize it as a mere adrenaline rush as you both try to take in the predicament you find yourselves in. Jisung staring at the hand who had taken his own so boldly, looked up staring at your hair that had turned from a raven black shade to a chocolate brown in the sunlight admiring how it swayed while you ran. Continuing to run you turn around with a huge smile across your face locking eyes with the boy whos awestruck expression turns into a comforting smile. Somehow without even knowing each other's names you both felt as if you've managed to escape reality, like the two of you were the only people in the universe, a feeling so rare, a scene only in movies, an occurrence never forgotten and yet was just experienced by these two individuals, even if it was just for a moment.Â
April: April bears us spring, which in turn prepares us for summer. The weather is unlike any other, it follows the frigid temperatures of winter and yet precedes the intense heat of summer, the month is in equilibrium.Â
You watch from the safety of the other side of the field as Jisung is teased yet again by his new found friend group. As cliche as it sounds he managed to land himself with the âpopular kids'' group despite this school not caring much for social norms, even if there was a popular group itâd be them and theyâve accepted him wholeheartedly as if he spent the last two years with them. Much to everyoneâs surprise Jisung was capable of fitting in despite him being the new kid and it being the last year, it was almost as if he was the missing part of their friend group. The group consisted of Chenle, Renjun, Jeno, Jaemin, Haechan and Mark and they werenât just popular, they were rich and attractive as well. âOh how heâs blossomedâ you say to yourself while admiring Jisung for coming out of his shell and express himself freely âOh god please donât tell me you just said thatâ âYou sound like a pedoâ As if on cue your two friends arrive at your spot under the tree, slightly creeped out by your confession. âYA I didnât mean it like that!â you say pouting at your friends' judgmental remarks. âItâs just that heâs grown so much and itâs only been a month'' taking one last glimpse at Jisung having fun before turning to your best friends who have already started to eat. âJisung was an innocent shy boy when you met him, your maternal instincts kicked in when you first saw him, so helped him out and get comfortable at the school and now you feel like youâve raised him but now that heâs found a proper friend group youâre sad blah blah blah yes we get it.â Shocked and speechless at what Mee-yon just said, you shake your head looking down before resting your head on your arms placed on your knees while meeting their gaze, âDid I really sound like a pedo?â this time Kyung-Hu was the one to reply âyes you definitely didâ nodding innocently while getting it to you straight. And with that final blow you hide your head in your crossed arms similar to a fetal position, accepting your defeat at their teasing.Â
As you hear your friends move on to a new topic you just keep your head down too tired to raise it and decide to take a mini nap to hopefully make up for the 3 hours of sleep you got the night before. It wasnât like you and jisung falling off bothered you that much you actually rarely thought about it, but for some reason today you were bothered. I guess we were never really friends. I guess more like friendly acquaintances? What about the time we hung out after school or skipped class together, did that mean anything? You sighed letting go of the memories of jisung and started falling asleep unaware of the glances from the same person you were just thinking about. You dreamed about the day you two met, after getting too tired to run the whole way there, since the two of you were already late you decided to just walk the rest of the way to your classroom while in the school, to give Jisung a mini school tour. âYou just transferred here right?â âyeah I used to live in Inseonâ âso whyâd you decide to move here and transfer just a week after school started?â âMy mom got an unexpected promotion she couldnât refuse so we had to move to Seoul, but you sure ask a lot of questions'' you remember him teasing you for that âWell do you blame me? Iâm curious.â You catch him off guard by your retaliation, âso do you miss it?â asking another unexpected question that causes a change in mood after bringing up his old home. âOf course I do, I grew up there, I had friends there and I had memoriesâ you turned around noticing his melancholy expression while reminiscing and looked at him with concern, feeling sorry for the boy who was just staring at the ceiling almost as if he was trying to find something that was not even there. He notices the silence and makes eye contact with you realizing he mustâve worried you. âOh but itâs better this way!â He says happily to ease your obvious concern and you stare at the nervous boy, eyebrow raised not convinced by his sudden change of heart. You let it go and the two of you walked a little bit more in silence before stopping, well at least you stopped, Jisung was absent minded enough to not realize you had stopped walking and bumped into back, you instantly looked up and stared at the boy directly over you. Jisung as the shy boy he was, panics and steps back slightly red which causes you to chuckle at his innocent behaviour. âWell here we are room 215â but before jisung was able to walk into the classroom, you turn around and stop him holding out your palm showing the universal symbol to stop, before extending it as a handshake. âBefore you hear it from anyone else, I'm y/nâ while grinning from ear to ear and jisung grasps your hand and gives you a light handshake, âhi iâm park jisungâ returning you the same enthusiasm through a smile. After holding each others hands a little longer than expected, you let go awkwardly and enter the rowdy classroom filled with talking, laughter and pure ruckus.Â
You didn't know one was capable of dreaming of a memory but you just did, and just as it was before, your nap was interrupted by noise, this time in the form of whispers, many whispers. You lift your head using your right hand to rub your eyes to adjust to the light and you meet eyes with the very boy you were dreaming about. âJisung?â you ask with open eyes, confused and surprised. âO-oh hi y/n we meet here againâ he answers, scratching the nape of his neck sheepishly. His friends beside him, snicker at his awkward response and continue laughing amongst each other mocking him, jisung notices this and pretends heâs about to hit them so theyâd stop making you feel uncomfortable. He looks back at you even more embarrassed to explain his presence in front of you, âso-â âWhy are you here, and where's kyung-hu and mee-yonâ You notice that your two friends are nowhere to be found and you become more and more anxious being alone with practical strangers. âFunny you should mention that, they actually-â âWe went to get some snacks!â Although kinda mad at them for leaving you alone, at least they showed up before this conversation could get any more awkward than it already was. Jisung feels quite relieved sparing him from the awkward exchange however his friends canât get enough of his uncomfortableness bursting out in laughter when he was interrupted, not once but two times. Jisung and his friends move themselves to the tree beside you guys resting under the shade after mee-yoon and kyung-hu return back to their seats. After waiting until they were at a comfortable distance you start yell/whispering at your friends, âWHat the fuck guys you dont leave me alone with strangers!â âOh donât worry at least you finally talked to him instead of staring at him all day. Plus we needed to get enough snacks for all of us and we all know one person canât carry all of that food. So please consider this strawberry milk as an apology.â Kyung-hu offers you the drink with Mee-yoon nodding her head in agreement. âUgh I guess this was worth that horrible experienceâ you take your favourite drink after barely eating anything due to your lack of appetite.Â
The bell goes off and everyone starts to leave the field and head under the main building including you and your friends and since those two had a class together you took a different hallway hearing footsteps behind you before realizing the only person that couldâve been behind you was someone in your class, god please kill me now. And before the awkwardness kills you, you turn around and break the silence âhey thanks for watching me while I slept I understand my friends prolly asked you to do it as a favour and I really appreciate itâ Jisung looks up after staring at his feet initially scared to stare in your direction. âNo problem, i'm sorry that woke you up from your nap under that tree, it feels almost like deja vuâ Both of you shyly laugh at his reference to your first encounter reminiscing the past memory. âTell me park jisung why is it always you that must ruin my napping time? What have I done to deserve such cruelty.â Your exaggeration and choice of words managed to put a smile on his face and even a chuckle out of him. âHey that's not my fault youâre obsessed with sleeping under that tree.â âBut itâd be a waste not to, the weather this time of the year is just right, you can feel the heat but it's not overbearing it comforts you, it doesnât require you to add layers nor remove any. We donât need to change, not one bit. I canât afford to take these moments for granted.â Jisung stares at your back taken aback by your sudden seriousness, not to mention the topic being the mere weather. Coincidentally the roles were now reversed, it was now Jisung that was perplexed by the change of mood similar to how you were a month ago. Although he could tell your words held more depth than they let on and decided not to speak on the matter moving on with the conversation. âBut seriously no need to thank me after all I do kinda owe you for helping me out, plus youâre my friend, actually my first friend at this schoolâ flashing you a smile which eases the awkwardness of your conversation. âFriend?â you widen your eyes at the title, unaware he saw you like that considering the limited time the two of you spent together. âYeah that's what you call people you care about right?â your eyes follow his figure with a speechless expression on your face as he passes by you and walks ahead to go back to class, but just before he walks in he steps back to look back at you, âare you coming, friend?â before winking at you, emasked in the sunlight coming from the classroom, changing his eyes a lighter shade, before completely walking into the classroom. He leaves you baffled and blushing at his new found confidence and you are still processing what just happened, did he just wink at me? You shake your head trying to forget his words in hopes of calming your heart rate and enter your classroom sitting in your seat, on the other side of the class. Despite how much you try to hide your embarrassment, you just couldnât hide how pink your ears were, same as jisung who might have put on a brave front, is slightly regretting and yet at the same time, proud of what he said. Both of you refusing to look anywhere else but down and especially not at each other, lost in your own thoughts but if the both of you had just looked at eachother even if it was just for a moment, you both wouldâve found out something crucial about each other.Â
May: May does not only serve as the last stretch of spring but as a period of freedom. It enables the ability to be free enough to have dreams and independent enough to act on them.Â
Unlike the last two months you and jisung actually managed to talk more, although more doesnât necessarily mean a lot but considering you and him have only shared a few meaningful conversations over the span of two months, your current relationship was a huge upgrade. Disregarding the occasional partner project or pairing in physical ed, in which you and jisung had always chosen each other considering both of your friends were in different classes, youâve developed somewhat of a casual and low maintenance friendship, that didnât need frequent conversations but had few but worthwhile moments, all of which were cherished by the both of you, as they reassembled the same serenity the two of you shared the first day you met each other. The moments you shared rarely felt forced and if they were, due to the immature pressures of both of your friend groups, the two of you had no trouble slipping into your own world. As naive as it sounds the friendship the two of you shared was purely platonic, no doubt there were moments of butterflies and heart racing however it only lasted just for a moment, quickly fading away. However someone you were interested in was the guy that helped you on your first day, although all that you knew about him was his name, yangyang.Â
You and your two friends approach the stands taking your seats to watch the soccer game hosted by your school after getting invited to sit beside jisung and a few of his friends to cheer on Jaemin, playing as a forward and Jeno, the goalie. As you look forward at the field and someone wearing the number 24 caught your eye. You found the haircut and build of number 24 familiar. You struggled trying to figure out just where you saw someone with similar features as 24, but it was only until he finally turned in your direction, getting a good look at his face. âThat's him!â you accidentally stood up, hands covering your open mouth and jisung who was having a conversation with his best friend chenle, turned around to look at your stunned expression. âHm? What happened?â You looked around embarrassed by drawing attention to yourself and sat back down awkwardly, leaning towards jisung who sat in the row in front of you to whisper, âdo you know who number 24 is?â âYeah thatâs yangyang but what about him?â âYeah I KNOW what his name is, but like who is he?â âI hope you realize how stupid you sound, but why are you asking me, IâM the new kid remember? Not the person who has been attending this school for the past two years.â Jisung raises his eyebrow to you confused as to why you donât know who this guy was, expecting the both of you to have already met at least once. âSo what youâre basically saying is that you got nothing?â âNo I never said that, for your information yangyang is our age but he only transferred here last year from Germany. I guess he keeps himself lowkey, soccer is really his only extracurricular.â âbruh you shouldâve just led with that, not with any of this new kid bsâ âI think you meant to say thank youâ Jisung gives you a deadpan look disappointed by your ungratefulness, you catch a glimpse of his face and laugh at how annoyed he is. Hoping not to make your friend upset, you lean in and stick out your tongue playfully in a teasing manner before flashing him your signature smile, âThank you Jwi~â. Taken aback by his nickname (jwi means mouse in korean) along with the hint of aegyo in your voice, blood rises to his cheeks and to his ears but before you properly see it, he covers his face with his hands while looking down although his ears, like always, were giving him away.Â
But before you could tease him the announcer's voice filled the outdoor stadium, âLadies and gentlemen the game between Seoul Highschool and Apgujeong Highschool is about to commence!â Suddenly you hear everyone in the stands start screaming yelling to the top of their lungs. âWe will first introduce the starting lineup of the home team, starting with co-captains Na Jaemin and Lee Jeno!â You, jisung and both of your friends stand up and start cheering on the duo running onto the field, as you have become quite friendly with jisung and his friends so it was only fitting for you to support them. After their introduction you paid no attention to the remainder of the names until, âNow introducing number 24 yangyang!â Your head that was previously resting on your palm was raised after hearing that familiar name and you lean in trying to get a closer look at him before going beside jisungs ear. âYaâ Jisung, scared by the sudden noise, flinches back leaning on to chenle, who was too distracted talking to Renjun to notice his best friend but jisungs reaction does cause you to grin. Pointing at the smiling boy on the field, you say âDo you know what class heâs in?â âOh him?â He takes a double check looking you up and down weirded out by your enthusiasm and interest in the soccer player. âYes we were literally talking about him like 10 seconds agoâ you rolling your eyes at his forgetfulness, you find it hard to believe he could be this oblivious knowing he was acting like this to tease you. âYeah I know what class heâs inâ you glare at the boy already knowing youâd have to do the most for him to finally spill the tea. âUh would you like to tell meee?â you, not caring if you seemed desperate. âLemme think, hmmm yeah no i'm goodâ âYAH PARK JISUNG'' you see his amused expression before coughing to regain your composure and trying another strategy âCan u please tell me~â you try to act as soft and cute as possible and although aegyo tears away at your soul, you know jisung couldnât bare the sight of it. âSTOP OH GODâ He tries to cover your face so he wouldnât need to watch your aegyo any longer but you being determined, keep dodging him so he could see every cute action youâd do. âPlease jisung~â âOKOK FINE JUST PLEASE STOP!â You quickly change your expression to a serious one which slightly scares jisung âso tell me what his classroom isâ you say in a threatening tone while stabbing his ribs with your fingers causing him to flinch away, he sighs and slouches showing his surrender, caving into your antics, âfine itâs room 105â âThank you! See that wasnât so hard now was it?â You happily smile at him but you can see he obviously didnât reciprocate the same feelings of joy and instead glaring at you. âEasy for you to say I have to bleach my eyes and tend to my woundsâ Jisung cries out while holding the ribs you just stabbed, you roll your eyes yet again and scoff at his over exaggeration. âYouâre such a kid.â âI'm legit older than you soo youâre the child hereâ him feeling proud at his comeback, looks up to catch your reaction but youâre pouting, hand crossed over your chest upset by the undeniable fact, which he finds kind of adorable. âAnyways why are you so interested in this guy anyways? Do you like him or somethingâ jisung asks with his eyebrow raised while poking your leg suggesting that you do hold feelings for the boy, you feel your face become slightly hot by his suggestion. You swat his hand away and say, âN-no, the answer is no. How can I even like him, I hardly know anything about him. Iâm just...â âyou're just?â you start glaring him for interrupting your sentence and for teasing you. âIâm just interestedâ you finally end your sentence returning a playful wink to jisung just as he did a month ago. âUh huhâ Jisung says with a suspicious tone before turning around showing his back to you and properly watching his friends play in their first game of the season. Not satisfied with his answer you decide to talk a bit more, âwhat, canât a girl be interested in a guy? I canât just sit around dreaming about the day he approaches me, when I want something, whatever that may be, I go get it! Plus donât you have anyone youâre interested in?â Still refusing to turn to you, you assumed he was just ignoring you, not paying attention to your question but jisungâs act backfired when you noticed his ears turn pink after hearing what you asked. âHeoll~, our jisungie has a crush?â (heol is korean slang for omg) you start shaking his shoulders out of excitement of this discovery. Still not looking at you, jisung puts his head in his hands to hide his embarrassment, amused by his timidness, you try to make him turn to you but he won't budging, unable to look at you to spare himself further embarrassment. In truth jisung didnât have anyone he was interested in, so he was confusing himself but it was probably the question itself and the possibility of him having a crush that made him embarrassed, or at least thatâs what he told himself. âYaaaaa jisunggg tell me~â You say in a teasing voice but realizing your strategy wasnât gonna make him turn your way, you smirk hoping that if anything were to get him to turn around itâd be this. So you start tickling him hoping he was even ticklish which fortunately he was, severely ticklish at that too. He starts to spasm due to the tickling laughing uncontrollably using his hands to block your hands and move away from your grasp. âYA STO-â turning around to yell at you, unaware at how close you got when trying to tickle him, he stops mid sentence finally realizing the lack of distance between the two of you. He takes a small gasp interrupting what he was going to say, speechless by the sudden eye contact, but itâs too late your eyes were already locked. âAh there you are~â you say that in such a gentle tone that it was more of a whisper, inaudible to anyone besides you and jisung. Once again you guys find each other in the sunlight, which lights up both of your eyes making them seem as clear as honey, unaware of everyone standing up, cheering as yangyang just scored a goal. Both of you too lost in each other's eyes to notice anything else besides the smallest details in each other's irisâ. However the gaze is suddenly broken when you look around and realize the cause of celebration, clueless to jisung's lingering gaze. âOh my god look yangyang just scored a goal!â You tell the boy in front of you eyes glimmering with admiration, much to jisung's displeasure. Jisung was slightly upset at the soccer player who was the reason for breaking your eye contact, along with the fond expression brought to your face when looking at yangyang rather than himself. And although jisung might never admit it, deep down heâd wish for you to look at him like that even if it was just for a moment.
June: After months in the cold waiting for the arrival of summer, at last June has arrived. The month does not only represent a drastic change in temperature but in emotions as well, this month is when mere feelings can finally develop, for better or for worse.Â
âI like youâ the words you hear coming out of your newest friend, whom youâve become quite close to and bonded with over the past month. âYangyang I-â âitâs okay you donât have to answer, I just wanted to tell youâ The boy says before winking and smiling at you with confidence. In the distance you could hear his friend Hendrey call out to him in a distance and you see him turn around to wave at his friend and turn back around, âanyways y/n I kind of need to go now, my friend is calling meâ He says scratching the back of his neck, reminding you of another male friend of yours, using his thumb to point back to hendrey. He runs off to his friend, not forgetting to turn around, giving a cute wave before Hendrey wraps his arm around his shoulders walking off to who knows where. Now youâre left alone dumbfounded, behind the school building with a stunned expression, while physically you look as if your mind is blank your thoughts were far from that of panicking at your friends sudden confession. In retrospect you were kind of expecting this to happen as at some point considering your relationship was never just friends, you yourself started talking to him with slight romantic interests involved. Although it was, at least for you, a bit too soon. Still baffled by recent events you failed to notice the running footsteps of two boys come from behind you. âYA CHENLE GIVE THAT BACK!â You remain stuck in your headspace as both boys suddenly stop when they notice your strange figure and start whispering to themselves. âYah isn't that y/n?â Chenle says to the jisung who steps closer to get a better look at you standing alone, he turns back to his friend âUh yeah I think so?â Thereâs a second of silence as the boys try to figure out the odd circumstance, before Chenle says, âoh well HAVE FUN!â sticking out his tongue and running away while laughing uncontrollably hoping jisung doesnât try to go after him after successfully figuring out his password and stealing his phone. âYAâ jisung lets out a heavy sigh giving up trying to get his phone back and turning towards the dazed girl, shaking your shoulder a bit to get you out of your trance âY/n?â âH-huh? Jisung? W-what're you doing here?â âI should ask you the same thing, I mean you're all alone out hereâ âOh I was? I guess I didn't notice.â You shake your head trying to forget yangyangâs confession and bring yourself back to reality not noticing jisung turning his head to the side to hide the slight blush after seeing you in a confused state. Confused as to why he had suddenly spaced out looking in another direction, âJisung?â You ask him while tilting your head cutely, an action jisung was still able to see in his peripheral vision which made him want to keep his head turned away even more. It was now you trying to get his attention so you smile realizing the irony of the situation,âY-yeah?â âYou wanna go to class now?â You say smiling before walking ahead of him with a slight skip in your step. âYeah sureâ you hear him say awkwardly following you to class. The two of you walked in silence from that moment on side by side, you taking a few glances to check up on him as he did with you and whenever you two did make eye contact you both gave each other a smile that although a bit awkward, was comforting in some way.Â
It was almost a week after yangyangs confession and since then youâve fortunately managed to avoid him, still confused with what your answer, but it wasnât whether or not you had feelings for him or not because you knew the boy could make you laugh, smile and give you butterflies at soon as you laid eyes on him, but you felt as if it was rushed. You considered it as only a crush than deep feelings for a committed relationship, simply put it was too early. And yet you knew youâd regret rejecting him because you didnât want your relationship to end, rejecting him would risk losing, what would've been a perfect relationship due to your own indecisiveness. Ugh I hate feelings, you trying to decide your answer, was exactly what caused you to get lost during your late night walk you took to clear your head. Realizing that youâd been spacing out, you take a look at your surroundings and you had absolutely no idea where you were. âOh shitâ although what you could recognize is a neon sign at the end of the street that spelled out Convenience Store with a couple tables and seats at the front for eating. Feeling your stomach give a loud growl, you unlock your phone just to check if you have time to spare to eat some ramen, before your mom yells at you for staying out too late, 9:00 only? âOK! Lets go!â you celebrate to yourself, pumping a fist in the air before skipping towards the store and greeting the cashier. While you run your finger through the shelfs scanning the inventory trying to find your favourite ramen, âcheese ramen, cheese ramen, cheese ramenâ All of a sudden you hear the door of the store open due the iconic bell and you hear a voice, a male voice greet the cashier as well, âGood evening~â FUCK! You instantly recognize the voice cursing inwardly at the chances youâd bump into him at a convenience store of all places. You immediately move to the next aisle, away from the entrance praying that he wouldnât see you hiding behind the end of the aisle. âThis literally cannot be happening to meâ âWhat canât be happening to you?â you let out a shriek, jumping back startled to hear ANOTHER voice. Please don't be him, please don't be him, you open your eyes that were shut due to fright, to look up at the stranger that just scared you âJ-jisung?â âYeah who else?â You wonder why you didnât recognize his voice initially but you see his confident grin while looking at your distressed state, it somehow pleased him to see you like this. âSo you gonna answer my question or are you gonna keep on staring at me?â Realizing you must look completely crazy, you fix your posture to look at jisung straight in the eye, ânone of your business.â And you walk away from the boy taking your former spot using the aisle to block anyoneâs view of you. You occasionally peek your head out just to check on the whereabouts of the mystery boy and jisung takes notes of this, standing behind you, hovering like the giant he is. He chuckles at your childishness, âwho are you hiding from?â He asks out loud not caring if anyone heard him, you panic quickly putting your hand over his mouth to shut him up. âJheez can u be any louder? Plus did I not make it clear, none. of. your. business.â Jisung pouts at you before licking the inside of your hand causing you to let go of him and give him a look of a disgust while you try to wipe his saliva off your hand with your sweater, but all he does is flash you a playful smile satisfied with your reaction. You roll your eyes at jisungs shenanigans and turn around to continue your spying seeing that the boy stayed by the cashier examining the gums and candies. Jisung follows your gaze tryna figure out just who youâre so afraid of before realizing who it was and his smile then turned into a thin line. âHim?â âYa what do you mean him? That's yangyang!â You hit jisung offended by his reaction to your crush. Jisung flinches pretending that your hit actually hurt, âyeah did I stutter?â you ignore what jisung just said, too focused on predicting the movements of yangyang, maybe focusing too hard that just when you thought he was going to leave without noticing you, you two accidentally make eye contact and you quickly hide behind the aisle hoping he didn't see you. With your chest going up and down, you struggle to control your heart rate placing your hand on your chest to hopefully help lower it down. Jisung widens his eyes seeing you so flustered, âwhy what happened?â he looks at you, concerned thinking youâre having a heart attack. âHe saw meâ you slide down now sitting on the floor with your legs folded in front of you while you hide your face in your hands breathing into them, trying to calm yourself down. âWhat am I gonna do, what am I gonna doâ you continually repeat those words slightly scaring jisung in the process, although after seeing you in this condition he realized he needed to help in some way. âOkok just stay hereâ patting your head before walking off leaving you to curl up on your own. Jisung walks down the aisle that yangyang just saw you in, already meeting face to face with the boy that had walked in your direction trying to check if it was really you or a hallucination. He stops when he sees jisung, taking a step back confused as to why heâd see him there of all places, âJisun-â âOh hey Yangyang funny seeing you here, isnât it a bit late tho? Based on what jeno and jaemin were talking about I swear you guys have soccer practice in the morning tomorrow at 6, no?â Jisung interrupted yangyang, rambling on about a made up soccer practice, jisung thought of on the spot, while putting his arm around the clueless boy's shoulders pushing him until they made it out of the store and before yangyang could process what was happening. âO-oh they never told me we had practiceâ âoh well good thing you heard it from me, tho you might wanna double check just in case, ok?â ây-yeah ok, but wait-'' but before jisung could hear his question concerning you, and then be forced to answer it he turned around and walked away allowing the convenience store door to shut thus ending their interaction, leaving yangyang completely dumbfounded as to how he ended up outside of the store instead of inside looking for you. Jisung gives a sigh of relief upon returning to the scared figure on the ground in front of him, âItâs okay nowâ you hear those comforting words escape his mouth and you lift up your head to look up at him, âis he gone now?â Suddenly, jisung feels heat rise to his cheeks when looking down at your curled up body, resembling a scared child and somehow your question triggered a protective instinct in jisung, who felt the need to protect you from all the things wrong in the world well at least all the things that you couldnât protect your own self from. Finally calming down after your nervous breakdown you stand up wiping away the dust on your clothes before turning to jisung with a smile on your face, âNow let's go eat some ramen!âÂ
Both of you walk out of the convenience store after finding your cheese ramen and his spicy one, cooking it using the hot water at the store. You both sit down on one of the tables in front of the store met with a cool breeze that cooled the two of you down a bit from the summer heat. After taking a few bites and many loud slurps from the ramen, the two of you take your time to chew creating a moment of silence so jisung turns to you, âso you wanna tell me what happened in there?â You feel obligated to give him an explanation especially after how he helped you out, swallowing your food you lay your chopsticks down and explain to him the situation of yangyang confessing to you and you being nervous and confused. âHeol, yangyang actually likes you? Whaaâ You throw a piece of your trash at him offended by his question, âYa what do you mean actually liked me, what is their not to likeâ you say while flipping your hair back confidently, âMhm you keep telling yourself thatâ his comeback slightly surprising you but you stop there not trying to take anymore insulting comments. âOk but I was really nervous back there, if I wasn't so antisocial or if I actually understood my feelings then maybe yangyang and I wouldâve already been dating and doing whatever couples do.â Thinking about the possibilities you pout and shove a bunch of noodles in your mouth to chew angrily, showing just how stressed out you were. Jisung lets out a laugh which earns a glare from you after being charmed by your inexperience and instead of making fun of your fantasies with yangyang, he empathizes with your situation thinking of a mature answer to help you out. âDo you seriously think anyone understands themselves? Because they donât. People may put on a convincing facade but trust me when I tell you everyone is just as confused as you are. Weâre teenagers for god sakes, weâre supposed to be going through this. You may not know what you want now, but in the future you will and how are you ever gonna figure it out unless you try? I have no idea what youâre feeling right now but I do know itâd be a waste to push those feelings aside because youâre scared. Youâre the only thing stopping yourself and for whatever the reason is to why you're scared, whether that be getting hurt or getting embarrassed, just know it's natural and whatâs meant to happen will happen but only if you allow it to.â In awe of jisungs words and yet curious as to how he developed all that wisdom. You stare at him, trying to read his face trying to understand what he was thinking. Instead you notice the soft glow of the neon sign on his features, his hair and face slightly lit up. You soften your expression while examining the details of the boy in front of you, whoâs sitting with a slight slouch while spacing out, looking down at his ramen that makes you giggle inwardly because it looks like heâs glaring at his own food. You notice just how innocent and vulnerable he looks, and yet on the contrary you are unable to understand his thoughts now matter how you try. You find yourself spotting traits about jisung that you never realized before, like the glimmer in his eye or the sound of his sniffle while eating hot noodles, or how his cheeks puff out in the slightest and his hands inter cross when trying to focus. Even if he was sitting right across from her, he felt beyond reach and in the perspective you found jisung in, he was what they call picture perfect. If only I could just read his mind, even if it was just for a moment. However you stop yourself from staring at your friend for any longer and look down to take in his words, the same words that caught you off guard. You take a minute to absorb jisungs advice and just as quickly as yangyang said those three words to you, three words of the same nature slip out of your mouth, delivering the long awaited answer you were trying so hard to figure out, âI like yangyang.â
If you were able to read this far, I love you~
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Petrichor
Eight
"I've lost heart. The forest's scarred. I hear no birds, just TVs and cars."
It had been seven weeks. You knew because you counted. You counted like you were a prisoner waiting for their release day. You counted like you were a seven year old tallying sheep in their head to help them fall asleep.
You counted seven weeks, two days, 5 hours, 37 minutes, and twelve...thirteen...fourteen seconds since you last spoke to either of them.
You were sick to say the least.
Well, face to face you should say.
Jisoo spoke to you once a week out of obligation. Only to organize days that you hung out with Lia.
Chaeyoung would respond to your texts occasionally. Probably when she felt a bit too bad for not answering your calls.
Somehow, in the middle of all that. You had managed to finish your 3rd year of grad. You're not sure how. You'd been working on autopilot.
You were tired. Exhausted even. And you're not even sure why.
Your phone rung. You'd hate to admit that you had hoped it was one of them. Luckily, you don't have to as your hopes were admittedly dashed upon looking at caller id.
It's your father.
"Hey, Kiddo." You decided not to overthink the dejection in his voice. He better choose his next words carefully because you don't think you can take much more of anything really.
"Hey, dad. What's up?"
"You mind coming down to Mount Sinai? It's your mom."
You must have murdered someone really important in a past life. Surely, that is the only explanation for why you would deserve any of this.
The rest of your afternoon is performed using the ever allusive autopilot feature of your brain.
You stared at your phone for a few minutes after getting dressed. You can't quite remember if you used it. You doesn't feel any worse than you did before so you assmumed you didn't.
You navigated the streets of New York and then the hospital quickly. You had been here a couple of times before.
You caught up with your father and younger brother. Your father doesn't look as concerned as he probably could, and that served to make both siblings feel better.
Kameron, your younger brother, looked about the same as when you saw him last. Which was 2 years ago. He was in his third year of undergraduate at Yale, and rarely left campus. You wondered when he would have found the time to come back up from Connecticut.
"They just took Maria back to emergency surgery. There were a lot of big words that I honestly think the doctor made up but what I think he was saying it was her kidney's again." George shrugged helplessly.
You just nodded.
"Hey, are you okay? What's going on?"
You turned around with a raised eyebrow.
"What are you doing here?"
"You asked me to come."
~â˘~
Can you come meet me at Mount Sinai? It's my mom.
I'm so sorry, Y/N. I'm stuck at work.
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Can you come meet me at Mount Sinai? It's my mom.
Omw
~â˘~
"Oh."
Apparently you had used your phone.
"Thank you, Jisoo." You sniffed.
Lia is clinging to Jisoo's neck sleepily.
You gestured vaguely to the waiting room a few feet away, "You can go sit in there. I'll be there in a bit."
Jisoo looked as though she wanted to say something further, but instead decided against it. She shuffled to the waiting room. Lia beginning to rouse from her apparent sleep deprivation.
You're true to your word. Twenty minutes later, you sat heavily in an uncomfortable, slightly outdated chair. Your face immediately found the palms of your hands.
"Thank you for coming."
Jisoo shrugged, Lia grumbled at being moved, "It isn't a big deal. You needed someone so I came."
You, only half listening, nodded slowly.
You both sat in silence. The general hustle and bustle of the hospital fluttering around you.
Jisoo still looked as though she wanted to say something.
You eventually spoke up. You stared straight ahead into the empty room. "I've been so fucking tired recently. Like for no goddamn reason. And tmi but, I keep going to the bathroom like every half hour, and it's not like I've been drinking more than I normally do. I hope I don't have what my mom has."
Jisoo's eyebrows knitted together. She thought back to something you weren't privy to. She grimaced slightly, "No, I don't think you have what your mom has." She doesn't elaborate further.
"I know you probably don't want to here this, but I'm so sorry. To both of you. I met you guys coincidentally on the same day, and I liked you so much, and it all got out of control so quickly." You decided you were all cried out at this point. You shrugged one of your shoulders and shook your head.
"I get it-"
"You do?"
"No, but it's okay. I'm still a bit upset, but I think that's just the alpha being stubborn."
You nodded and took a deep breath.
"Kiddo?" You turned your head in the direction of your father. He gestured for you to come to him.
Your dad had exactly two emotions. 'Just happy to be here', and 'mildly uncomfortable with what's currently happening'. Those two emotions generally caused his face to do the exact same thing, so he was very hard to read.
"The doc just came back for an update. Your mom is stable and everything is going well. Still going to be in the OR for a couple more hours." It was 'Just happy to be here'.
"Did he say what happened?"
George shrugged, "I'm sure he would if I asked, but I feel better not knowing."
"That's fair."
"Okay, just wanted to let you know. You can go back to your girlfriend now."
"She's not my girlfriend."
"Yeah alright. Anyway, love you, kiddo. I'll come get you when she's ready and awake."
You blushed heavily.
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"Now you said there were two. Where's the other one?" Your mom inquired. She had gotten out of surgery about two hours before. You had urged Jisoo to go home in the meantime. Lisa and Jennie were on their way, and Jisoo definitely needed to get Lia to bed at a decent hour.
"She got caught up at work. No big deal." You shrugged. You felt a bit bad for Chaeyoung. Your mom was most definitely going to judge her for this.
"I beg to differ, but quite frankly I don't have the energy to rant about it."
"Thank god."
Maria slapped you lightly on the hand.
It's then that your phone rings.
"See, she's calling now." You exclaimed. Your mother rolled her eyes.
"Hey."
"Hi...I'm sorry I couldn't be there. Some days I really hate my job. But nevermind that, is everything okay?"
"Yeah. Everything is cool now. My mother is just very dramatic and never does anything half assed." Maria swatted you again.
"Okay, that's great!"
"I'm sorry, Chaeyoung-"
"You don't have to apologize. It's okay. Um, I'll talk to you again...later." RosĂŠ hung up quickly. You tried to hide your pained frown from your mother.
You didn't succeed.
You turned back to your mother. Her lips pursed. Lisa, who had been sitting uncharacteristically quietly, raised an eyebrow.
You decided to keep quiet.
Unfortunately, it seemed their was only one way to ever get back to somewhere close to where you had been with both Chaeyoung and Jisoo.
You had to finally make a decision.
Fuck.
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